Patiam

Hello everyone. I just stumbled across this board while looking up advice for my addiction, and thought posting here would help. My drug of choice was morphine, and I've been taking it for about 7 months now. For the first 3-4 months I was only taking 1 60MG pill a day. Once my body got used to it, I started taking 2 a day. Recently I've realized just how bad my life is becoming because of this habit. I've severed all ties with the person I got my drugs from...so I have no possible way of getting more, and on monday I begin my path to getting well. I took a few weeks off work, so while I'm not going to be making very much money to support myself....at least I have a job to come back to after this is all over. I've stocked up on gatorade, multivitamins, bread, and bananas...but any more advice that will even help in the slightlist (as I know every little bit of help counts) I would be extremely appreciative. I know that I'm about to experience the hardest thing I've ever been through in my life....but I know that once its over...I'll have my life back.

Also, I'm really not sure how long I can expect the worst symptoms to last based on how long I used....but does anyone thing I'll be able to go back to work in a month? I really cant afford to take any more time off then that...

Marcus

Welcome Pat. Glad to head you are going to take your life back. Nobody can say for sure how long your withdrawals will last. You have not been using all that long so if you are in good health it shouldn't be too horrible. It sounds like you have prepared well and taking two weeks off work was a great idea and will give you the best chance of success.

For me the physical withdrawals while miserable were much easier to get through than the mental cravings and depression that came along with kicking opiates. Don't psych yourself out by saying it is the hardest thing you have ever done. It helps to have some confidence and say that you are sick and tired of it and ready to kick their A**! Yes it is going to be difficult, but if you go into it with a positive mindset knowing that this is part of the process and the worst will only last 5 days or so it is very doable. I kicked heroin several times and for me sleeping was my only true relief. Now sleeping can be difficult, but I always tried to just sleep through the worst of it (in between trips to the bathroom if I could even make it there).

Best of luck to you. Be mentally strong. Tell yourself you are NOT going to use no matter what. Getting more or taking a little just to take the edge off is NOT an option. You took this time off work for a reason. You might want to prepare for some type of help after the worst of the physical stuff is over. Whether it be a meeting or one on one counseling with an addictions specialist or an outpatient program. For me the depression that came after quitting was very real and it takes some time to get back into the swing of things. Remember this is normal, but see a doctor if you have any concerns. Hang in there buddy! Keep us posted on your progress.

patbrat

First of congrats to you! I always feel hopeful for anyone wanting to get off any addiction. I was taking 3-4 low dose morphine a day along with 1-3 hydro's 10's I quit cold turkey and was pretty sick for 4 days after that I slowly started to feel better. I had no other drugs to get me through it. I did however drink a lot of water and gatoraid staying hydrated that's all I really had on my stomach for about 3 days. I had nausea but no vomiting. I did have problems on the. other end for about a month. After 39 day's its starting to get back to normal for me. I started taking a probiotic with vitamins in it. and extra b12 for energy. Although it was hard I made myself get up and walk during those first few day's, it made me feel better to move. I had restless legs something terrible, and couldn't keep my hands from shaking. Fresh air and moving around really does help. But most of all I REALLY wanted this, I got tired of not feeling anything and wanted my life back! And I really got tired of being so high that I would drop my ciggaretts and burn holes in everything.....I could of really done a lot more damage than I did. I am so happy for you, and I know you can do this!! And it does get better no matter how hard it seems at first

Dee74

welcome to SR patiam

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Patiam

Thanks for the words of encouragement guys. It's been about 18 hours since I took my last one. Feel a little anxious...but for the most part still ok. Im actually gonna be checking into a hotel room tonight. I dont really want to be around a bunch of people when I'm dashing to the bathroom every so often...lol. Bringing my computer with me. Stocked it full of movies and tv shows. I figure by the time I watch a few seasons of a show...the worst of the physical stuff should be done and over with. Have a few friends and my dad that are gonna be coming by couple times a day just to make sure I'm still 'alive.'

I'll probably post something else tomorrow. Or if I end up feeling more crappy before then. =P

Marcus

Sounds like a good plan Pat. I did the hotel room thing many times because for me when I was withdrawing I just wanted to be left alone. Plus I did not want my family to have to see me like that. Now remember I was coming off large doses of Heroin IV so I would not expect yours to be nearly as bad. No matter what happens just remind yourself that "this too shall pass". Time might feel like it is moving slow and you are never going to get through it, but that is just the addict talking. Before you know it you will be on the other side very proud for what you have accomplished! You CAN and WILL get through this!!!

Patiam

About hit the 32 hour mark. And whats weird is that I dont feel any different then 18 hours. Still feel a little anxious. Minor RLS. But its all completely bearable, and I even got a full 8 hours sleep last night. Not even interrupted sleep. Havent gotten the hotel yet. Dont want to waste money on something I might not need.

Is it normal to be feeling this good still? I'm definitely not complaining...but I was expecting to at least not be able to sleep. Although my bowls still havent adjusted. Still feel bloated. I am kinda contemplating going to the ER for it. It's been about 2 weeks since I've had a PROPER bm.

Patiam

48 hoursssss. I really want to smoke some weed though. idk how thats going to make me feel though so I've stayed away from it.

Patiam

SOOOOO. It's been 6 days. I feel like a million freaking dollars. Wednesday and thursday...oh man. Let me tell you....worst 2 days of my life. It felt like somebody was stabbing my stomache with a hundred hot irons. But SOMEHOW I managed to get through it without going insane. I still am not getting much sleep....but hell. I'll take it. I'm amazed I was able to get through this so quick. I thought for sure I was going to be crippled for a week straight. I suppose I'm lucky for stopping when I did. This could have easily gone on for more then a year....who knows where I would have been then.

Anyway, thank you everyone for the support. It was a BIG help. I had a lot of friends and family that helped me through this. Without them I'd have been screwed.

Heres to staying clean. =D