My bus was delayed over an hour so it meant I'd a two and a half hour wait to get home. I was twitching and dancing with the devil of drinking. I actually had to use the "just not today if u feel like it tomorrow I'll let you" analogy. It worked. Maybe just now the avrt "yes no game" is too difficult. Because in the moment of temptation when saying no is hard - saying yes is too easy - if it's one or the other. Maybe I have to manipulate my beast as he does me right now. Anyway I'm really pleased I didn't drink last night
things still suck but at least I'm not hungover and guilty or anxious