Feck you drugs
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Feck you drugs
Benzos, opiates, alcohol, amphetamines, hallucinogens, up yours! You have been in my life or taken over my thinking too long. I had myself convinced that I needed you. I don't. I need my life back and my family need me.
I love the way you make my bed feel like a cloud and the way you make sleep effortless. I love the way you take away all my thoughts and cares. I love the way you help me to be more outgoing.
But I hate what I've let you take from me. My mind, my body, quality time with my family. Time! I hate that you take away my cares so much that falling asleep with you I couldn't care less if I were never to wake up.
This is probably the hardest I have had to fight and I know there is only one thjng that would give me instant relief. But I'm not going there, I'm not doing all this again. I could lose everything.
I'm scared to feel but I know I need to. Life on life's terms.
Feck you drugs.
While we are at it. Feck you bulimia.
You can't have me.
I love the way you make my bed feel like a cloud and the way you make sleep effortless. I love the way you take away all my thoughts and cares. I love the way you help me to be more outgoing.
But I hate what I've let you take from me. My mind, my body, quality time with my family. Time! I hate that you take away my cares so much that falling asleep with you I couldn't care less if I were never to wake up.
This is probably the hardest I have had to fight and I know there is only one thjng that would give me instant relief. But I'm not going there, I'm not doing all this again. I could lose everything.
I'm scared to feel but I know I need to. Life on life's terms.
Feck you drugs.
While we are at it. Feck you bulimia.
You can't have me.
They are in there MLC, it just takes awhile for the "novocaine" to wear off.
My suggestion (from experience) is to be prepared for them once they do come back. While it's great to feel them again it can also be a bit overwhelming at first since it has become "normal" for us to be numb to them.
My suggestion (from experience) is to be prepared for them once they do come back. While it's great to feel them again it can also be a bit overwhelming at first since it has become "normal" for us to be numb to them.
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They are in there MLC, it just takes awhile for the "novocaine" to wear off.
My suggestion (from experience) is to be prepared for them once they do come back. While it's great to feel them again it can also be a bit overwhelming at first since it has become "normal" for us to be numb to them.
My suggestion (from experience) is to be prepared for them once they do come back. While it's great to feel them again it can also be a bit overwhelming at first since it has become "normal" for us to be numb to them.
I am quite nervous about the feelings coming back. I was sober for 6 weeks or so from New Years and I was depressed and suicidal during this time. I am on anti depressants now so I am hoping they help me keep my head above for just a little while. I am just waiting for my ed to rear it's ugly head also.
Thanks. Yeah, I am still very much in withdrawal from the Benzos so all my thinking is really gojng into my physical state a (literally) putting one foot in front of the other.
I am quite nervous about the feelings coming back. I was sober for 6 weeks or so from New Years and I was depressed and suicidal during this time. I am on anti depressants now so I am hoping they help me keep my head above for just a little while. I am just waiting for my ed to rear it's ugly head also.
I am quite nervous about the feelings coming back. I was sober for 6 weeks or so from New Years and I was depressed and suicidal during this time. I am on anti depressants now so I am hoping they help me keep my head above for just a little while. I am just waiting for my ed to rear it's ugly head also.
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