Class Of February 2014 Part 9
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Originally Posted by gleefan 
Leigh - Always a pleasure to hear from you! I picture you all purple, pink, sparkly and surrounded by stars!!
Last night we caught fireflies; they look like twinkling stars.
You must be a little clairvoyant.
Purple is my second favorite color and I wear it often; it is usually the first crayon or marker I pick up when drawing with my little ones.
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Originally Posted by DiggingIn
I've been neglecting my faith for a long time. I know it is because I know that I have been living outside of God's will for me. Tonight I was having those familiar feelings of anxiety and sadness that led me to drink. I decided I'd fight these feelings by spending time in God's word. I simply opened my bible to where the bookmark was and this is what I read "For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self control, perseverance; and to perseverance godliness..." And the passage goes on.
I know not everyone is a believer, but this was almost like God laying out recovery. Trust in him, do good, learn about him and what he desires for you, practice self- control and persevere during those difficult times. He will reward your efforts. Break it down to two words: self-control and perseverance.
I know not everyone is a believer, but this was almost like God laying out recovery. Trust in him, do good, learn about him and what he desires for you, practice self- control and persevere during those difficult times. He will reward your efforts. Break it down to two words: self-control and perseverance.
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Torn - You have so much to gain by quitting. You still have your job, home, marriage, and education. Why wait til you've lost everything? On the other hand, no one could force me to stop. I wanted it - for me. I realized that I was lucky my drinking hadn't killed me yet, and that if I kept knocking myself out unconscious with alcohol, one day I wouldn't come to. I didn't stop for my husband, or kids, or a counselor, or anyone else. The people in my life have benefitted from my sobriety, but they aren't the reason I did it. When I was drinking, I thought I was only hurting myself. I didn't think that my drinking affected anyone all that negatively; that's alcoholism's confounding, deceitful nature. I've realized since then the people I've hurt because of my alcoholism, whether it be my actual drinking or my alcoholic thinking. Most of all, I hurt myself. Alcoholism prevented me from having healthy relationships, friendships, and a career, but I didn't realize it at the time. I just wanted to live.
Leigh - Clairvoyant or hypervigilant/a lucky guesser - I'm not sure which, although I prefer clairvoyant!
dSober - Interesting input on the spiritual piece.
Have a good day Febbies!
Leigh - Clairvoyant or hypervigilant/a lucky guesser - I'm not sure which, although I prefer clairvoyant!
dSober - Interesting input on the spiritual piece.
Have a good day Febbies!
01-14-2019
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The support I get here is unheard of. i'm in a rabbit hole but i know and with your help it doesn't need to be this way. I'm shocked at how hard this is. Addiction is crap - I don't wish this on anyone. Ugh. I'm still a problem but knowing I don't want to be one anymore gives me hope- I can hope and work towards being done with this. I love you guys - Febbies.
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Originally Posted by SoberLeigh
Green!!!! - Especially teal green.
My wife picked "mauve" for her bride's maids dresses. Busted her chops forever that they were purple. She always retorted: "NOT purple, MAUVE!". Looks awfully purple to me, lol.
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Originally Posted by SoberLeigh
I am guessing that you must have married in the 80s
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Originally Posted by SoberLeigh
dSober - I am guessing that you must have married in the 80s; mauve was a hot color then!!!
Originally Posted by dSober
Good guess, 2/9/8.....5, I think. Yeah, '85, daughter just checked time stamp on pic, lol.
My bridesmaids wore mauve as well, lol. Oh, and we were married 9/7/85! 
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Originally Posted by casinva
LOL! Your wife had great taste, dSober! My bridesmaids wore mauve as well, lol. Oh, and we were married 9/7/85!
My bridesmaids wore mauve as well, lol. Oh, and we were married 9/7/85! You know it makes me wanna SHOUT! 
01-14-2019
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Day Zero.
I was so sick with hangover, I forced a few drinks in after class, which means a half hour after midnight.
Tonight I expect the sweats, tossing and turning. I told my husband last night I'm going to try quitting again. When I went to work, I see he dumped everything, including hidden bottles, I didn't know about. I take that as support, or maybe he's joining me. We'll, here we go!
I have some new books to read. One is about the human mind, another about how humans aren't as violent as old days. Hopefully enlightening books.
I was so sick with hangover, I forced a few drinks in after class, which means a half hour after midnight.
Tonight I expect the sweats, tossing and turning. I told my husband last night I'm going to try quitting again. When I went to work, I see he dumped everything, including hidden bottles, I didn't know about. I take that as support, or maybe he's joining me. We'll, here we go!
I have some new books to read. One is about the human mind, another about how humans aren't as violent as old days. Hopefully enlightening books.
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With you, torn, all the way.
I am leaving for AZ in a few minutes. Don't know when I will be able to check-in again; could be weeks.
Love you guys. Don't forget how incredible, strong, beautiful and capable each of you are!!!!!
Gott go; I am so late.
I am leaving for AZ in a few minutes. Don't know when I will be able to check-in again; could be weeks.
Love you guys. Don't forget how incredible, strong, beautiful and capable each of you are!!!!!
Gott go; I am so late.
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Torn I'll be thinking of you tonight. Day one is hard. This round I went to AA on Day 1, sweaty, messy, and still coughing from cigs that I smoked the night before - menthol of all things. I listened and I looked within.
It might not sound like a celebration but it was. It opened my eyes to the fact that drinking wasn't working for me. Do you have time to catch a meeting tonight?
I'm only a pm away if you need support. Don't hesitate to contact me.
It might not sound like a celebration but it was. It opened my eyes to the fact that drinking wasn't working for me. Do you have time to catch a meeting tonight?
I'm only a pm away if you need support. Don't hesitate to contact me.
01-14-2019
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Just checking in. There weren't any sweats, just tossing and turning. The new book is about how the mind works.
I didn't do AA. I'm thinking that is option for the real test. The weekend.
Gazza, I see a blank post. I hope everything is ok as well.
I didn't do AA. I'm thinking that is option for the real test. The weekend.
Gazza, I see a blank post. I hope everything is ok as well.
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Originally Posted by tornrealization
I didn't do AA. I'm thinking that is option for the real test. The weekend.
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