Havin a tough time **sigh** :(
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: canada
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you have come so far, all the work you have done and all of the courage you gave me, you must stay strong emmer my friend, never ever touch it again, you almost put me in tears emmer as your words mean so much to me....you can do it you are wiser and stronger then most, and best of all, your a fellow canadian.......keep in touch, im here to talk
Stopping the Train...
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Sevierville, TN - in the valley of the Great Smoky Mountains
Posts: 978
It's ok to feel that way - it's natural...but we don't have to act on that feeling!
Acceptance - You can't change the wind, but you can adjust the sails.
Acceptance - You can't change the wind, but you can adjust the sails.
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Join Date: Nov 2002
Location: Bristol TN/VA
Posts: 12,431
Think it through, Joe.
It really ain't fun and then comes all those self-esteem torpedoes.
I am bored and frustrated tonight.....went grocery shopping and returned to my regular hangout....here at SR
whatever I feel like I need it can't be bought..........
It really ain't fun and then comes all those self-esteem torpedoes.
I am bored and frustrated tonight.....went grocery shopping and returned to my regular hangout....here at SR
whatever I feel like I need it can't be bought..........
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Join Date: Jan 2006
Posts: 2,707
thx you guys.
My addict brain says "yes they have some good advise, but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but .."
My head will hit the pillow clean and I'll speak up @ tomorrow at the monday mens group
as well. I have to tell my addict head to F off!
My addict brain says "yes they have some good advise, but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but but .."
My head will hit the pillow clean and I'll speak up @ tomorrow at the monday mens group
as well. I have to tell my addict head to F off!
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: canada
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Best thing is to go straight to bed, you will feel better in the morning, we love you joe, and you aint lettin go no matter what that addict brain says, ill tell it where to go for ya, take care my friend and the guy who kept me away from methadone, thank you, thank you, thank you........
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Join Date: Jul 2008
Location: Los Angeles, California
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(((Joe)))
Do you remember your last bad time? The time so bad you finally cleaned up? Here's a very good suggestion CarolD has: Write it down and keep it in your wallet. Every time you a case of the "buts" pull it out and read it.
From my experience with alcohol, it's a progressive disease. Your body does NOT reset.
You're in my thoughts, as always, dear one.
Love,
Lenina
Do you remember your last bad time? The time so bad you finally cleaned up? Here's a very good suggestion CarolD has: Write it down and keep it in your wallet. Every time you a case of the "buts" pull it out and read it.
From my experience with alcohol, it's a progressive disease. Your body does NOT reset.
You're in my thoughts, as always, dear one.
Love,
Lenina
Dopeless Hope Fiend
Join Date: Sep 2005
Location: anchorage Alaska
Posts: 2,741
Well sorry to say ..there is nothing clean and powerful enough to get the job done anymore..that is how it is for me....garbage dump for dope I am!! Last time I took some pills...oh my god...daladid....I sent myself into a real bad space and just couldn't GET high enough..pathetic...I OD before I get high enough ...
The relief that you seek is right here...the answer is staying clean......
The way of COURAGE is to stay clean..too easy to pick up...
This is a battle man...we are fighting for our lives...are you going to drop your gun and leave your troops in the battle??? I don't think you would and recovery is the same...
I need you here Joe...do something for SOMEONE ELSE ...help saomeone...ANYONE..it works...but you gotta take some action...
love norty
The relief that you seek is right here...the answer is staying clean......
The way of COURAGE is to stay clean..too easy to pick up...
This is a battle man...we are fighting for our lives...are you going to drop your gun and leave your troops in the battle??? I don't think you would and recovery is the same...
I need you here Joe...do something for SOMEONE ELSE ...help saomeone...ANYONE..it works...but you gotta take some action...
love norty
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 31,179
(((Joe)))
Sorry I'm late on this, but I hope you're asleep, will wake up feeling a bit better and will go to your meeting and speak up.
Do you remember how you felt after your last episode? If not, maybe go re-read your thread and see how utterly miserable you were.
