Tiptree

Such is life, as in
A Bronx Tale, "nothing sadder
Than wasted talent"

Gilmer

Frust-er-a-ting day
Get so angry at my dad
Driving me insane.

It goes on and on--
Every day there's something new.
Some things he can't help.

Go to bed early
Fresher when the morning comes.
If I live so long!

(no, that's not a suicide threat)

Elseware

Gilmer, you're a saint
Kind, gentle, sweet as a kiss
Thunder clouds your brow

I cared for my mom
Understand so very well
Grace calls upon you

Gilmer

((((Else))))

Gilmer

Posting on SR
Has picked me up quite a bit!
How I love this place!

zerothehero

that's why i come back
with you i can laugh and cry
and i'm never judged

zerothehero

you know that feeling
of elation after a
good puke - that's me now

like after a cry
when the skull feels hollow and
sedation sets in

but i didn't cry
and i didn't puke but the
week has been taxing

my head just feels strange
and i'm hoping i'm healthy
but don't rightly know

and doctors don't know
except the mri was
normal so who knows

tomorrow if i
awake i will make it the
best day possible

tomorrow when i
awake i will work like
it kind of matters

and it really does
people depend on me and
i don't want to fail

don't want to fail them
despite their pettiness and
serial abuse

problem is i care
that's what i'm told is my main
problem and it is

it is what it is
creating purpose out of
a steaming dung heap

no not a dung heap
that's the negativity
creeping into thought

it's all good i guess
life death work futility
a test for the soul

if i have a soul
yes i think i have a soul
at least i have soul

Elseware

This uncertainty
Difficult and confusing
Was it a migraine?

Medical advice
I'm dispensing to you now
I can't help myself

Heart's gone out to you
I know you've had a rough time
It will be all right

The empty promise
Wish that I could make it so
I would, don't you know

zerothehero

that promise may not
be empty and i will know
by tomorrow night

a silent migraine
that's my diagnosis but
the doc ain't convinced

he wants me to spend
more money on more tests but
that benefits him

i'm dragging my feet
and waiting for another
episode or not

zerothehero

i am living a
strange life but i am living
surrealism

zerothehero

they granted me the
transfer but i won't believe
it 'til it's for real

Gilmer

Yay, yay, yay, yay, yay!
Second time that they've said yes!
Closer to the truth!

Elseware

So when do you start
So we will know it's the truth
I'm happy for you

zerothehero

i'm working two jobs
'til they hire a replacement
it could be awhile

when my old office
is occupied by someone
else i'll know it's real

zerothehero

odd anxiety
symptoms subsided when my
new colleagues shared smiles

gleefan

Zero way to go
On the employment transfer
To meaningful work

Gilmer elder care
On the job stress in your house
Full time work no pay.

My job offer sucks
Gonna take a leap of faith
And change professions

Gilmer - take it easy on yourself, hun. You have taken on a responsibility that many folks pay professionals are to do. Maybe if you view it as "work" instead of "family" you'll be less frustrated by the daily dramas? I dunno. I could be off base. You have such a nice way of looking at things, and I know your faith plays a large role in your outlook, so just ignore me if what I'm saying is off base. Know that the reason I'm butting in is because I care about you.

Gilmer

Thank you very much.
Taking him out to a film.
Act and not react.

"I am a victim--"
That's a hopeless way of life.
Act before react.

Elseware

Company coming
Why do I feel so flustered
Time to cook and clean

Elseware

Folks coming over
Hard to socialize for hours
Need to keep talking

People in my house
This is when I want a drink
Hardest thing for me

zerothehero

I hear you, Elsie.
Try running a B and B.
I wished drinking helped.