Keep me sober - U4S sanity log!
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Keep me sober - U4S sanity log!
Hi everyone.
Well I'm absolutely fed up with this cycle already. I have only been drinking again for just over a couple of weeks and my whole life has now become about trying to dry out again. It feels all consuming and what's even more insane is that I'm not even enjoying it. 25 years of it - I know what it's about and I don't want any part of it. I had 440 days sober less than a month ago. I'm trying to keep things in perspective. I'm literally 6 hours into my next detox. The insanity of this condition! It's nothing more than torture and sabotage, I'm so done with it. Anyone who's reached day 5,6,7 ....keep going!!
Well I'm absolutely fed up with this cycle already. I have only been drinking again for just over a couple of weeks and my whole life has now become about trying to dry out again. It feels all consuming and what's even more insane is that I'm not even enjoying it. 25 years of it - I know what it's about and I don't want any part of it. I had 440 days sober less than a month ago. I'm trying to keep things in perspective. I'm literally 6 hours into my next detox. The insanity of this condition! It's nothing more than torture and sabotage, I'm so done with it. Anyone who's reached day 5,6,7 ....keep going!!
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We all started with a Day One. That's one thing we all have in common. I was sober for 20 yrs and then started drinking 'a glass' of wine in the afternoon. That did not turn out well. 
I finally stopped drinking and have now been sober for almost 12 yrs. It's possible to start again and succeed. 
Stick around, read and post, and reach out when/if you feel the urge to drink. We'll do our best to talk you out of it.
I finally stopped drinking and have now been sober for almost 12 yrs. It's possible to start again and succeed. Stick around, read and post, and reach out when/if you feel the urge to drink. We'll do our best to talk you out of it.
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Originally Posted by least 
We all started with a Day One. That's one thing we all have in common. I was sober for 20 yrs and then started drinking 'a glass' of wine in the afternoon. That did not turn out well. I finally stopped drinking and have now been sober for almost 12 yrs. It's possible to start again and succeed.
Stick around, read and post, and reach out when/if you feel the urge to drink. We'll do our best to talk you out of it.
I finally stopped drinking and have now been sober for almost 12 yrs. It's possible to start again and succeed. Stick around, read and post, and reach out when/if you feel the urge to drink. We'll do our best to talk you out of it.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
You just have to keep your head down and power through UNITE4STRENGTH - keep doing the right things and reach out here if thats becoming difficult for you...
You can absolutely do this
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You can absolutely do this
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I 'just' used SR UNITE4ATRENGTH, but I was beyond ready to quit for good.
My drinking was endangering my life..
If one type of support is not enough, it makes perfect sense to have a few avenues of help available to you
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My drinking was endangering my life..
If one type of support is not enough, it makes perfect sense to have a few avenues of help available to you
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Originally Posted by Dee74
I 'just' used SR UNITE4ATRENGTH, but I was beyond ready to quit for good.
My drinking was endangering my life..
If one type of support is not enough, it makes perfect sense to have a few avenues of help available to you
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My drinking was endangering my life..
If one type of support is not enough, it makes perfect sense to have a few avenues of help available to you
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Have you looked into rational recovery? There are lots of threads about it in the secular section. It might just resonate with you.
This is a good read.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ined-long.html (AVRT Explained (long))
Good luck.
This is a good read.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ined-long.html (AVRT Explained (long))
Good luck.
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Originally Posted by Kaily
Have you looked into rational recovery? There are lots of threads about it in the secular section. It might just resonate with you.
This is a good read.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ined-long.html (AVRT Explained (long))
Good luck.
This is a good read.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ined-long.html (AVRT Explained (long))
Good luck.
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Way to go, @UNITE4STRENGTH! Since you had 440 days at one point you know deep down you can do it. The relapse has shown you how miserable it is to "go back out there" so make it stick! 
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Originally Posted by MythOfSisyphus
Way to go, @UNITE4STRENGTH! Since you had 440 days at one point you know deep down you can do it. The relapse has shown you how miserable it is to "go back out there" so make it stick!
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Hi everyone... I'm going to need to plan this - reduce down over several days.
I had a week's intake yesterday.....forgive me, I could not face down yet another gruelling withdrawal alone at my flat. I need to ensure that I can reduce down so that I can face my next Day One. I am literally on my own in terms of no chance of assisted detox anytime soon. The other major issue is that I need to return to work ASAP......my job is on the line because of my mental health and now alcoholism again. Thanks for reading!
I had a week's intake yesterday.....forgive me, I could not face down yet another gruelling withdrawal alone at my flat. I need to ensure that I can reduce down so that I can face my next Day One. I am literally on my own in terms of no chance of assisted detox anytime soon. The other major issue is that I need to return to work ASAP......my job is on the line because of my mental health and now alcoholism again. Thanks for reading!
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Originally Posted by Erratic
Hi hun, you can do this!! this is my first time in being sober since 2008 which i did a year and havent found myself since until now. U are so worth doing this for x
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Hey Unite:
I don't know about tapering, so I can't comment on that(I could never do it) but I'd suggest along with the idea above about Rational Recovery that you check out the book "Alcohol Explained" it helped me tremendously. Very fact based explanation based approach to why we get addicted to alcohol. It really resonated with me.
AA isn't my gig, at least not for the moment, but if it helps you go for it--I'd throw everything at getting sober that you possibly can. Please keep posting!
I don't know about tapering, so I can't comment on that(I could never do it) but I'd suggest along with the idea above about Rational Recovery that you check out the book "Alcohol Explained" it helped me tremendously. Very fact based explanation based approach to why we get addicted to alcohol. It really resonated with me.
AA isn't my gig, at least not for the moment, but if it helps you go for it--I'd throw everything at getting sober that you possibly can. Please keep posting!
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Hi samwitch. Thanks for your message. I was drunk again yesterday. I didn't want to face drying out! Now i'm in the same situation of course......I pray I find the courage to stop now. It's been around 6 hours since I drank.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
If you're that scared of withdrawal, maybe seeing a Dr is a good idea, U4S?
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