Class of September 2013 part 8
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Originally Posted by Kaneda8888 
Yes, there are a lot of people who have disappeared for the moment. It's Friday afternoon so I did a quick review of the first ever page.
Please come back:
Pondlady, doggonecarl, eveval, Love38, YoungandClean, workoholic, Kys, Pamel, hiho, Ali123, Erratic, Flying4life, Baleine, trident, Elseware, Nature74, cuppycakes, biglee1977, PrincessJasmine, ChrissieB, Rogue, Dmwestfall, seal123, jade123, jazzfish, joyousone, Strength11, Jimuk, fifth, Eintage, JAC13, Blowfish, grocerease, Victoria74, Yoctopus,misspond, abwvu1, NewLeaf, Bizooky, CardHat, TucTee, firstymer, halfvictory, TrickyDave, SoberChristy, Eliasson, alkoholfrei, Caravagio, Squine, lifetplant, TomSawyer, Marcella99, s12589s, CoveredInRain, aurorap12, happyhour, joshlyman, FreddyBear, johnatahn1, KDBnSLC, Austen, winkster26, CagedTurtle, tahuhla, Kelle96, britquit
I hope you are all strong, calm and sober.
Please come back:
Pondlady, doggonecarl, eveval, Love38, YoungandClean, workoholic, Kys, Pamel, hiho, Ali123, Erratic, Flying4life, Baleine, trident, Elseware, Nature74, cuppycakes, biglee1977, PrincessJasmine, ChrissieB, Rogue, Dmwestfall, seal123, jade123, jazzfish, joyousone, Strength11, Jimuk, fifth, Eintage, JAC13, Blowfish, grocerease, Victoria74, Yoctopus,misspond, abwvu1, NewLeaf, Bizooky, CardHat, TucTee, firstymer, halfvictory, TrickyDave, SoberChristy, Eliasson, alkoholfrei, Caravagio, Squine, lifetplant, TomSawyer, Marcella99, s12589s, CoveredInRain, aurorap12, happyhour, joshlyman, FreddyBear, johnatahn1, KDBnSLC, Austen, winkster26, CagedTurtle, tahuhla, Kelle96, britquit
I hope you are all strong, calm and sober.
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Day 20 and feeling great. Although I'm a little jealous of those of you that are sleeping for 15 hours. I'm sleeping well, but even on a day off like today I can't sleep past 7am.
Sorry to hear you aren't sleeping well Lor. For the first couple of nights after drying out I used a Benadryl antihistamine to make me a little sleepy which seemed to help a little. I was afraid to use an actual sleeping pill. I hope your Ex isn't keeping you awake.
Space - I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know you want to change your life or you wouldn't be posting here. So that's a HUGE step. Now you need to take the next one. Consider seeing your doctor ASAP because you sound really depressed to me. I can't really understand from your post whether or not you even had any kind of a relationship with that poor girl, but 4 years on you need to be living your life for you. Have you considered checking yourself into rehab? Or the Emergency Room at the hospital?
Sorry to hear you aren't sleeping well Lor. For the first couple of nights after drying out I used a Benadryl antihistamine to make me a little sleepy which seemed to help a little. I was afraid to use an actual sleeping pill. I hope your Ex isn't keeping you awake.
Space - I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know you want to change your life or you wouldn't be posting here. So that's a HUGE step. Now you need to take the next one. Consider seeing your doctor ASAP because you sound really depressed to me. I can't really understand from your post whether or not you even had any kind of a relationship with that poor girl, but 4 years on you need to be living your life for you. Have you considered checking yourself into rehab? Or the Emergency Room at the hospital?
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Good morning everyone! Day 26.
I am going to be honest and say my AV is talking to me since last night. I am feeling a bit better after a cold then my oral surgery, and so, of course, feeling like having some "fun." I wanted to have a cold brew or two with hubby last night, but instead gave him an annoyed look every time he got himself a new bottle. at least 5. On a work night. I see a pattern there of heavier drinking on work nights. especially if he has had a couple of busy nights and only had 2-3.
