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katchie, spiderqueen & carlotta - I relate to what you've experienced as well. It becomes a game that we're obsessed with when we find bottles and try to figure out the cause & effect of their drinking, the timing, the suspected before & after. Looking at his pupils to see if they're blown (his seem to get that way while drinking). What you pointed out made sense about stopping the madness. I'm trying to stop his obsession from being my obsession.
Do all alcoholics hide their drinking, or only when their loved ones think they may have a problem?
Sometimes I think it's not the drinking that I take personally, as I said in another comment it's the behavior - it feels like he is avoiding me, he isn't talking, he isn't affectionate, and sooner or later he will get upset with me for not being intimate with him. The yelling at me over small things or the attitude has me questioning how I can respond to that without being a doormat.
There are many threads that address this fundamental reality.
Since breaking up with my A, I have spent all the time I used to spend obsessing over his addiction and accompanying dysfunction, really getting to know myself; the patterns I perpetuate in relationships, my unhealthy habits, and also my very fine and admirable qualities and successes. Um, I guess a "fearless moral inventory", or something along those lines...
I recommend it. It's painful and enlightening. And critical to growing in a healthy direction, regardless of what path our partners chose for themselves.
picture this as an iceberg:
THE COVER UPS
External
Behavorials Gambling
(these
are the tips
of the icebergs) depression/Anxiety
Stress Related Disorders
Process Addiction
Ingestion Addiction
the water ____________________________________________
CODEPENDENCY (IDENTITY AND INTIMACY PROBLEMs
______________________________________________
under
the iceberg GUILT
(Internal
Progess) SHAME
Fear of ABANDONEMNT
i wish i could copy and send it here...but i am at work.....
this is a Iceberg MODEL of any addiction
THE COVER UPS
External
Behavorials Gambling
(these
are the tips
of the icebergs) depression/Anxiety
Stress Related Disorders
Process Addiction
Ingestion Addiction
the water ____________________________________________
CODEPENDENCY (IDENTITY AND INTIMACY PROBLEMs
______________________________________________
under
the iceberg GUILT
(Internal
Progess) SHAME
Fear of ABANDONEMNT
i wish i could copy and send it here...but i am at work.....
this is a Iceberg MODEL of any addiction
Wow. That's very helpful. I like that it explains ME as well as my XAP. It takes a sickie to stay with a sickie. Can't wait to see it on a regular sized screen. I can only use my phone until I get my own place and my own internet account. X decided to stop paying the bill.
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