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Old 11-19-2010, 05:49 PM
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As it is right now I am going to therapy. I did a really sad drawing about how I felt then, and I recently found it and gave it to the therapist.

We are going to do a ceremony and burn the drawing. I am already crying. So many emotions and hurt.


But we deserve freedom, plain and simple.
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Old 11-19-2010, 05:49 PM
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My gut says that I can live without lies and this pain. My gut knows he needs help. Right now my head is spinning and I feel foolish. Even if I may not be foolish, I feel it.

Thank you, thank you!!

HUGS to everyone!!!!!
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Old 11-19-2010, 05:50 PM
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Ain't love grand? Yep, I am sure, look ma, I have a love wand...look left!
*looking left* Still looking...... : )
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Old 11-19-2010, 05:52 PM
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But we deserve freedom, plain and simple.
Yes, yes we do. I hope that you have it soon.
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Old 11-19-2010, 05:55 PM
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Hmmp, you need glasses....yes, that is the problem, you can't see clearly!

Follow thru on those meetings, they will help and keep posting, love your sense of humor!
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My heart and mind can't take it right now, I'm just going to sleep and pray for courage and hope.

Thank you all again, thank you so much.

Good night to everyone. Pleasant dreams all. Thank you all again. HUGE HUGS!!
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Old 11-19-2010, 05:56 PM
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Yes ala3037, in my experience, life can be sad, painful and difficult but it is still a breeze compared to having that madness in your life. Stress takes its toll. All in all I prefer to live in reality.
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Old 11-19-2010, 05:56 PM
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Originally Posted by dollydo View Post
Hmmp, you need glasses....yes, that is the problem, you can't see clearly!

Follow thru on those meetings, they will help and keep posting, love your sense of humor!
Dang, my glasses are on the counter. Oh well. I look left tomorrow morning. : )
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Old 11-19-2010, 06:39 PM
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ala,

I took mine back so many times.
You have to stop judging yourself, and move into a resolve to do what you can, what is available to you emotionally right now.

Go to Alanon, and it will help you get some ground in your heart and mind.

Try not to beat yourself up.
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Old 11-19-2010, 06:57 PM
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Ala, I'm so sorry for where you are right now. There are many here at SR much wiser than I but I can tell you that a little over a month in Al Anon has taught me more and given me more strength than I ever thought possible.

Please go and please keep posting.
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Old 11-20-2010, 07:40 AM
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Good morning. I'm going to go to al anon and I'm going to see a therapist and I will figure out the right way to handle this. I don't want to yell, say mean things or make me look like some prude. All of your support has been a gift from God. Chin up, stay positive and continue my quest for the magic wand that's somewhere left of me.
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Old 11-20-2010, 08:24 AM
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@steppingUP..isn't that the the truth!...we are here in SR to open everyones eyes...mine have been open big time...."take what you want and leave the rest" but truth to be told is STEP #1: I am powerless over alcohol ......and the


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you did not cause this
you can not control this
and you can not cure this...

YEP...sums it up pretty nice...dont you think?
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Old 11-20-2010, 05:52 PM
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Do you believe that if someone wants to change, they will find the courage and strength to do so?
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Old 11-20-2010, 05:55 PM
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Do you believe that if someone wants to change, they will find the courage and strength to do so?
yes, if i can do it anyone can.

you know what just came in my head?
a song by en vogue (i think)

free your mind
and the rest will follow
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Old 11-20-2010, 06:00 PM
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Originally Posted by ala3037 View Post
Do you believe that if someone wants to change, they will find the courage and strength to do so?
What do you think?
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Old 11-20-2010, 06:47 PM
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I think half of my friends here in SR can tell you "YES YOU CAN CHANGE!! " and THEYhave proved it works....as long as they work the HONEST program every single day and they are REAL to what and who they are...yeppers i believe it...
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Old 11-20-2010, 08:49 PM
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Originally Posted by wicked View Post
yes, if i can do it anyone can.

you know what just came in my head?
a song by en vogue (i think)

free your mind
and the rest will follow
So glad I clicked on this thread, I love that song and haven't heard it in years.
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Old 11-21-2010, 08:51 AM
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What do you think?
I believe that yes, if someone wants to change they will have the strength and courage to do so. I do believe.
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Old 11-22-2010, 07:02 AM
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You are in the right place and we are all here for you. YOU are not alone, I can really identify with the way you are feeling, I had this happen to me too. after 10 years of recovery my alcoholic picked up again and it was very hard and letting go of his behavior was so hard for me. our stories are all alike but different if you know what I mean. keep posting, reading and please go to an alanon meeting, I went and it made me feel so much better, they listened and never judged me, I was embrassed into a very giving and supportive environment when I couldn't take care of myself and didn't know what to do. I learned from example of the others in the meeting. experiences, strength and most of all hope are what it is all about dear. please hang in there. all the best to you....m
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Old 11-24-2010, 02:52 PM
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Thank you so much. I didn't go to the meeting, I was chicken. I'm seeing a therapist next week and hope to get more courage and knowledge I need to be true myself and my needs/wants.
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