tootsl1

Hi guys
All quiet here, been doing more text book recordings this morning, two hours is the extent of my voice holding out just now and my concentration. Reading text books out loud is so different to the speed reading in my head I am used to, and towards the end of the two hours I struggle to make out sentences.

LSC 20 months is amazing congratulations!

VC how are you feeling? Any better yet? I'm at (don't read the next bit if your eating)!coughing up gunk and sounding like an 80 year old 5 pack a day smoker. Pleasant! Not!
DG you are sounding like a breath of fresh air these days!

Jeni, I love going shopping with my step daughter, it usually costs me a fortune but we rarely spend time together just the two of us, and I love to see her happy.

Rusty, I can't get your link on my tablet, I will try on my laptop.

IP having your own showing how amazing, and the enthusiasm you have for your new project will give you so much to look forward to.

Dee , how can you not have been to the new muppet movie yet?? Shame on you!

Dee74

LOL It's only just come out here Toots - I've been busy too, here and elsewhere

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Jeni26

Wow...we've got some creative folk on here. I would love to see some of your art work InPar and DG. It must be wonderful to have a talent like that, to be able to express yourself through painting or music. Ooh I would love to be able to do that. Hmmm...always wanted to learn the guitar. Maybe I will do that someday...obviously I will need to think about it for years before any decision is made...lol

Toots...I must have missed something...what do you do? Recording your voice reading books? I'm intrigued.

V and Badger..how are the new jobs going?

My daughter and I had a wonderful day yesterday. She is such good fun to be with. Unfortunately we had a little falling out in the evening. Nothing much...but I hate bad feeling. She had a little strop to her room and I sulked a bit downstairs. I'm not very good still at handling the whole difference of opinion thing and knowing it's ok to do that, it isn't the end of the world, the sky doesn't fall in, and life just carries on the next day. Also, as much as I enjoy the friends thing, I am still her parent. Setting boundaries is my job and I'm still learning to do that in all sorts of situations. Gawd...this sober parenting thing takes some figuring out I think...

Anyway..today is a new day. The sun is shining. H is off today as he's got to work all weekend, and so the pair of us are going to go for a walk at our favourite place and maybe have a picnic if it's warm enough. And I will love him forever if he buys me an ice cream..

Hope you get to see the Muppet movie Dee...lol. Are we all children really?

Have a good day everyone x

ImperfectlyMe

Jeni glad you had such a nice day with your daughter! How old is she? I have 2 daughters 8 and almost 5. As far as the small spat at the end if the night this is the wonderful yin and yang of the mother-daughter dynamic. I have this with my own mother as well as with my daughters. It's a hen house here

I'm at my moms actually visiting with my girls until Saturday. Spending the day in the big apple show my kids my old stomping grounds, well most I will leave the East Village for at least another decade.

Dee I can't get enough if the avatar it makes me laugh so hard when I read you reprimanding the posters to follow the rules and then I see the bunny suit, might be the greatest juxtaposition I've ever seen

Dee74

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LDT

Good Morning Overs,

Just popping in to say HI before going to my Yoga by the lake class. It will be a little nippy, but I know some of my friends up north are still pretty much in full time winter mode.....so I won't complain.

I don't want to bring anyone down....but I NEED to write this down....There was an almost unfathomable tragedy that happened with 2 members of our church this week. They were married, in their 60s...... She was the sweetest woman on earth. Sort of like an Aunt Bee on Mayberry RFD ( for those who know what I'm talking about). She was my daughter's wedding coordinator......I taught her grandson piano for several years...... Every time I saw her it was big smiles and hugs and nice words. ....... On Monday her husband shot and killed her, burned their house down, and then shot himself......We're all just reeling down here.... In shock.....how does one ever recover from that?? .......,So maybe I'm asking for your prayers for the family of 'Aunt Bee'. They need them. This is just another example of how we never really know what's going on with people. We can't always know their struggles.

Again, Didn't mean to bring anyone down ( if I did ) Thanks for listening......Have a beautiful day, friends.

tootsl1

Hi guys
I am on my laptop, so managed to hear the song Rusty, It was lovely, thank you for sharing it.
Jeni, as I cant work for money here until I get a different type of visa, i have been doing some volunteer work. One job I had,I quit already! Lol, ( They basically wanted me to perform in a much bigger position and for longer than I was willing to commit to) The other is called Learning Ally. It is a charity that records text books ( and some fiction) for those in education at every level, from elementary to University. It is aimed at those with Visual impairments, learning difficulties,dyslexia and any other issues that hinder reading ability. After training there is no specific commitment, you just book a 2 hour recording session whenever it suits, as often as you want so; daily, weekly, monthly, they really don't mind. They are always on the look out for specialists in the sciences and languages, but I am just a general reader. Tuesday I was reading all about How Lesbians and Gays deal with their sexual orientation personally and in society as a whole, and yesterday I learned about how different codes of communication were a potential stumbling block in the long running peace talks between Israeli Jews and Palestinian Arabs! Its the perfect job for me, not only do I get to hear myself talk for 2 hours, ( and know I have inflicted my voice on numerous students) but I get to learn stuff I wouldn't necessarily go looking to read. Awesome! Shame it doesn't pay really, or I'd never stop!
I too would love to be able to look at a scene and paint it in colours; I have learned to paint with words as best I can. I have written short stories all my life, I am currently working on a novel. No idea what I will do with it when I have finished, I have no idea if its any good! I did get a short story published in a small local book last year, and took part in a autographing session at Waterstones. Probably the height of my personal achievement! Is it too late to pick up a guitar??

