lushly

Hey Miners Glad you are all here. Thank lovingit I never thought that this summer my have helped to finish a chapter in my life, that's what is so cool about connecting with other people, you guys help me see things in other ways.
Camedown I think about your anxiety over the pup and remember that if I observe an out of my control situation I feel better. Congrats on the new comp.

CClearly thanks for checking in. Super to be Sober
Hey coolfritz I see ya postin around also. Glad that you are on SR. kickin it.
Hey newstart: Sponsors rock. I could not navigate the AA seas alone. I hope you find the right person. You can ask someone to just sponsor you temporarily. I really lucked out and found a great person. Now I have to work long distance with her. As I must go back to my small burg. But I believe another person will be put there for me and someone is there for you. Just reach out.
concor Its good to hear from you.
Dee thanks for being our mod. I appreciate it. SR is a very important part of my recovery.
I wish everyone the best (())s the lush

camedown

Hey gang. Had a fun day. Hung out with Mother doing some shopping. It's so nice to not think about work or home or anything and just enjoy life. Was a really beautiful day today too, which always helps. Finally got a disc of a band my other forum has been pressing on me for a while, Porcupine Tree, and I loved it. Always love finding a band that I know I can get into, and I have many more albums of theirs to explore. Made a killer dinner for the parents tonight, a grilled pork with a potato-mushroom ragout and a strawberry-apricot compote.....


Tasted better than it looks. Well, I got two more days to enjoy before I go back to the grind. Have a great one, MINErs.

Day 81- camedown

lovingit

Hello Everyone. Glad to see everyone checking in. It's important.

Today's Tidbit:

So I've had a HD television for three years. Turns out I haven't been using it to it's fullest capacity. I just now figured out that I have to press one stupid little button(resolution) to get 1080p. The past three drunk years I have been watching games in standard definition. How dumb is that? The brain is definitely working better these days. I have a feeling a lot of these stupid things I've been doing are going to pop up.

Have a great day Miner's

sugarbear1

Thanks lovingit. I am voluntering a day a week (3 hours, last week 6) answering phones at aa intergroup office, meetings daily, missing 1 or 2 meetings if busy with other business, taking care of some debts, taxes, organizing apartment (I am looking at a mess in my livingroom and not taking care of that, yet, learning to take daily care of me, small projects so what once was ours is just mine (he passed Jan 3, 2011). I used stone-look spray paint on an old cabinet...looks cool, but don't know how to post from phone.

4th step (2nd) scheduled for Saturday, 5th step on Sunday. My sponsor said "you're on the 3rd step when you schedule your 5th" then spoke about what to do...he took me to homegroup meeting Wednesday as I was going to be late due to shopping (new concept for me today, I once had money, today I have a strict budget). I want to quit cigs soon, still doing medical study (the decisions I make while drinking...sheesh!), yet sticking with it $$ factor.

Resume update & serious job searching coming up.

Thanks to my hp and you all for support! Oh, and whatever I sat on while on the bus Tuesday (yes! It looked BAD!) came out with bleach! Keep laughing! Rule #62!! Peace!

sugarbear1

Corrections: january 3, 2011 dwayne passed. I miss meetings if busy

Don't know what else, but looking forward to getting a laptop hopefully in a month, I can use it, thumb typing is challenging!



Camedown, looks wonderful! I love cooking, too!

Wish I could help with that waterfall!

Dee74

sorry for your loss sugarbear.

Those pork things look good to me camedown

I'm with you loving it - I find out things about my appliances after I've had them years

D

lushly

Camedown, Looks nummmmy!!
Lovingit look at all those promises that happen HD TV aahhhhhh!
Sugarbear it sounds like you are doing the next indicated thing and grieving to. I have been reading Ram Dass on death and dying. It is comfortiing to me. Tired but happy and glad to be rid of the monkey a$$ obsession of alcohol.

camedown

Evening gang. One more day of vacation. Oh well,all good things blahblahblah. Looking forward to getting back to work with batteries charged, and to starting my new group therapy. Spending tomorrow getting my home a touch more together, than a meeting at night. Hope you all are doing well.

Day 82- camedown

lovingit

Morning Miner's,

Day 97 but who's counting. I said I would stop counting at 100, but I don't know if my rocket scientist mind will allow it. Depression and anxiety has gone, hopefully forever. I will never understand why alcohol made me the happiest person in my twenties, and had a reverse effect, right around thirty.