When your addict voice tries to tell you that you won't go that far again or you know better now....bullshyt. As my ex used to tell me, we are "professional addicts". We don't just dabble around with dope, we do a lot of it, hard and fast. Even if we start out slow, it will take no time at all until we get back up to speed.
I know that's how I was when I was using, and I have no doubt I would be that way again, if I were to pick up, and won't even take the risk.
Another thing that helps me is when I think of using, I picture some images from the last time I used (when I relapsed) that I'm not very proud, in my head. It helps me to think using = bad stuff.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
Sorry I'm late on this, but I hope you're asleep, will wake up feeling a bit better and will go to your meeting and speak up.
Do you remember how you felt after your last episode? If not, maybe go re-read your thread and see how utterly miserable you were.
When your addict voice tries to tell you that you won't go that far again or you know better now....bullshyt. As my ex used to tell me, we are "professional addicts". We don't just dabble around with dope, we do a lot of it, hard and fast. Even if we start out slow, it will take no time at all until we get back up to speed.
I know that's how I was when I was using, and I have no doubt I would be that way again, if I were to pick up, and won't even take the risk.
Another thing that helps me is when I think of using, I picture some images from the last time I used (when I relapsed) that I'm not very proud, in my head. It helps me to think using = bad stuff.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
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Join Date: Mar 2009
Location: ParadiseOnEarth
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Hey there Emmer! Don't do it!!
I started thinking about allergies to help me. If I were deathly allergic to peanuts or strawberries, I would have to avoid them at all costs. Period. Even if they were my favorite things on earth. Addicts are allergic to drugs. We can't have them. They make us die.
A friend recently said "I'm allergic to drugs. I break out in felonies and misdemeanors." It's funny...and then it's not.
Remember, the addict voice is just a voice; you are the one who makes the actions.
One is too many and a thousand is never enough.
You have a sponsor right? Call him!!
I started thinking about allergies to help me. If I were deathly allergic to peanuts or strawberries, I would have to avoid them at all costs. Period. Even if they were my favorite things on earth. Addicts are allergic to drugs. We can't have them. They make us die.
A friend recently said "I'm allergic to drugs. I break out in felonies and misdemeanors." It's funny...and then it's not.
Remember, the addict voice is just a voice; you are the one who makes the actions.
One is too many and a thousand is never enough.
You have a sponsor right? Call him!!
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: Midland, NC
Posts: 1,266
Joe
Honey, please stay strong. I know what you're going through....here lately, same here.
Play that tape all the way through to the end......and you'll find that using will lose it's appeal real quick!
You have been such an inspiration to me. I'm proud of you...be proud of yourself and don't throw it away!
...here's a hug and kiss
Penny
Honey, please stay strong. I know what you're going through....here lately, same here.
Play that tape all the way through to the end......and you'll find that using will lose it's appeal real quick!
You have been such an inspiration to me. I'm proud of you...be proud of yourself and don't throw it away!
...here's a hug and kissPenny
Now with fewer opiates!
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Southern New Jersey, USA
Posts: 1,405
Joe:
As you know I recently took my DOC following surgery. Please trust me, there is nothing good about it. Yes, I followed doctor's orders and had a strong plan, but the pills still took up way too much room in my head. And I lived through a day of w/d all over again. Remember that pain, Joe...please.
One is never enough, Joe, you know that.
As you know I recently took my DOC following surgery. Please trust me, there is nothing good about it. Yes, I followed doctor's orders and had a strong plan, but the pills still took up way too much room in my head. And I lived through a day of w/d all over again. Remember that pain, Joe...please.
One is never enough, Joe, you know that.
Clever Yak
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Joe 
Don't give in dude.
I had not heard that before Lenina, thank you for that.
Don't give in dude.
Originally Posted by Lenina
Here's a very good suggestion CarolD has: Write it down and keep it in your wallet. Every time you a case of the "buts" pull it out and read it.
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