Made it my first week!
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today is my five monthiversary. i'm shaken a bit. i am so grateful that i have made it so far but i'm anxious and emotional and worried. not so much that i will take a drink but that i am so darn emotional right now. no where to go with my anxieties. first sober christmas in many many years --like 15 (except for 2 when i was prego). i'm worried because there is so much to do and i spiral into craziness. i'm sworried because i have to deal with the loss of my mom who died 7 years ago on 12/20 and we were really close. i'm worried because i'll be surrounded by people who are drinking. and i'm worried and feeling bad because in the past, i would be having a bloody mary, wine, vodka and cranberry, champagne, baileys in coffee throughout today and tomorrow. it's weird and scary.
i'm on edge. i hope to make a meeting today and also church tonight but have to squeeze them in around family obligations and to-dos. trying to keep sobriety a priority.
thank you God for getting me this far. thank you SR and friends for sending me good wishes. thank you God for listening to me as i ask for wisdom, good counsel, serenity and grace. thank you for giving me this opportunity to show my love to my family and a chance to make good memories for them.
hold me close dear Lord.
i'm on edge. i hope to make a meeting today and also church tonight but have to squeeze them in around family obligations and to-dos. trying to keep sobriety a priority.
thank you God for getting me this far. thank you SR and friends for sending me good wishes. thank you God for listening to me as i ask for wisdom, good counsel, serenity and grace. thank you for giving me this opportunity to show my love to my family and a chance to make good memories for them.
hold me close dear Lord.
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Hi Scootin...Ur doing good....one second at a time....
take a deep breath for calming....like meditation....
or how u see those that sit on the floor with legs
crossed and eyes closed....breathing in deep and
exhaling it slooowly.....Saying the Serenity Prayer
helps....claming, soothing....
Just let all the anxieties melt away....
Once u r mentally and spirityually rejuvinated then
u take the next best step....
First Things First....You dont have to be super
mom to do it all...if u can get at least one thing
done then thats a HUGE accomplishment...and thats
ok...That's good enough...
Have a plan in place if u will be around alcohol....If
u have to be there...go....have ur car, have an
excuse to leave...Then that way u r protecting
urself....if u r uncomfortable around folks...then
use ur car to leave and dont worry about others
You r taking care of urself and ur sobriety...Which
for me is that important....if i dont have that and keep
it then im no good to anyone else...and for u..its ur
family.
The hecticness will come and go but ur recovery
is for life....one day at a time.
Merry Christmas little one. : )
take a deep breath for calming....like meditation....
or how u see those that sit on the floor with legs
crossed and eyes closed....breathing in deep and
exhaling it slooowly.....Saying the Serenity Prayer
helps....claming, soothing....
Just let all the anxieties melt away....
Once u r mentally and spirityually rejuvinated then
u take the next best step....
First Things First....You dont have to be super
mom to do it all...if u can get at least one thing
done then thats a HUGE accomplishment...and thats
ok...That's good enough...
Have a plan in place if u will be around alcohol....If
u have to be there...go....have ur car, have an
excuse to leave...Then that way u r protecting
urself....if u r uncomfortable around folks...then
use ur car to leave and dont worry about others
You r taking care of urself and ur sobriety...Which
for me is that important....if i dont have that and keep
it then im no good to anyone else...and for u..its ur
family.
The hecticness will come and go but ur recovery
is for life....one day at a time.
Merry Christmas little one. : )
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thank you **{sharon}}
i made it so far--we are putting the presents under the tree.
i went to a meeting and it helped. i also had some good signs from hp that he had a plan bigger than me.
i thank God that i made it through the day and i am enjoying the moment. and am still sober. and it's been five months.
i am so humbled by God's grace.
i made it so far--we are putting the presents under the tree.
i went to a meeting and it helped. i also had some good signs from hp that he had a plan bigger than me.
i thank God that i made it through the day and i am enjoying the moment. and am still sober. and it's been five months.
i am so humbled by God's grace.
Last edited by scootinbabe; 12-24-2006 at 08:36 PM.
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another week down--and it's New Year's Eve. i made it!!!
about 20 minutes to a new year and more of this journey into sobriety.
thank you God for my husband, my kids, my family, my friends, my sponsor and my chance for a new life in sobriety!
about 20 minutes to a new year and more of this journey into sobriety.
thank you God for my husband, my kids, my family, my friends, my sponsor and my chance for a new life in sobriety!