Anyway, I did not drink, but the AV is still trying to tell me I can just have a couple of glasses of wine tonight. I knew it would eventually come knocking. If I could eat some chips and dip, lol, that might help. I do think, being rather food deprived(in a sensory sense) has made me crave drinking. I still cannot eat hard, crunchy, chewy foods, or extreme spice or temperatures. So, eating is boring, and I always have to watch the sugar and carbs.
Wine seems the perfect treat. Liquid, easy to chew and swallow, feels good. Hey, I got 26 days, what is one day, or two? Of course an open bottle means I have to finish it sooner or later.
So, just being honest about what the AV or beast is telling me. This is not some strong anguished plea, but calm, cool logic! Craziness.
I am going to be honest and say my AV is talking to me since last night. I am feeling a bit better after a cold then my oral surgery, and so, of course, feeling like having some "fun." I wanted to have a cold brew or two with hubby last night, but instead gave him an annoyed look every time he got himself a new bottle. at least 5. On a work night. I see a pattern there of heavier drinking on work nights. especially if he has had a couple of busy nights and only had 2-3.
Anyway, I did not drink, but the AV is still trying to tell me I can just have a couple of glasses of wine tonight. I knew it would eventually come knocking. If I could eat some chips and dip, lol, that might help. I do think, being rather food deprived(in a sensory sense) has made me crave drinking. I still cannot eat hard, crunchy, chewy foods, or extreme spice or temperatures. So, eating is boring, and I always have to watch the sugar and carbs.
Wine seems the perfect treat. Liquid, easy to chew and swallow, feels good. Hey, I got 26 days, what is one day, or two? Of course an open bottle means I have to finish it sooner or later.
So, just being honest about what the AV or beast is telling me. This is not some strong anguished plea, but calm, cool logic! Craziness.
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I'm torn this morning. Drive an hour and 15 minutes to go to a fair alone, or just hang around the house all day on my day off. Do I really want to see some cows and sheep? I know I'm not going to ride any rides. Hrmm.
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Rochele - I am happy you shared that. I've mentioned it before but I really don't see how you guys with spouses that drink can even manage sobriety, so my hat is off to you! Although it does sound in most of these cases (not just yours) that the spouse might have a drinking problem too since they all seem to be drinking every night.
Since I had today off, last night was sort of like a Friday night for me and the AV was ticking away. The only thing keeping me from doing anything about it is just not drinking today. When I start to think about never drinking again, it is a little too overwhelming. I remind myself how excellent I feel being sober for 20 days and say to myself that I'm going to make it to 21 days. That's all I can do right now.
It sounds like you have a sneaky AV who tries to convince you to just have 1 or 2. Mine tells me how nice having a 12 pack would feel. Hang in there. We got this.
Since I had today off, last night was sort of like a Friday night for me and the AV was ticking away. The only thing keeping me from doing anything about it is just not drinking today. When I start to think about never drinking again, it is a little too overwhelming. I remind myself how excellent I feel being sober for 20 days and say to myself that I'm going to make it to 21 days. That's all I can do right now.
It sounds like you have a sneaky AV who tries to convince you to just have 1 or 2. Mine tells me how nice having a 12 pack would feel. Hang in there. We got this.
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Thanks, UI. yeah, it is a sneaky voice. I likely could have 2, never just 1. Tonight. But that bottle would be calling me tomorrow night again. And, of late, I really seemed to not be able to stop short of finishing the bottle. After a month off the booze, I bet I would have a helluva a hangover from a whole bottle. So, I am thinking it through to the end.
and that is where the beer starts calling. Sure, wine is my preferred drink, but I do love goo dbeer as well, and simply get full, cannot consume as much, to the degree or intoxication as wine. So, it is self limiting. And, I do still count my carbs/am mindful of them, lol. Even in drunkeness. You know, gotta watch my health! How stupid. Well, after about 4 drinks, I would say F*** it and not ocunt carbs anymore.
So yeah: a piece of salmon, a huge pile of organic spring mix with homemade balsalmic or pesto dressing, and a bottle of wine. Healthy!