I',m very happy we have come this far. Right now my sobriety is all I have. I sometimes read the Newcomer"s posts, and it's becoming hard. I know we are newcomers, but I'm talking first week. I held on to SR for dear life that week. I am never having to detox from any substance ever again. As time goes on, we forget how bad each minute was.

Anyway, TGIF(even though I work on Saturdays)

Lovingit

MycoolFitz

Hi to all the May folks. Just posting that I reached 90 daze today. In some ways it seems like a year, in some ways a day. Of course, it's only the moment. I appreciate all the support and good vibes from you all on our neverending journey.

concor

lushly, Pleased to hear you're doing well.

camedown, Sounds like you've had a nice vacation & I enjoyed my own, but was ready to get back at it.

lovingit, Right there with you at 98 days & feel as I'm traveling on an even keel.

Dee, Hope you're well!


So, I bought a twelve pack of beer today. :-0
Not to drink, but as payment for some much needed assistance this afternoon on a project that required an extra set of hands. I offered to pay a friend in return for a couple hours of his time & said just pick me up some beer.
So, I did.
Although it wasn't for me, I still couldn't help feeling like I was cheating. LOL
Jeff drank two of the twelve during breaks, while I had tea.
At no time did I even consider having one & after watching him drive off after only having two reaffirmed for me why I can't & won't drink again.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

newstart75

well done concor, i've bought a bottle of wine as a gift for a friend since becoming sober and it feels weird alright!

congrats coolfitz on 90 days nice one

lovingit - i'm with you on the impact drinking has on your mental health. just before i quit and for the first couple of weeks of quitting i was definitely in a pit of depression (PAWS most likely, coupled with a broken heart!) - in tears, anxious, and just plain miserable. in the lead-up to quitting when i was drinking heavily i literally felt insane. it just doesn't compare with my frame of mind today and i love that
i'm thankful that i wasn't using drink to mask depression, (which i thought might have been the case) instead it was the heavy drinking causing those feelings, and now they've subsided.

lushly thanks for your advice on the sponsor. you're right, i need to reach out more. i'll have a chat with someone after the AA meeting tomorrow morning, no excuses and no running away from awkward situations like i usually do.

sugarbear and cclearly glad you are with us, keep posting

camedown hope you enjoyed your break and are ready for work again.

enjoy your weekend everyone

camedown

Break over, work tomorrow, and Im cool with it :/ . Feeling replenished and relaxed. Im very happy to be starting a new group on Monday, I feel I still need the stability it offers.. Stay cool MINErs.


Day 83- camedown(sorry for abbreviated post, Im on my phone :p )

lovingit

[QUOTE=

lovingit - i'm with you on the impact drinking has on your mental health. just before i quit and for the first couple of weeks of quitting i was definitely in a pit of depression (PAWS most likely, coupled with a broken heart!) - in tears, anxious, and just plain miserable. in the lead-up to quitting when i was drinking heavily i literally felt insane. it just doesn't compare with my frame of mind today and i love that
i'm thankful that i wasn't using drink to mask depression, (which i thought might have been the case) instead it was the heavy drinking causing those feelings, and now they've subsided.usually do. [/QUOTE]

Thank you for confirming this for me. I thought I was depressed also. To the point of being put on three different anti-depressants. Obviously they didn't work. Imagine that. All I had to do was put the bottle down. I think I'll become a doctor now.

Dee74

bit ill at the moment Concor so I'm on 'light duties'
trying to keep up tho!

D

camedown

Ditto for me too. Took about three weeks to clear that feeling out of my head.

newstart75

hope you feel better soon, dee. went to a meeting this morning, and as promised to myself, asked one of the guys afterwards about a woman that i would love to have as a sponsor, but i haven't seen her around for a while. he took my number and said he'd get in touch with her. so if it happens, it happens.
i'm ready for the next stage in recovery - even if it means dredging up all the crap from the past that i'd really rather put behind me right now. i just have to do what others have done and succeeded with.

lovingit

Just checking in.

Not much to report. Bored. I'm guessing boredom is a training exercise for sobriety.

Have a great Sunday Miner's!

Feel better Dee.

cclearly

Good Sunday afternoon everybody. That road trip seemed like one constant trigger/craving after another. In retrospect, it seems like one long hurdle that I'm glad to be over.

Camedown, the food-porn pic was amazing. Your folks are lucky.

Dee74

near enough to full health again now guys LOL - thanks!

D