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i've been slacking off...still sober but not working my program...starting up again soon to be on step 4 (yikes).
i am so grateful to be sober. grateful for the peace of mind. grateful that i can think and reason more easily and with greater confidence.
thankful that i am alive and know it!
i am so grateful to be sober. grateful for the peace of mind. grateful that i can think and reason more easily and with greater confidence.
thankful that i am alive and know it!
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I am unable to articulate fully how grateful I am that i made it six months sober today! The world is still not perfect--nor am I--but I can at least face it now with true emotions and clear eyes.
Thank you dear Lord!
Thank you to my dear friends here on SR, at AA, in my life and my family.
Thank you dear Lord!
Thank you to my dear friends here on SR, at AA, in my life and my family.
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205 days sober!
i am grateful that we still have power.
i am grateful for my marriage.
i am grateful for my children.
i am grateful that my best friend is getting married.
i am grateful that i will see my other best friend in less than 2 weeks.
i am grateful for my sobriety and my sponsor.
i am grateful that we still have power.
i am grateful for my marriage.
i am grateful for my children.
i am grateful that my best friend is getting married.
i am grateful that i will see my other best friend in less than 2 weeks.
i am grateful for my sobriety and my sponsor.
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i am grateful for friends who call and want to visit
i am grateful for my sister who sent me a meaningful card
i am grateful that i could take the time to get outside in the cold and ice to sled with my kids--and to fully enjoy it!
i am grateful for my health
i am grateful for warm clothes and soft blankets
i am grateful for my sister who sent me a meaningful card
i am grateful that i could take the time to get outside in the cold and ice to sled with my kids--and to fully enjoy it!
i am grateful for my health
i am grateful for warm clothes and soft blankets
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Amen to the soft blankets!!
Scoot, you are an amazing inspiration to all of us here at SR. Your posts are calm, clear, hopeful, and positive. I love reading the questions you have and the advice you offer.
I'm grateful to have you as a friend.
Scoot, you are an amazing inspiration to all of us here at SR. Your posts are calm, clear, hopeful, and positive. I love reading the questions you have and the advice you offer.
I'm grateful to have you as a friend.
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oh ****{c'est}}} right back at you, honey! wish you and your wheaten lived next door...!
today i am grateful for:
yesterday's meaningful discussion at our meeting
the possibility of a new meeting that allows small children and infants to attend
the opportunity to have brunch with my family (adults only)
for my adorable kids and my love for them
for a break from those adorable kids while i have brunch (lol!)
for the life and health of my husband
for financial security
going sledding!
no school on monday so that we can invite friends over
the access i have to meetings, mentors, and literature
my hp and my attempt to remain willing
hugs to myself for trying to live this life while trying to make it better.
today i am grateful for:
yesterday's meaningful discussion at our meeting
the possibility of a new meeting that allows small children and infants to attend
the opportunity to have brunch with my family (adults only)
for my adorable kids and my love for them
for a break from those adorable kids while i have brunch (lol!)
for the life and health of my husband
for financial security
going sledding!
no school on monday so that we can invite friends over
the access i have to meetings, mentors, and literature
my hp and my attempt to remain willing
hugs to myself for trying to live this life while trying to make it better.
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today i am grateful for
getting my voice back a little bit
feeling a little bit better
volunteering in my child's classroom -- and showing up showered, dressed and sober
a half day tomorrow so i can play with my kids!
a wonderful successful weekend away with old friends
seeing my dearest friend
making someone happy
california pizza kitchen
218 days of no drinking
a good sponsor to keep me on track
good readings to help me learn
getting my voice back a little bit
feeling a little bit better
volunteering in my child's classroom -- and showing up showered, dressed and sober
a half day tomorrow so i can play with my kids!
a wonderful successful weekend away with old friends
seeing my dearest friend
making someone happy
california pizza kitchen
218 days of no drinking
a good sponsor to keep me on track
good readings to help me learn
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Today I am grateful for making it 7 days. So much goodness has already come from this and so much more will come. I can't believe the quality time I have spent with my wife and daughter in just a few days. I am grateful for their patience and understanding.
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i am grateful for my health
my husband
my children
getting through my friend's wedding
the fact that she found someone who loves her so much and she in return
my other friend is recovering and making progress after her stroke
that her parents sold their house and found another
that my husband's good friend reconnected with him
that my other good friend found out that she is pregnant
that i am sober
that i have a home
that i have food and good water
that i got a shower today
my husband
my children
getting through my friend's wedding
the fact that she found someone who loves her so much and she in return
my other friend is recovering and making progress after her stroke
that her parents sold their house and found another
that my husband's good friend reconnected with him
that my other good friend found out that she is pregnant
that i am sober
that i have a home
that i have food and good water
that i got a shower today
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