Dee, throw a sickie, kidnap next doors child and get down that movie house!!

venuscat

Oh my God LDT....that is so terrible. So tragic. My heart literally hurts hearing that. Of course sending prayers to the family, and for all of you who knew and cared for Aunt Bee.
Jeez...might be a selfish thing to say, but puts the problems in my little world into perspective.

V xx

DrakeCKC

Congrats on 20 mos LSC!

Easter weekend is here and I am busy as can be. Sang last night twice, ran between two churches to fill in. Lucky just blocks from each other and one started at 7 and the other 7:30. So I ducked out of the first after doing an anthem at the first one and sneaked in the second to join the choir. Won't do that again, second one I was a "ringer" to help out so I got a bit of cash for that.

Sing tonight, Saturday night and Sunday. After that.... I will be a silent monk.

Much easier to do when you are not drinking between, before and after it all!

Have a great weekend Overs!

badger1

Thank you everyone for your good wishes. It is very close to what I want to be doing for the rest of my life. It is a difficult, stressful job; but they train well.

Also, as my sponsor told me: "The others are going to be stressed, not you. Because, you will be in the moment, doing the next right thing to the best of your ability. I am sure they hired you because they think you can do the job. They are training you because they feel that you are teachable. So; just concentrate on learning. Make sure you have humility. If they are teaching something you think you already know, JUST SHUT UP AND LISTEN ANYWAY. Maybe you will learn something."

So after hitting bottom with alcohol; hitting bottom with life after stopping the drinking; not picking up the first drink even though my life was wringing the crap outta me; I see light at the end of the tunnel. But I do gotta remember that if I start getting complacent or slacking in my program; the light could turn into an oncoming train.

This site has really helped me. Which reminds me, that I need to blog about my 7th step and the recent events.

Thanks everyone! And Happy Easter!

badger1

That really is unfathomable. :-( I will add you to my prayers.

Like you say LDT, we really have no idea what is going on in people's lives, do we? I sincerely hope you have a support group there for all affected.

DG0409

Jeni- It's not about having talent, but just about not being afraid that it won't come out perfect. Anybody can express themselves with a box of crayons or some finger paint and some paper. Or sidewalk chalk and a sidewalk. Or any number of other methods. We all have a creative side and to me it's about tapping into that more than it is about having some sort of talent. Go for it with the guitar! You'll have so much fun doing it. I play drums now. At one point, I was saying, "I always wanted to play drums". And I had to ask myself, 'Well, why don't I?' So, I started taking lessons. I don't have a band or anything, but I love to play them and there is always a new challenge with them that keeps me excited to learn more.

Sorry to let you guys/gals down, but in the spirit of anonymity, I probably won't be posting any of my artwork.

ImperfectlyMe

LDT that's just horrific I'm so sorry and she and your community are in my prayers!

InParticular

Oh man LDT what a terrible story. Ugh. Yeah you just never know.

To those who wish to paint: PAINT!!! Anyone can paint, just do it. Simple as that. I love painting, it is so fun. It is (I think) the one thing in the world that makes me forget about everything else. Not even writing does that.

Toots-that's so cool! What an interesting way to learn, and it must feel good to help others in such a valuable way.

So I saw my mother for the first time in almost three years, when she was here about my brother. I cut her out of my life, but had to talk to her when we had the family meeting. I went up to her and said hello and it was fine, but I still don't like her. She makes me so uncomfortable. And it was really sad, because I could tell she was trying to reach out to me, to ask me about my life, and it struck me how little she knows about me. When we said goodbye we didn't hug or anything, she said "have a nice trip" (!) and keep in touch. I said well I have a phone and told her to get my number from my brother if she wanted to, and walked away. It just was too much, seeing her. But I realized that she is just a very scared, angry little woman, and it has nothing to do with me. I have been terrified of her for my whole life, and I think seeing her this last time has helped me to get over that. She doesn't have the power to make me feel terrible about myself anymore. I am tempted to call her, because really I miss her and I feel bad for her, because she has such poor relationships with all of her kids. But my oldest brother says she's just the same, hasn't changed at all. She was raised in the foster system and was physically abused, so I know it's not really her fault, the way she is. But as my bro puts it, "that doesn't give her a license to be an ***hole her entire life." Or does it? Maybe I need to lower my expectations. I can have a relationship with her but it will never be a normal mother daugher thing. I know she loves me, maybe that can just be enough. A big part of it is pride, on both of our parts. I just feel bad about her being alone as she gets older.

Woah, sorry, that got really heavy really fast!!! Here is a dancing banana, to compensate:

venuscat

badger ~ so, so happy for you! And it sounds like you have a pretty smart sponsor. When do you start?

I do not want to talk about my job; I am miserable. Give me a few days to get better (I thought I was, but I'm not), and to get in a better head space. Don't worry, I will not drink. I'm just not good right now.

Inpar ~ I think the way you handled seeing your mum is admirable. If you want to call her, follow your instincts. Maybe just send her your phone number and tell her to call you when she is ready. Small steps. So that you don't get hurt again.

Love to all of the Overs,

V xx

Dee74

I'm really sorry LDT.

IP there's no rule that says you have to like your family. Personally I don't think anything gives you a licence to be a jerk.

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Dee74

Time for a new thread
Next part here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...part-16-a.html

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