You know you are an active alcoholic if......Pt 2.
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Join Date: Jan 2021
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You regularly tell yourself:
just the one, I'm not that bad, I can stop whenever I want, I deserve this, i need to drink to enhance X activity, I will have a drink because I'm bored, I need to drink in X persons company, every body else was as drunk as I was, when can I next drink? have I got enough to drink? how many hours until I need to drive? why can't we finish this activity so I can get home and drink? I am in no state to work today so I will phone in, vodka doesn't smell, just a couple to help me sleep, just a couple to wake me up, just couple to take 'the edge off', if I don't drink I will shake, if I don't drink the anxiety will kill me and so just for medicinal reasons, life is better when I drink, i am more fun to be around when i drink, everybody drinks at a wedding, football match, christening, going shopping, before a funeral, at work, sunday morning, etc etc etc
just the one, I'm not that bad, I can stop whenever I want, I deserve this, i need to drink to enhance X activity, I will have a drink because I'm bored, I need to drink in X persons company, every body else was as drunk as I was, when can I next drink? have I got enough to drink? how many hours until I need to drive? why can't we finish this activity so I can get home and drink? I am in no state to work today so I will phone in, vodka doesn't smell, just a couple to help me sleep, just a couple to wake me up, just couple to take 'the edge off', if I don't drink I will shake, if I don't drink the anxiety will kill me and so just for medicinal reasons, life is better when I drink, i am more fun to be around when i drink, everybody drinks at a wedding, football match, christening, going shopping, before a funeral, at work, sunday morning, etc etc etc
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Join Date: Feb 2021
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Never went to the doctor for it at the time it happened cause I didn't have a health card. Vomiting blood happened once in a while for me but it wasn't. constant. Still, it was scary and is one among a list of reasons why I chose to stop in the end.
You have a terrible hangover on a Sunday morning and know that a couple of beers will fix things. But you can't buy alcohol in your state until noon. So you google what time alcohol sales start in a couple of neighboring states thinking that it might be worth the drive.
You post here touting all the tools available to stop, feel good about day 4, and your soul emerges 5 weeks later crying to live, needing the insanity to stop.
ending day 2
ending day 2
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Probably a minor one but: When you start typing out a message on facebook or a text to a relative that annoys you, smartmouthing them. And right before you hit post/send the sane part of your brain goes "hey bro, maybe we should wait til we are sober to start this fight? Relative is annoying and all, but you are going to look like the bigger jerk" Next day you wake up and are franticly checking to make sure you didn't hit send and are happy you didn't.
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Same. I dreaded opening up my phone in the morning. I really ran my mouth off at times.
I had a dream the other week where I sent a bunch of embarrassing messages, but I was sober. Dream me knew I didn't drink, so I was baffled how I got blackout and sent them. Waking up and realising it was all a dream was SUCH a relief.
Thank gawd that is all behind us!
I had a dream the other week where I sent a bunch of embarrassing messages, but I was sober. Dream me knew I didn't drink, so I was baffled how I got blackout and sent them. Waking up and realising it was all a dream was SUCH a relief.
Thank gawd that is all behind us!
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Probably a minor one but: When you start typing out a message on facebook or a text to a relative that annoys you, smartmouthing them. And right before you hit post/send the sane part of your brain goes "hey bro, maybe we should wait til we are sober to start this fight? Relative is annoying and all, but you are going to look like the bigger jerk" Next day you wake up and are franticly checking to make sure you didn't hit send and are happy you didn't.
The sexual stuff too - we don't need to go there - but wow, talk about regret that will never leave me. Ugh. I've burned so many bridges that sobriety really does feel like starting a whole new life from scratch. Hard to do in your 40s.
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