25 months tomorrow
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25 months tomorrow
My monthly reminder to myself and maybe a glimmer of hope for the ones who are struggling to get going. Ups and downs over these two years but mostly up. Not always easy but a better life in so many ways. Two years of remembering where I have been, what I said and not waking up in a place that I don't recognize. Hang in there folks and remember, the day you decide that the desire to not drink is the new normal and the questioning of why anyone would want to even be a social drinker is on your mind, that's the day you have arrived. Don't believe me; Well, got my first drunk on wine with a friend at age 12. Drank off and on for most of my teenage years and was a full blown alcoholic by age 20. Tried to quit more times than I can count, even had one year of sobriety in 1996 and then went back on the bottle. Not this time though, because this time I'm doing it completely different. I made a mental inventory and a decision that I don't want to drink and that I don't want to be a slave to the bottle no more.
Great job, TNman!!!
I totally agree with your point about attitude. It is so much easier when you want and value sobriety. If you are feeling deprived by not drinking, it's going to be tough.
I totally agree with your point about attitude. It is so much easier when you want and value sobriety. If you are feeling deprived by not drinking, it's going to be tough.
Well done that is fantastic to hear. Still not sure how to get to that place where I don't feel like I am missing out on something. I know it's all a lie and I really am not missing anything worth having. Early days yet so hopefully in time and with work I will get there.
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Well done that is fantastic to hear. Still not sure how to get to that place where I don't feel like I am missing out on something. I know it's all a lie and I really am not missing anything worth having. Early days yet so hopefully in time and with work I will get there.
Yes, it's by no means easy, especially not in the beginning. You have to realize that I'm almost 50 years old and had over 30 years of alcohol abuse behind me. I had DUI's, Public intoxication charge, marriage problems, memory loss, embarrassing episodes in front of family, severe anxiety, and on and on. After a while it just clicked, that it was time to grow up and face the addiction or I would end up dead prematurely. And let's be honest, what fun is it to sit in a bar or at home gulping down alcohol in order to numb yourself. I had so many plans in life that never got anywhere due to the booze. So sit down, pray about it if you are religious or just mediate and you will find that all the drinkers are the losers not you. Put that drink down and brush yourself off for a better life. Not easy, takes willpower, takes stamina to fight cravings now and then and most of all, you probably will have to sever some bad relationships and friendships and stop hanging around bars and such. Good luck to you, you can do it.
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