Elseware

The coolest breeze wafts
Through the open windows
I hear an owl hoot

Elseware

Yes, insomnia
The bain of my existence
Rears it's dreaded head

I am strangely calm
It's really just fine right now
I'm a night goddess

Float in my nightgown
Must be the dark of the moon
Blackness envelops

My thoughts interpret
Doesn't have to be gruesome
Cool air caressing

There's a coyote
He is howling and dancing
A bowl of starlight

A night hawk calling
Small animal meets it's death
We all gotta eat

The night is all life
If you give it a listen
Peace reigns in my heart

Elseware

It's been a year now
Since I gave up the pills
Sometimes I miss them

They still call to me
I feel lifeless without them
Most all of the time

I'm quiet and shy
I ride life's roller coaster
That's the truth of it.

Tiptree

You should be yelling
Up the peaks, down the valleys
Loud, wake up the dead

Gilmer

Fear it was bad news--
Zero, you are too quiet.
Whose *** do I kick?

zerothehero

i wish you were wrong
my brain is drooling out my
eyes and from my nose

zerothehero

It's so appalling
it's funny but in a sick
way like Pulp Fiction.

zerothehero

these past eight months have
been an epic test of my
will and sanity

zerothehero

These past eight weeks have
been a test of my fading
fool pacifism.

zerothehero

These past eight days have
tested my loyalties and
my allegiances.

zerothehero

These past eight hours have
tested my brain blood flow and
my nervous system.

zerothehero

These past eight minutes
have tested my consciousness
like near unconscious.

zerothehero

The past eight seconds
have been

Elseware

California
My Zero, I've been away
What's on the job front

How are you really
This heart is thinking of you
Your eight tender months

Gilmer

Work will not get done
If I keep on surfing here!
Got to pull the plug!

Elseware

Don't know any men
Who speak to me of feelings
It's just all surface

Sharing your feelings
Means a lot to me, Zero
Your heart is open

Appreciation
Is what I'd like to give you
And a big hug, too

zerothehero

when i am open
with family i seem to
scare them a little

or maybe a lot
because i do feel intensely
and that's why i drank

i performed in a
bar tonight with my old fans
all fourteen of them

they're still weird about
my sobriety but i
rocked the ******* house

so they forgive me
but that environment while
sober is crystal

i feel every pulse
smell the stale beer and absorb
all their sloppy pain

there is no cushion
or curtain to dull the light
or soften the space

i'm so damn sober
that i feel almost like a
squirrel in a tree

it's anxiety
something in my chemistry
that searches for meds

i feel so right and
yet so wrong in my body
i was born to drink

surrounded by drunks
astounded i'm not drinking
and yet curious

are you still on the
wagon - no i'm think i'm done
drinking forever

i started drinking
for the wrong reasons and i'm
better without it

somehow i can get
onstage and play with naked
thrashing abandon

i think i'm getting
better because i can dig
deeper in my soul

i can make myself
laugh and i can make myself
cry with the same song

a man on a wire
exposed to the elements
a balancing act

between madness and
brilliance or shadow and shine
the muse takes over

like dragging my thumb
along a blade just enough
to draw one blood drop

or stepping on a
thorn to tempt infection or
remember i'm here

my performances
are embarrassing and yet
people keep cheering

it's a primitive
and simple sound that only
zero can produce

just put it out there
and if the critics want to
laugh they've missed the point

it's terrifying
to be so vulnerable
and yet solid rock

if we were lovers
would i tell you how i feel
or keep it secret

zerothehero

i lost interest
in the music festival
and started walking

six miles and four hours
later there I was above
treeline in the wind

i would have bagged that
peak but it was too cold and
i needed water

alone but for the
marmots, bighorn sheep and birds
hugging a boulder

vision not quite right
shirt soaked with sweat and the heart
just keeps on pounding

then i thought if i
dropped dead right there i would have
died a happy man

zerothehero

has the haiku thread
lost its allure or are we
just on hiatus

Elseware

Hiatus, it seems
I've been too busy to think
Art fest, music fest

Insomnia gone
Doll up for another day
Love this time of year

The way the sun slants
The trees get that touch of frost
The rabbit brush blooms.....achoo!