Not doing it. Putting it out there so you all can keep on me tonight!
and that is where the beer starts calling. Sure, wine is my preferred drink, but I do love goo dbeer as well, and simply get full, cannot consume as much, to the degree or intoxication as wine. So, it is self limiting. And, I do still count my carbs/am mindful of them, lol. Even in drunkeness. You know, gotta watch my health! How stupid. Well, after about 4 drinks, I would say F*** it and not ocunt carbs anymore.
So yeah: a piece of salmon, a huge pile of organic spring mix with homemade balsalmic or pesto dressing, and a bottle of wine. Healthy!
Not doing it. Putting it out there so you all can keep on me tonight!
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Rochele: you have worked so hard to get to this point. Think of how you feel, how you can enjoy the day, how free you are of the mental torture, to be living honestly without guilt, shame or remorse, to wake up happy and hang over free. Your AV wants to deny you that. It wants to chain you up, lock you in perpetual misery in order to make you keep drinking. It will use logical, illogical, rational, irrational, emotional, unemotional thoughts to achieve its goal; anything in its arsenal. Grin and ignore your AV !
Same goes for you, UI. Also I would go and see the farm animals. I like to moo at the cows and baa at the sheep.
Same goes for you, UI. Also I would go and see the farm animals. I like to moo at the cows and baa at the sheep.
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Originally Posted by rochele
and simply get full, cannot consume as much, to the degree or intoxication as wine. So, it is self limiting.
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Hang in there, Ro. You've broken up with a partner who was absolutely no good for you. You've seen clearly that it was a destructive and abusive relationship. No sense going back into that old, tired, business.
I tell myself this a lot. I use the "broke up with a bad partner" metaphor, and it helps me reclaim my self esteem. I wouldn't tolerate that kind of relationship with a human, and I'm no longer going to tolerate it with a bottle. Hope this helps a little.
I tell myself this a lot. I use the "broke up with a bad partner" metaphor, and it helps me reclaim my self esteem. I wouldn't tolerate that kind of relationship with a human, and I'm no longer going to tolerate it with a bottle. Hope this helps a little.
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Yes, Nuway, I have used that thought process myself! I had just thought through what I would feel if this were a person in my life. Crawling back and worming his way into my life again! I thought that before reading your post!
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Morning all
Rochele, I think just writing it down helps, then you can really look at it and play it through to the end (which you seem to be really good at) and it makes sense that way.
UI, why not treat yourself to a drive in the beautiful fall colors (but maybe not the whole 12 hours) sorry to hear there was a glitch in the original plan. There must be some cows and sheep closer to you somewhere...
I went to a benefit concert last night that a friend of ours did for children with cancer (her daughter was diagnosed at 15). Usually that would have involved several drinks to leave the house, another drink in the car in the parking lot upon arrival to "carry me through" the evening, and then drinks when I got home to unwind. It was all so much better sober. Beautiful music, saw some old friends and very inspirational to see these family's who also live day to day with a wretched disease.
Sober is good! Have a great day.
Rochele, I think just writing it down helps, then you can really look at it and play it through to the end (which you seem to be really good at) and it makes sense that way.
UI, why not treat yourself to a drive in the beautiful fall colors (but maybe not the whole 12 hours) sorry to hear there was a glitch in the original plan. There must be some cows and sheep closer to you somewhere...
I went to a benefit concert last night that a friend of ours did for children with cancer (her daughter was diagnosed at 15). Usually that would have involved several drinks to leave the house, another drink in the car in the parking lot upon arrival to "carry me through" the evening, and then drinks when I got home to unwind. It was all so much better sober. Beautiful music, saw some old friends and very inspirational to see these family's who also live day to day with a wretched disease.
Sober is good! Have a great day.
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Originally Posted by Kaneda8888
Yes, there are a lot of people who have disappeared for the moment. It's Friday afternoon so I did a quick review of the first ever page.
