Fed up and lost
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Fed up and lost
Hi, I have struggled with addictions of all sorts for all of my adult life. I have left all of them behind with the exception of alcohol, I just can't leave it alone. Since the age of 12 years old I have binged on alcohol at least once a week and sometimes for 5 days at a time. Of course this has been a REAL problem I. Relationships, jobs and self esteem.
I am 42 years old now and I have pushed it back to weekends but it's 75 beers on Saturday and Sunday, I believe my health is suffering and Im Afraid I'm doomed to loose another relationship. I'm scared and I am helpless against this. How do I start to kick this.
I am 42 years old now and I have pushed it back to weekends but it's 75 beers on Saturday and Sunday, I believe my health is suffering and Im Afraid I'm doomed to loose another relationship. I'm scared and I am helpless against this. How do I start to kick this.
Hi, I have struggled with addictions of all sorts for all of my adult life. I have left all of them behind with the exception of alcohol, I just can't leave it alone. Since the age of 12 years old I have binged on alcohol at least once a week and sometimes for 5 days at a time. Of course this has been a REAL problem I. Relationships, jobs and self esteem.
I am 42 years old now and I have pushed it back to weekends but it's 75 beers on Saturday and Sunday, I believe my health is suffering and Im Afraid I'm doomed to loose another relationship. I'm scared and I am helpless against this. How do I start to kick this.
I am 42 years old now and I have pushed it back to weekends but it's 75 beers on Saturday and Sunday, I believe my health is suffering and Im Afraid I'm doomed to loose another relationship. I'm scared and I am helpless against this. How do I start to kick this.
Welcome to SR! Withdrawals are always possible, but each person responds differently. The good news is they are finite...but they can be dangerous too so just take it easy and seek help if you need it. Rest, water and healthy food can help ease the symptoms.
Hi, I have struggled with addictions of all sorts for all of my adult life. I have left all of them behind with the exception of alcohol, I just can't leave it alone. Since the age of 12 years old I have binged on alcohol at least once a week and sometimes for 5 days at a time. Of course this has been a REAL problem I. Relationships, jobs and self esteem.
I am 42 years old now and I have pushed it back to weekends but it's 75 beers on Saturday and Sunday, I believe my health is suffering and Im Afraid I'm doomed to loose another relationship. I'm scared and I am helpless against this. How do I start to kick this.
I am 42 years old now and I have pushed it back to weekends but it's 75 beers on Saturday and Sunday, I believe my health is suffering and Im Afraid I'm doomed to loose another relationship. I'm scared and I am helpless against this. How do I start to kick this.
And now I'm 42 and almost two years sober.
How do you start? You start with a sincere and deep focus on being sober.
For me, AA was a crucial part of the process and my toolkit. Having real, in-person support and interaction was important. The Big Book was helpful, too. I read it three times. I didn't do everything that AA said and I didn't find everything in the Big Book resonated with me - but I got a lot out of both and they were essential to my recovery process. I haven't been in a while, but I have AA friends and AA ties and I will go to meetings from time to time because I want to give back and because I don't want to stray too far from reminders of why I am sober.
I also went (and continue to go) to counseling. Pretty regularly, though with spots and breaks from it. Therapy helped me deal with not specifically my addiction - but with the business of being human. It helped me deal with all of the things that I didn't even realize were related to my drinking. It helped me become more comfortable with me, with my past, with my present. Gave me tools other than alcohol to live with.
I changed. I stopped going to places that were all about alcohol. Eventually, nowadays, I can and do go to those places on a limited basis. Maybe to see a band or attend an event. But I find them mostly unappealing now. I have a lot of new things in my life that I'd prefer to focus my time on and that's because...
I did new things and went new places. I shifted my focus - which had been on drinking and doing things with people who were focused on drinking. I started doing things that weren't about drinking, with people who didn't focus on drinking. I supported my decision to embrace sobriety by investing in sober activities.
I gave back, got outside myself. Started some youth programs and volunteered and did things that felt good to help my community. None of which - incidentally - were about drinking.
I rebuilt my life around a sober choice.... and things changed. Things got better. Things continue to get better. I don't drink and I'm happy about that.
Like you it all started as a youngster. Like you I struggled through addictions to a lot of things. Like you, alcohol was my hardest struggle to break free from. Like you, I knew inside that I wanted more and that I didn't want to live that way. I'm like you....
and you can be like me.
Sober and free.
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Checking in. Thanks for your stories and concerns its Friday and no drink 😃 lots of nerves and anxiety, really felt thirsty last couple days but real bad today I guess payday is a trigger. volunteered to take on extra work this weekend to take up my time. Excited to take on a new future.
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Sure I'll look into it. I have a wonderful fiance who is very supportive and sober so I lean on her ,(prolly more than I should). But sometimes she won't or can't relate. So hence my interest in this page.
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Well scratch another day off the calender 😃 worked today another days pay in my pocket finished early came home took fiance and son to dinner came home had movie night. Happy happy happy so far. Have had a couple anxiety issues but I managed. Fiance can tell when IM getting edgy and and I know it as well but knowing why helps me (and her) deal with it. I've had to take a time out couple times to gather my nerves but no big deal. She is understanding I'm lucky to have her. Bed time now tomorrow is sons 9th birthday so it's family get together gonna be another good day.
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