SabrinaQ

My divorce will be finalized next week...

Exactly one year after I was separated, okay dumped by my RAH.

What can I say?

Three days ago I actually realized what a troubled person he really is.

I do hope he stays clean and that he can be happy with himself someday..

But I am realizing that the person I fell in love with was an illusion, yes the good parts of him that he showed me were real, but all the bad parts, the insecurities, weakness, self-pity, the lies, lies, lies...all of that was hidden from view (and lets face it I was in denial).

But it still hurts a lot, I am grieving six years of my life, and that illusion that I fell in love with and that I was sure I would spend the rest of my life with...
and his good side, it's real and I loved it, but he's not able to integrate his two sides into a personality that can stand up. Not yet, and my guess is, not for a long time.

Oh well, the pain will get better, it already is.
Hang in there!