Bottoms Part 113
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Im not crazy and neither am I
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Ro
Lord knows Im not the biggest "god" person, but.....
Im w Tanho on the bit about God and not being allowed to feel love.
Do you feel love in relationships w recovery friends and others ?
I know its a little different but, just a thought.
Two weeks ? You Go Ro !
Lord knows Im not the biggest "god" person, but.....
Im w Tanho on the bit about God and not being allowed to feel love.
Do you feel love in relationships w recovery friends and others ?
I know its a little different but, just a thought.
Two weeks ? You Go Ro !
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(((Ro)))
you deserve love, and you are beautiful inside and out....doofus
It's really hard to make that leap of faith tho, and trust that this time, this person, will be ok.
He sounds like a good one - but theres no reason to rush things. Take it back to a speed where you feel comfortable, L.
Talk it over with Joe too (no pow pow jokes)....tell him what you told us, or as much as you feel comfortable doing anyway....if hes as good as he sounds, he'll get it.
love you
D
you deserve love, and you are beautiful inside and out....doofus
It's really hard to make that leap of faith tho, and trust that this time, this person, will be ok.
He sounds like a good one - but theres no reason to rush things. Take it back to a speed where you feel comfortable, L.
Talk it over with Joe too (no pow pow jokes)....tell him what you told us, or as much as you feel comfortable doing anyway....if hes as good as he sounds, he'll get it.
love you
D
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Thanks, everyone. I got out of there soon after typing that message, and went to visit a gal in recovery - a close friend. My sponsor dropped by too. We sat around and I told them everything, and cried some more. I have been able to connect some dots. What's difficult is letting go of this shame. But I'm trying. I am exhausted and am in bed. I am going to take a vacation day tomorrow and head up to the spa I took my sister to last month. I am going to go alone, and to spend some time in nature, and take care of my body.
Learning how to do things differently is hard. I wish I didn't want to get fkd up earlier or to hurt myself, but it is what it is. The important thing is that I did something different this time. I didn't use and I didn't cut myself - and I shared with safe women who love me, and whose love that yes, I do accept.
It'll be okay. Thanks for your words, and for your acceptance.
Learning how to do things differently is hard. I wish I didn't want to get fkd up earlier or to hurt myself, but it is what it is. The important thing is that I did something different this time. I didn't use and I didn't cut myself - and I shared with safe women who love me, and whose love that yes, I do accept.
It'll be okay. Thanks for your words, and for your acceptance.
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Learning how to do things differently is hard. I wish I didn't want to get fkd up earlier or to hurt myself, but it is what it is. The important thing is that I did something different this time. I didn't use and I didn't cut myself - and I shared with safe women who love me, and whose love that yes, I do accept.
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Stoney, I haven't been around for a bit, thanks for calling for a meeting. My significant other is off to Germany for a week so I have the kids - but I have a sitter on Tuesday. Le me know which meeting you're going to and I'll come along.
Take it easy....
Take it easy....
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Learning how to do things differently is hard. I wish I didn't want to get fkd up earlier or to hurt myself, but it is what it is. The important thing is that I did something different this time. I didn't use and I didn't cut myself - and I shared with safe women who love me, and whose love that yes, I do accept.
I figure a few years sobriety against a lifetime of bad choices and fking up? We probably have some stuff to learn yet
The important thing tho is...yeah - we respond differently. That's a huge step. Remember that - that's a triumph
I'm glad you found some safe women to be with - you'll find there's a safe man one day too
D
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Ro Ro everyone has given as always such great advice for IDIOTS! 
Glad that you are going to the spa to take care of you! Be gentle with yourself-you are a beautiful woman inside and out and we know this because we know you, love you, comfort you and you are a part of our family. We all can come here (Just as my little dumb codie ass did yesterday with my insecure issue with Mr. Flip Flop) and we know that we can speak what we feel and get support-something we were never use too. And GOD does that feel good to come to those (Idiots) who accept you for who you are!
Take a deep breath and keep your head held high-you deserve the best Newfie, we all do! Be open as much as you can and as others stated if he is as good as he sounds he will be there for you-it takes time.
I like Dee (Notice last night) stated as a dumb ass codie made a lot of poor choices and mistakes and I too react sometimes with my triggers and that is ok-as long as we catch it! "Progress not PERFECTION" my friend! We all do and will respond differently and that is ok!
Love you mucho Ro Ro! 
Glad that you are going to the spa to take care of you! Be gentle with yourself-you are a beautiful woman inside and out and we know this because we know you, love you, comfort you and you are a part of our family. We all can come here (Just as my little dumb codie ass did yesterday with my insecure issue with Mr. Flip Flop) and we know that we can speak what we feel and get support-something we were never use too. And GOD does that feel good to come to those (Idiots) who accept you for who you are!
Take a deep breath and keep your head held high-you deserve the best Newfie, we all do! Be open as much as you can and as others stated if he is as good as he sounds he will be there for you-it takes time.
I like Dee (Notice last night) stated
I wish I didn't go there either - but I do...sometimes. No miraculous transformations here, not yet anyway.
I figure a few years sobriety against a lifetime of bad choices and fking up? We probably have some stuff to learn yet
The important thing tho is...yeah - we respond differently. That's a huge step. Remember that - that's a triumph
I figure a few years sobriety against a lifetime of bad choices and fking up? We probably have some stuff to learn yet
The important thing tho is...yeah - we respond differently. That's a huge step. Remember that - that's a triumph
Love you mucho Ro Ro!
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Originally Posted by stone 
OK, but you need to start it like you usually do. 
Actually Dee, have I told you how wonderful you are today?
Actually Dee, have I told you how wonderful you are today?
let it grow!
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just checking in on the
#1 NEWF ...
gotta go get my head around my job interviews tomorrow. me and mr k saw the movie MILK today. sean penn is excellent in it. i had forgotten that the guy who shot harvey milk was the guy who coined the "twinkie defense"... funny..
love ya,
#1 NEWF!
you too,
ALL OTHER IDIOTS
#1 NEWF ...
gotta go get my head around my job interviews tomorrow. me and mr k saw the movie MILK today. sean penn is excellent in it. i had forgotten that the guy who shot harvey milk was the guy who coined the "twinkie defense"...
funny..love ya,
#1 NEWF!
you too,
ALL OTHER IDIOTS
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