Class of November Part 6
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Join Date: Jan 2009
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The problem started on Wednesday
As soon as I got to the office all I had was friends just hassling me to go out. I stood it for so long but it set my mind racing. All the usual bullsh*t... "You aren't gonna last forever...why be so anti social"
"You dwell on things too much..."
And the classic
"Are you sure you are an alcoholic"
But you know I thought I had it under control. But in reality I just re-pressed the emotions.
Having alcohol in the house wasn't the issue. I would have bought some eventually. My friends were the problem
I need to deal with that.
I can't hide away, so I either create a situation where they won't ask me out constantly or I hide.
I know what i've got to do.
As soon as I got to the office all I had was friends just hassling me to go out. I stood it for so long but it set my mind racing. All the usual bullsh*t... "You aren't gonna last forever...why be so anti social"
"You dwell on things too much..."
And the classic
"Are you sure you are an alcoholic"
But you know I thought I had it under control. But in reality I just re-pressed the emotions.
Having alcohol in the house wasn't the issue. I would have bought some eventually. My friends were the problem
I need to deal with that.
I can't hide away, so I either create a situation where they won't ask me out constantly or I hide.
I know what i've got to do.
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Join Date: Nov 2007
Posts: 26,425
hey wonk....as uncomfortable as it is when i want to drink, i've found that people knowing I am in recovery works to my advantage...when i slipped i had to drink in the bathroom and try and be a non-drinker at the parties lol
not sure i fooled anyone
So...I have got myself down to the wire with a report and guys it's a biggy...so if i am good and you don't see me around much today and tomarrow...know that it is a good thing.
not sure i fooled anyone
So...I have got myself down to the wire with a report and guys it's a biggy...so if i am good and you don't see me around much today and tomarrow...know that it is a good thing.
OMG everything's real
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Do you lot ever shut up??!!! I've not been on here for a day and I've had to read three pages to catch up!!
Sorry you drank wonks, but it was a slip, back on the horsie.
Probably see you some more tomorrow - my boss and manager are going to Birmingham to show at the NEC so we're freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! Not technically, but you know what I mean.
Sorry you drank wonks, but it was a slip, back on the horsie.
Probably see you some more tomorrow - my boss and manager are going to Birmingham to show at the NEC so we're freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! Not technically, but you know what I mean.
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Had some food, well a brevill if you can call it food.
Been in such a mood tonight, feeling very sorry for myself, why cant I have some wine blah blah blah...
I didn't though and yes it's the end of the day. Tomorrow should be much easier as I have to work tomorrow night.
Your so right about that Fizzy. Tomorrow is no different that any other day. I will not be getting a bottle of wine in for when I get home either
Been in such a mood tonight, feeling very sorry for myself, why cant I have some wine blah blah blah...
I didn't though and yes it's the end of the day. Tomorrow should be much easier as I have to work tomorrow night.
Your so right about that Fizzy. Tomorrow is no different that any other day. I will not be getting a bottle of wine in for when I get home either
getting there
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Originally Posted by allport 
No more relapsing Wonky or else you will have to join the class of February and you don't know what they will be like, plus we will all miss you.
Sorry you slipped again, but I think you have the determination to get this thing done. It seems to take awhile for a lot of us (trust me, I've done the research).
Pixy, I feel totally the same tonight! Sorry for myself and pouting about why can't I have any wine. Boo hoo, woe is me.
Nands - you gonna tell us the secret?
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well...i've sent outrageously crazy pms and emails to other people in class, and gone to chat and acted out...people understand...and they tell me I'm a good egg....and once i've gotten that crp out that the alchoholic voice as you call it is saying.....I start to catch balance again.
Plus by talking to other people with only a day or two....or with people just trying to get started.....i don't know why but it helps.
the secret is to share with other addicts and alchoholics about sobreity and life. No big secret really. Sobriety is all about building maintaining and repairing relationships...not just human, but with our dogs, with our jobs, with our homes...the whole ball of wax and it's incredible how much easier it is when you reach out and help others who are struggling
compasion that key.
sorry - having a serious moment.
Plus by talking to other people with only a day or two....or with people just trying to get started.....i don't know why but it helps.
the secret is to share with other addicts and alchoholics about sobreity and life. No big secret really. Sobriety is all about building maintaining and repairing relationships...not just human, but with our dogs, with our jobs, with our homes...the whole ball of wax and it's incredible how much easier it is when you reach out and help others who are struggling
compasion that key.
sorry - having a serious moment.
The Legend returns!
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Day 2
Feels good not to be on day 1... always feels a bit spazzy
Still got a heavy cold but feel much more positive.
Going into the office today so I need to speak to my friends and tell them to stop hassling me about drinking. It drives me insane
Feels good not to be on day 1... always feels a bit spazzy
Still got a heavy cold but feel much more positive.
Going into the office today so I need to speak to my friends and tell them to stop hassling me about drinking. It drives me insane
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Good for you wonky, let us know how it goes. Whats your plan for today as it is friday? As you know I am working, but what you doing?
Nands your right about mixing with other alcoholics/addicts, no one else understands us.
Although I feel ok I wont drink today, my mind keeps telling me I will at some point, when does the thinking get easier?
Think I will make some homemade soup to take my mind off it. Busy, busy, busy, post post, post and post somemore!!! this mental torture is hard, huff!
Nands your right about mixing with other alcoholics/addicts, no one else understands us.
Although I feel ok I wont drink today, my mind keeps telling me I will at some point, when does the thinking get easier?
Think I will make some homemade soup to take my mind off it. Busy, busy, busy, post post, post and post somemore!!! this mental torture is hard, huff!
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I focused alot on "stay where your hands are" every time my mind travels to a drink, i simply turn my attention back to what i am doing right now. course i'm a poor example right now at work...but i'm working on it so this will help me today...
focus on what you are supose to be doing...cleaning, cooking, enjoying a chat with a friend....when drinking comes to mind ... refocus.
and don't give emotional weight to the alchoholic voice ... the thoughts will be there, but maybe shoot for some emotional distance from the silly stupid things that it says.....mmmm i have a visual but can't explain it wwell.
focus on what you are supose to be doing...cleaning, cooking, enjoying a chat with a friend....when drinking comes to mind ... refocus.
and don't give emotional weight to the alchoholic voice ... the thoughts will be there, but maybe shoot for some emotional distance from the silly stupid things that it says.....mmmm i have a visual but can't explain it wwell.
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