Class of May 2012 part 18
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Thanks Bloss and FP for the congrats. FP, you are quite the runner!
Kitty, Thanks for sharing part of your history. We are all a work in progress and I think moving forward pretty darn good.
Jeni, feel better soon
Kitty, Thanks for sharing part of your history. We are all a work in progress and I think moving forward pretty darn good.
Jeni, feel better soon
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Kitty, thank you for sharing your story. I like your description of being a work in progress.
Your story also got me to thinking about my marriage and the twists and turns of that relationship. I hardly ever drank before I started dating my ex. I got pregnant before we got married and sadly lost that baby. That left a hole I couldn't face and i attempted suicide a year later. A couple of years after that and married, we lived in an apartment building with a party-hearty crowd of young couples. That led to my first blackout after one of our every weekend booze parties. We got sober when we decided we wanted a child. Then about 20 miscarriages later, my offspring was born and i had been sober for well over four years by then but my ex was into pot, hash, and LSD - and alcohol. So I started at a low level again and gradually increased my drinking. I stuck it out in that horrible marriage for 15 years before I kicked the bum out. He didn't work because "he didn't feel like it". I also know that I was very difficult to be around.
It's surprising how thoroughly I can still block things when I want to. I only dated once since then and haven't had any more interest in risking another bad relationship. It feels so good to be completely sober again! Day 13 today.
(((hugs))),
Sassy
Your story also got me to thinking about my marriage and the twists and turns of that relationship. I hardly ever drank before I started dating my ex. I got pregnant before we got married and sadly lost that baby. That left a hole I couldn't face and i attempted suicide a year later. A couple of years after that and married, we lived in an apartment building with a party-hearty crowd of young couples. That led to my first blackout after one of our every weekend booze parties. We got sober when we decided we wanted a child. Then about 20 miscarriages later, my offspring was born and i had been sober for well over four years by then but my ex was into pot, hash, and LSD - and alcohol. So I started at a low level again and gradually increased my drinking. I stuck it out in that horrible marriage for 15 years before I kicked the bum out. He didn't work because "he didn't feel like it". I also know that I was very difficult to be around.
It's surprising how thoroughly I can still block things when I want to. I only dated once since then and haven't had any more interest in risking another bad relationship. It feels so good to be completely sober again! Day 13 today.
(((hugs))),
Sassy
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Thanks, Jeni. I think that all of us have difficult stories in one way or another and the common challenge is to get past them and live in the current moment. It has been a long time since I've thought about those dark years. Happily they are over and I'm especially happy and thankful that my grown-up offspring is doing well!
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Day 28 here. Time seems to pass so quickly at the beginning. All being well I should get through the 28 day barrier that's stopped me so often in the past. I've had a couple of days just chilling, partially because of the weather which is pretty rotten for digging in, and partially to have a little time to think.
It seems there's this little word 'No'. Or, if you're 'polite, 'No, thankyou.' If I could tell my younger self one thing, it would be that. I've met quite a few people I wouldn't ask for favours or borrow money off. I don't think I ever met anyone I wouldn't let buy me a drink. Or give/sell me... other things. Especially if I'd been drinking.
((Jeni))- hope you feel better soon.
fp, hitrockbottom - congrats on 300 days.
As for me, this is just a quick check in. Have a good day folks, however much of it remains. Be gentle with yourselves.
Love and hugs to you all. x x
It seems there's this little word 'No'. Or, if you're 'polite, 'No, thankyou.' If I could tell my younger self one thing, it would be that. I've met quite a few people I wouldn't ask for favours or borrow money off. I don't think I ever met anyone I wouldn't let buy me a drink. Or give/sell me... other things. Especially if I'd been drinking.
((Jeni))- hope you feel better soon.
fp, hitrockbottom - congrats on 300 days.
As for me, this is just a quick check in. Have a good day folks, however much of it remains. Be gentle with yourselves.
Love and hugs to you all. x x
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Well done on day 28 Em.
I sense something different about you this time...an acceptance?
Yes, you're right, when we are drinking we will accept alcohol (or whatever) from anyone won't we? People we wouldn't have anything to do ordinarily. No is the word. No means no. We can't go far wrong if we don't even enter into conversations where we put ourselves at risk.
I'm feeling a bit better this afternoon. I MUST stop smoking though, this is ridiculous. I didn't get sober, go through all that, just to kill myself with nicotine!!!
I sense something different about you this time...an acceptance?
Yes, you're right, when we are drinking we will accept alcohol (or whatever) from anyone won't we? People we wouldn't have anything to do ordinarily. No is the word. No means no. We can't go far wrong if we don't even enter into conversations where we put ourselves at risk.
I'm feeling a bit better this afternoon. I MUST stop smoking though, this is ridiculous. I didn't get sober, go through all that, just to kill myself with nicotine!!!
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Kitty, thanks for sharing more with us. Sounds like you've had a rough go of it. I hope from here on out, it's smoother sailing. How are your kitties doing?
Bloss, pat yourself on the back for seeing the silver lining of being sober even on down days. I hope there's some up days in store for you soon.
Hi Shockozulu, welcome to the Mayan thread! Will you be staying around? And if so, care to introduce yourself?
Well today was interesting. The local weather people completely blew it. Said it was going to rain and we got slammed by snow. My commutes today were the longest and worst I've had in recent memory. I have never seen so many cars turned around or off the road. Glad to be home now and glad to still have power so far. Family issues traipsing through my life this week. I hate not knowing what the right thing to do is and/or thinking people disagree with what I think the right thing to do is. I have to learn to live with loose ends that may or may not tie themselves. I'm kind of restless but don't know what I want to do. Not much planned this weekend. Don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing yet. My camera is coming next week. That's all I got.
I hope everyone is having a good day.
Bloss, pat yourself on the back for seeing the silver lining of being sober even on down days. I hope there's some up days in store for you soon.
Hi Shockozulu, welcome to the Mayan thread! Will you be staying around? And if so, care to introduce yourself?
Well today was interesting. The local weather people completely blew it. Said it was going to rain and we got slammed by snow. My commutes today were the longest and worst I've had in recent memory. I have never seen so many cars turned around or off the road. Glad to be home now and glad to still have power so far. Family issues traipsing through my life this week. I hate not knowing what the right thing to do is and/or thinking people disagree with what I think the right thing to do is. I have to learn to live with loose ends that may or may not tie themselves. I'm kind of restless but don't know what I want to do. Not much planned this weekend. Don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing yet. My camera is coming next week. That's all I got.
I hope everyone is having a good day.
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