I've been sober...
LOL! Who said anything about doing well.. I just haven't picked up. My life is in the *******...
I found a solution for my alcoholism other then alcohol in the program of AA, the solution involved a whole lot more then going to meetings though.
DK I am glad you are staying sober, I have a feeling that things might change for you if you found a program of any type and started to really work it. Get involved in things, get out of your self and work with other people.
I dont feel depressed as such but something is draining my energy. Is Paxil an anti depressent because im on Citalopram and its supposed to lift you up not wear you out. Im going to the doctors today and hopefully he will let me know the score. Hang in there, I need to read your posts on the secular thread to help keep me going. x
I'm glad you appreciate my posts, Allport. It's nice to feel needed!
Sounds very familiar to me DK, when I first quit drinking things got worse, not better! Borderline insanity is what I would have called it, I was going crazy for a drink and going crazy to not drink! I am an alcoholic so I need a solution, my solution for my alcoholism for many years was alcohol, when I was drinking I was semi okay, when I was not drinking I was angry, irratable, anxious, tired, etc........
I found a solution for my alcoholism other then alcohol in the program of AA, the solution involved a whole lot more then going to meetings though.
DK I am glad you are staying sober, I have a feeling that things might change for you if you found a program of any type and started to really work it. Get involved in things, get out of your self and work with other people.
I found a solution for my alcoholism other then alcohol in the program of AA, the solution involved a whole lot more then going to meetings though.
DK I am glad you are staying sober, I have a feeling that things might change for you if you found a program of any type and started to really work it. Get involved in things, get out of your self and work with other people.
I would actually like to get to more meetings, but it means an hour and a half on the road and money that I don't have because I'm unemployed, which is what I was mostly referring to when I said my life was "in the *******". That, and being stuck in this bum !@#% town, which makes it harder to fight the OCD and anxiety and go out and attempt to work. I've applied for General Assistance disability and see an independent psychologist on Thursday. I've been hitting a meeting when I have to drive into Spokane for something else, although I did drive in for an Atheist & Agnostic meeting on Sunday morning. I plan on continuing to make that meeting, because while it still focuses on making changes in thinking and behavior, it takes a Humanist perspective and is free of God talk and prayer. Finally a place where I really fit...
The meeting time was too close to my appointment time... and the psych eval was horrible. Memory tests triggered OCD symptoms which triggered an anxiety attack and then an emotional breakdown. I almost got locked up...
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remember a balanced diet isn't coffee and red bulls.
Can you make a meeting tomorrow?
Thanks, bro. Honestly, I'm still feeling wicked depressed. It's 5:30 in the morning and I should still be sleeping. It sucks, because I was feeling great on my way into Spokane and starting with a parking fiasco (office was downtown, parking meters and I had no coins), I just spiralled into an abyss. After giving my whole depressing life story, they gave me a battery of memory tests which I failed miserably at. Then I fell apart like a baby in front of an intelligent and attractive young woman. I wanted to be mad at her, but I couldn't. She was way to nice. There was no one to be mad at but myself. I just wanted to die. Now I'm crying again...
Paul hang tough Bro, call folks. I will be leaving for the weekend in a few so I will chat with you on Monday, I hope things are going better for you. Don't Red Bulls and the like make folks a bit...... EXTREME!!!!! LOL I know I have drank to much coffee and gotten pretty weirded out, perhaps cutting back on them or eliminating them would help..... speeding has never been benificail for me or folks around me!
Did the tests make you feel dumb or something cos I can tell you that you aren't. It is obvious from your posts that you are intelligent.
Pot effs up the memory, but it comes back after a while.
Mood swings and extreme emotions are all normal when you first quit Paul, in fact they are real extreme at about 30 days or so.
Just hang in there, things will improve soon.
Pot effs up the memory, but it comes back after a while.
Mood swings and extreme emotions are all normal when you first quit Paul, in fact they are real extreme at about 30 days or so.
Just hang in there, things will improve soon.
Just hang in there, things will improve soon.
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DK...sorry you are feeling so bad....
You are not your "test score".....tests are usually ridiculus indicators of anything in my opinion except who takes test well or if a person has one of those photographic memories.
I think for me crying is a good thing...I use to cry all the time but the last 10 years I just don't often, and it really is helpful to let the physical reactions to an emotion get released.
please keep yourself safe from the substances and use us instead...we are pretty good substitute! :ghug3 (wish there was a more serious hug option in the emotocons)
You are not your "test score".....tests are usually ridiculus indicators of anything in my opinion except who takes test well or if a person has one of those photographic memories.
I think for me crying is a good thing...I use to cry all the time but the last 10 years I just don't often, and it really is helpful to let the physical reactions to an emotion get released.
please keep yourself safe from the substances and use us instead...we are pretty good substitute! :ghug3 (wish there was a more serious hug option in the emotocons)
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