Haiku Part 4
waking down
Join Date: Dec 2013
Posts: 4,641
breakfast was the worst
vodka and OJ on ice
to soften the real
slicing grapes because
they roll around the plate when
i have shaky hands
and making small talk
when i really just wanna
puke and go to bed
just pay and leave please
i've had it with you and me
especially me
no more of that noise
because mornings are fine and
i enjoy people
they're not so bad when
i feel good and sometimes they're
quite interesting
even mindless tasks
are better when i make them
mindful and loving
vodka and OJ on ice
to soften the real
slicing grapes because
they roll around the plate when
i have shaky hands
and making small talk
when i really just wanna
puke and go to bed
just pay and leave please
i've had it with you and me
especially me
no more of that noise
because mornings are fine and
i enjoy people
they're not so bad when
i feel good and sometimes they're
quite interesting
even mindless tasks
are better when i make them
mindful and loving
waking down
Join Date: Dec 2013
Posts: 4,641
dreamt i was drinking
wine last night and said why am
i drinking this wine
it's over-rated
even if you are not a
crazed alcoholic
think of the money
saved because you no longer
drink even "cheap" stuff
dreamt i dropped acid
and even tripping i was
anti-alcohol
wine last night and said why am
i drinking this wine
it's over-rated
even if you are not a
crazed alcoholic
think of the money
saved because you no longer
drink even "cheap" stuff
dreamt i dropped acid
and even tripping i was
anti-alcohol
Having a bad time
Don't know what this is about
This sickness rages
It won't go away
Whatever I do or don't
All I am is fake
Emptiness inside
The earth sparkles with new rain
Only middle ground
Just that would be fine
Yesterday I lay in bed
Tried to shut it out
My strength is waning
I've been stuck here for a while
I am getting scared
Sorry for this one, Friends
Don't know what this is about
This sickness rages
It won't go away
Whatever I do or don't
All I am is fake
Emptiness inside
The earth sparkles with new rain
Only middle ground
Just that would be fine
Yesterday I lay in bed
Tried to shut it out
My strength is waning
I've been stuck here for a while
I am getting scared
Sorry for this one, Friends
Else that's why we're here
To share the burden and load
Don't do it alone
What I've learned sober
Is to do less enduring
And more enjoying
You sound lonely there
Struggling with your houseguests
Unhappy and stressed
I've learned to say no
To people places and things
That don't fill me up
There's only one life
We need to honor ourselves
Comfort leads to joy
To share the burden and load
Don't do it alone
What I've learned sober
Is to do less enduring
And more enjoying
You sound lonely there
Struggling with your houseguests
Unhappy and stressed
I've learned to say no
To people places and things
That don't fill me up
There's only one life
We need to honor ourselves
Comfort leads to joy
House guests are like fish
They all stink after three days
Doesn't matter who
Not that they are bad
Or that we are misanthropes
Everyone needs their space
My guests bought chocolate
Cake that was to die for, I ate
Too much, so sick now
No will power
It's amazing I ever quit
Booze and cigarettes
They all stink after three days
Doesn't matter who
Not that they are bad
Or that we are misanthropes
Everyone needs their space
My guests bought chocolate
Cake that was to die for, I ate
Too much, so sick now
No will power
It's amazing I ever quit
Booze and cigarettes
I had the deep blues
Very early in my life
Trapped in a dark well
I woke up one day
sun was shining, don't know why
The darkness was gone
I fear it's reprise
Blue tentacles still linger
Could grab me again
Who knows, it happens
A faulty neurotransmitter
A demon attaches
Again the long slog
The forced march in concrete boots
Naked affect, gone
Would I fight again
Or meekly give up that light
So hard won, yet done
Or hold on fiercely
Like the new soul I am again
Sober in the dark
Very early in my life
Trapped in a dark well
I woke up one day
sun was shining, don't know why
The darkness was gone
I fear it's reprise
Blue tentacles still linger
Could grab me again
Who knows, it happens
A faulty neurotransmitter
A demon attaches
Again the long slog
The forced march in concrete boots
Naked affect, gone
Would I fight again
Or meekly give up that light
So hard won, yet done
Or hold on fiercely
Like the new soul I am again
Sober in the dark
Yesterday I learned
"We just don't have full time work."
Promise rescinded.
The news registered
Like lead in my stomach
Why did I trust them?
Reminding myself
That thy will not mine be done
Seek the divine plan
"We just don't have full time work."
Promise rescinded.
The news registered
Like lead in my stomach
Why did I trust them?
Reminding myself
That thy will not mine be done
Seek the divine plan
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