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Old 09-02-2012, 03:58 AM
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Hello
I,ve been a member of this forum since 2010. I haven't psoted much at all but have read and visited every single day and got the strenght to go on from you lovely people.

When i first joined i couldn't carry on and received the best advice and support. Last Novemeber i left my A for myself but also for him, hoping this would help him seek recovery. Fast forward to July this year i went back to him and our dog because the dog needed major surgery and i wanted to be there to help. Things were pretty good, A was more or less not drinking except for one relaspe we were finding love again and having a life that was a bit normaler than what had been. We were close again and he was interacting with the family.

I came home the other day and found he'd hung himself, i cut him down but he was already dead, paramedics managed to revive him and he's been on life support all week until 1st sept when i made the decision to turn it off.

I so miss my lovely but feel he made the decision to end his life to rid himself of the day to day torment, guilt etc. running through his head. In the last few weeks he has been the clearest i've seen him in years. I beleive he also took the descision to put his family out of the misery that we all know alcoholism causes.

Thank you each and every one of you on these boards i would never have got through the last two years without you.

Goodnight my darling i will miss you so much after 26 years i loved you until the very end. Goodnight my love xxxxx

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Hello strawberryfair,

I'm so terribly sorry for the loss of this young man. What a tragedy! Please accept my sincerest condolences on your loss. He and you and all who loved him will be in my prayers.

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I am so very sorry. Words cannot express.....
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I'm so sorry strawberry. (xxxxx)
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I am so sorry for your loss. Words are inadequate but my thoughts are with you x
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My sympathies and prayers for you and your family. I am so sorry for your terrible loss.
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I am so veryy sorry.
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I am so sorry, Strawberry.
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Prayers and strength toward healing. Take care.
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Im so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you and your family are going through.
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I am so sorry for your loss StrawberryFair. My heart goes out to you.
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I also am so very sorry. My prayers are with you and your families....Hugs.
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My prayers go out for you, Strawberry, and all who loved him. How very sad and tragic this is, and my heart just breaks for you.

Please know we are here and we care.

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I am so sorry for you. I cannot imagine what that would be like. A big comfy hug for you right now.
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((StrawberryFair)) - I'm so very sorry. Lots of prayers going up for you, him, and all who loved him.

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I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers and strength to you.
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Prayers for healing for you and the rest of his family.
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