Class of January 2013
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Hi all. I'm having trouble keeping up with this thread so haven't been posting much sorry.
Day 6 I think it is? Feel like all my symptoms have come back the same as when I gave up the benzos and opiates a few weeks ago. Never classing myself as an alcoholic, i am surprised its had this much of an effect on me.
Spending the next few days in hospital with my daughter is going to be tough. Last time I did that was a couple of months ago and I was a total mess on pills. I'm worried about what's written in our hospital notes
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Sorry I haven't commented on anyone else's posts, having trouble focussing with this splitting headache. Will try to read a bit better later.
Day 6 I think it is? Feel like all my symptoms have come back the same as when I gave up the benzos and opiates a few weeks ago. Never classing myself as an alcoholic, i am surprised its had this much of an effect on me.
Spending the next few days in hospital with my daughter is going to be tough. Last time I did that was a couple of months ago and I was a total mess on pills. I'm worried about what's written in our hospital notes
. Sorry I haven't commented on anyone else's posts, having trouble focussing with this splitting headache. Will try to read a bit better later.
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I gotta say, this is my first weekend watching football that I am not drunk off my rocker...this is a good feeling....so many things that most take for granted that I am starting to see without booze....gotta keep this up....
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Originally Posted by SIPD 
I gotta say, this is my first weekend watching football that I am not drunk off my rocker...this is a good feeling....so many things that most take for granted that I am starting to see without booze....gotta keep this up....
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stayed up so late last night that i was so tired today but better tired than hungover.
i realized this happened when i got sober last time.
cold sweats, itchiness( thought there was bed bugs or something) didnt and still dont really know side effects of detoxing.
i found playing my music really loud when passing the liquor store helped.
there are so many in this country.
it will always face us wherever we look.
but its either you smoke or u dont, right?
you drink or you dont.
for me it cant be in between anymore.
im rambling. thanks for reading.
i realized this happened when i got sober last time.
cold sweats, itchiness( thought there was bed bugs or something) didnt and still dont really know side effects of detoxing.
i found playing my music really loud when passing the liquor store helped.
there are so many in this country.
it will always face us wherever we look.
but its either you smoke or u dont, right?
you drink or you dont.
for me it cant be in between anymore.
im rambling. thanks for reading.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Posts: 69
Day 3.
Today, I was thinking about how often in the past I have had the eternal debate--am I or am I not an alcoholic? In my mind, for years and years, I have thought that if I was an alcoholic, then of course I should quit, but if I was not then I shouldn't "have to" quit. I never truly asked myself why I cared about --why I "protected"-- the drinking so much. Why did I never say that even if I was not in trouble, it would be healthier to quit, or it might help me lose a few pounds, or it might help me concentrate better at work, or save money, or just have time for a new hobby? I do believe now that I am an alcoholic, but I also now am starting to understand that even if I'm not an alcoholic, that's not a very good reason to drink anyway.
Today, I was thinking about how often in the past I have had the eternal debate--am I or am I not an alcoholic? In my mind, for years and years, I have thought that if I was an alcoholic, then of course I should quit, but if I was not then I shouldn't "have to" quit. I never truly asked myself why I cared about --why I "protected"-- the drinking so much. Why did I never say that even if I was not in trouble, it would be healthier to quit, or it might help me lose a few pounds, or it might help me concentrate better at work, or save money, or just have time for a new hobby? I do believe now that I am an alcoholic, but I also now am starting to understand that even if I'm not an alcoholic, that's not a very good reason to drink anyway.
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Versus, thanks for your post and I am glad you are here. It sounds like we have some similar patterns. Glad to know there is someone to share that with, you know? I have also pretended to be a non-drinker at times only to go home to my wine (difference being that I would drink with my husband and we both don't really have other friends--we are each others' secret daily drinking buddies). Anyway, welcome, and I have confidence we can do this. It really helps to have support.
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Originally Posted by HopingForZen
Day 3.
Today, I was thinking about how often in the past I have had the eternal debate--am I or am I not an alcoholic? In my mind, for years and years, I have thought that if I was an alcoholic, then of course I should quit, but if I was not then I shouldn't "have to" quit. I never truly asked myself why I cared about --why I "protected"-- the drinking so much. Why did I never say that even if I was not in trouble, it would be healthier to quit, or it might help me lose a few pounds, or it might help me concentrate better at work, or save money, or just have time for a new hobby? I do believe now that I am an alcoholic, but I also now am starting to understand that even if I'm not an alcoholic, that's not a very good reason to drink anyway.
Today, I was thinking about how often in the past I have had the eternal debate--am I or am I not an alcoholic? In my mind, for years and years, I have thought that if I was an alcoholic, then of course I should quit, but if I was not then I shouldn't "have to" quit. I never truly asked myself why I cared about --why I "protected"-- the drinking so much. Why did I never say that even if I was not in trouble, it would be healthier to quit, or it might help me lose a few pounds, or it might help me concentrate better at work, or save money, or just have time for a new hobby? I do believe now that I am an alcoholic, but I also now am starting to understand that even if I'm not an alcoholic, that's not a very good reason to drink anyway.
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Thanks to so many: Dee74, gsp0050, Reeny, ThursdayNight, fdm -
for encouragement through first and second "first days" - now it's the "first" 3rd day -
and the difficulty is behind - went to a wine tasting with GF and then turned down
the offered red wine - and at the vineyard it gave me such a sense of power AND
peace to me to be able to say no, and drive us all safely home. Now listening to
Trace Adkins, feeling that power and peace of not drinking - is making me feel
emotional in a nice way, just like the wonderful support has made me feel the
same way over the past few days.
Another wonderful night and day to y'all, the sleep gets better and better with each
night, more and more delicious every night . . .
K
for encouragement through first and second "first days" - now it's the "first" 3rd day -
and the difficulty is behind - went to a wine tasting with GF and then turned down
the offered red wine - and at the vineyard it gave me such a sense of power AND
peace to me to be able to say no, and drive us all safely home. Now listening to
Trace Adkins, feeling that power and peace of not drinking - is making me feel
emotional in a nice way, just like the wonderful support has made me feel the
same way over the past few days.
Another wonderful night and day to y'all, the sleep gets better and better with each
night, more and more delicious every night . . .
K
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Originally Posted by Citrus
I suck. I've been drinking.... I want to stop so badly, but I just can't figure out how to do it. Sigh. I so badly want to say in the future that I stopped drinking in January 2013.
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Yep - tomorrow's a new day - I lost my first 2nd day because I drank again, so maybe you can cut it back gradually . . . mix it up with some tea or fruit juice until you down to an amount that won't make it hard to sleep . . . I went from 20 drinks to 16 to 4 then zero - each step was hard, but 20 to 0 is just about impossible.
Give yourself credit for the strength it took to take each step.
You'll do it.
K
Give yourself credit for the strength it took to take each step.
You'll do it.
K
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What can you add to what you've been doing citrus (and mel girl)?
more to the point I guess - what are you guys prepared to do above and beyond what you're doing now?
if sleepings a problem...I'd consider seeing a Dr rather than drinking again...tapering not only didn't happen for me, it was tortuous trying.
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more to the point I guess - what are you guys prepared to do above and beyond what you're doing now?
if sleepings a problem...I'd consider seeing a Dr rather than drinking again...tapering not only didn't happen for me, it was tortuous trying.
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