Last night
Last night
My bus was delayed over an hour so it meant I'd a two and a half hour wait to get home. I was twitching and dancing with the devil of drinking. I actually had to use the "just not today if u feel like it tomorrow I'll let you" analogy. It worked. Maybe just now the avrt "yes no game" is too difficult. Because in the moment of temptation when saying no is hard - saying yes is too easy - if it's one or the other. Maybe I have to manipulate my beast as he does me right now. Anyway I'm really pleased I didn't drink last night things still suck but at least I'm not hungover and guilty or anxious
This staying sober stuff isn't as difficult as some people make it out to be. If we use the tools we're given. That's why early in recovery I wanted my toolbox to be overflowing. Filled it up, and used every single tool that was availed to me. Still do (well, a lot of them anyway), but it's no longer in order to not drink. I don't drink. Now they're my tools for leading a contented life.
Great job! Keep doing what you did there and you'll be sober for life.
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I'm not sure how separating the voice works as we all know it is "I" wanting but it does work with the AVRT. Any thought process that supports drinking is bunk. It has made early detection of "using thoughts" easier for me I think. Any which way we can. Congrats!
Congratulations, 13, you did it! You succeeded in giving that idea to drink a pass. You get a pat on the back for this.
Next time, consider this. Step outside yourself and take a look at what you are experiencing when these urges come along. OK, so here's this 13 person, an (ex) alcoholic, with a sudden urge to drink. Where are the urges coming from? She surely doesn't want to drink, it is her addiction that is jonesing. Who decides if she will stay sober? Will she make it?
If you ponder these questions in this way while you are standing on that edge, I am confident that you will pull back. I know you have it within to do it and to be successful. I believe in you, 13. Always, OK?
Next time, consider this. Step outside yourself and take a look at what you are experiencing when these urges come along. OK, so here's this 13 person, an (ex) alcoholic, with a sudden urge to drink. Where are the urges coming from? She surely doesn't want to drink, it is her addiction that is jonesing. Who decides if she will stay sober? Will she make it?
If you ponder these questions in this way while you are standing on that edge, I am confident that you will pull back. I know you have it within to do it and to be successful. I believe in you, 13. Always, OK?
Congratulations, 13, you did it! You succeeded in giving that idea to drink a pass. You get a pat on the back for this.
Next time, consider this. Step outside yourself and take a look at what you are experiencing when these urges come along. OK, so here's this 13 person, an (ex) alcoholic, with a sudden urge to drink. Where are the urges coming from? She surely doesn't want to drink, it is her addiction that is jonesing. Who decides if she will stay sober? Will she make it?
If you ponder these questions in this way while you are standing on that edge, I am confident that you will pull back. I know you have it within to do it and to be successful. I believe in you, 13. Always, OK?
Next time, consider this. Step outside yourself and take a look at what you are experiencing when these urges come along. OK, so here's this 13 person, an (ex) alcoholic, with a sudden urge to drink. Where are the urges coming from? She surely doesn't want to drink, it is her addiction that is jonesing. Who decides if she will stay sober? Will she make it?
If you ponder these questions in this way while you are standing on that edge, I am confident that you will pull back. I know you have it within to do it and to be successful. I believe in you, 13. Always, OK?
I used your line today in work - I was talking to someone about hitting target and he was saying 'it's been hard today but I'm almost where I've got to be' I answered 'well done' then I smiled and said "onwards" lol I love how simple that word is but it's so meaningful I've sort of adopted it hahaha
I'm really bad at working out budgets. I should probably get some help with it. I want to take charge of my life. I want to work towards this life that I deserve to give myself.
I would wager that your bank has a credit assistance office, and since they want their money back some day, they will most certainly give you the help you are looking for. Preparing a budget and sticking to it will be a certainty, since you know you can move through the small challenges now.
You can use each success, even the little ones, to propel you forward. Since you have already accomplished this one thing, now let's move on to the next. Small steps, but always keep moving in that singular direction, whatever direction that might be. Yep, that's the one right there! Onward!
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