Please come back:
Pondlady, doggonecarl, eveval, Love38, YoungandClean, workoholic, Kys, Pamel, hiho, Ali123, Erratic, Flying4life, Baleine, trident, Elseware, Nature74, cuppycakes, biglee1977, PrincessJasmine, ChrissieB, Rogue, Dmwestfall, seal123, jade123, jazzfish, joyousone, Strength11, Jimuk, fifth, Eintage, JAC13, Blowfish, grocerease, Victoria74, Yoctopus,misspond, abwvu1, NewLeaf, Bizooky, CardHat, TucTee, firstymer, halfvictory, TrickyDave, SoberChristy, Eliasson, alkoholfrei, Caravagio, Squine, lifetplant, TomSawyer, Marcella99, s12589s, CoveredInRain, aurorap12, happyhour, joshlyman, FreddyBear, johnatahn1, KDBnSLC, Austen, winkster26, CagedTurtle, tahuhla, Kelle96, britquit
I hope you are all strong, calm and sober.
Please come back:
Pondlady, doggonecarl, eveval, Love38, YoungandClean, workoholic, Kys, Pamel, hiho, Ali123, Erratic, Flying4life, Baleine, trident, Elseware, Nature74, cuppycakes, biglee1977, PrincessJasmine, ChrissieB, Rogue, Dmwestfall, seal123, jade123, jazzfish, joyousone, Strength11, Jimuk, fifth, Eintage, JAC13, Blowfish, grocerease, Victoria74, Yoctopus,misspond, abwvu1, NewLeaf, Bizooky, CardHat, TucTee, firstymer, halfvictory, TrickyDave, SoberChristy, Eliasson, alkoholfrei, Caravagio, Squine, lifetplant, TomSawyer, Marcella99, s12589s, CoveredInRain, aurorap12, happyhour, joshlyman, FreddyBear, johnatahn1, KDBnSLC, Austen, winkster26, CagedTurtle, tahuhla, Kelle96, britquit
I hope you are all strong, calm and sober.
. #Welcome2OctSober
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~~~Food for thought ~ Friday Edition ~~~
~~~ 10 Appetizers For OctSober Part I~~~
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's okay to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
(Day 38 in progress...Be better than you were yesterday and have a sober plan for your weekend my people. #Welcome2OctSober)
~~~ 10 Appetizers For OctSober Part I~~~
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's okay to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
(Day 38 in progress...Be better than you were yesterday and have a sober plan for your weekend my people. #Welcome2OctSober)
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Originally Posted by kellbell123
kellyg - I deactivated my FB account for that exact reason. I figure I can go back on when I am stronger but for now its just too much. When I see friends posting from bars or parties I tailspin into "how come they can do it and I can't?". Those are not healthy thoughts when trying to stay sober! For now SR is my only social media 
Little AV thoughts here and there but I am doing my best to ignore and remember WHY I need to do this.
Stay strong
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Hi Everyone, I'm a little late signing up for the September 2013 class. I spent most of my time on the newcomers to recovery threads and didn't see this one until today. I quit drinking Sept 8, 2013 so today will be Day 27. I hope everyone is doing well and I'll see you around.
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Originally Posted by lorelei
Morning all, day 34 here, got no sleep last night so am 
lol, how is everyone today, Tallia, hope you have a quiet weekend and look after you a bit, Space so sorry to hear you are hurting so much, everyone else in the class *hugs* xx
lol, how is everyone today, Tallia, hope you have a quiet weekend and look after you a bit, Space so sorry to hear you are hurting so much, everyone else in the class *hugs* xx
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Originally Posted by Uninvited
I'm torn this morning. Drive an hour and 15 minutes to go to a fair alone, or just hang around the house all day on my day off. Do I really want to see some cows and sheep? I know I'm not going to ride any rides. Hrmm.
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Originally Posted by gr9813
Hi Everyone, I'm a little late signing up for the September 2013 class. I spent most of my time on the newcomers to recovery threads and didn't see this one until today. I quit drinking Sept 8, 2013 so today will be Day 27. I hope everyone is doing well and I'll see you around.
Day 27 is awesome (as we say here in California)...that's a phenomenal achievement!
Make yourself at home here with us. This group has really helped me.
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Ok I did it again, slept very late. I am going to tear myself out of bed now, and get into the studio. I guess I might be a little depressed? I just don't care to do anything at the moment. If happily spend all day in the dark here and post... Maybe I need a little coffee and to just get started
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