I'm so disappointed in myself
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Thank you so much for your support. It's amazing how much it helps.
I went to AA meetings for the first 120 days-ish.
Amidst all the unwanted, unhelpful finger-wagging advice I got, the words, "You're doing great," were the kindest and most helpful - so I get it.
This is hard stuff. We're with you.
Amidst all the unwanted, unhelpful finger-wagging advice I got, the words, "You're doing great," were the kindest and most helpful - so I get it.
This is hard stuff. We're with you.
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I really do appreciate it. I'm so grateful. I'm actually leaving the house to go to dinner with my mom, sister, and niece and nephew. I'm obviously scared and nervous it'll be hard, since I'm only on day two, but I'm trying to really push myself so I can get ahead faster. I just want existing in the world outside of my apartment sober to become somewhat normal again.
Pulling for you Sohard and relieved that you didn't stay out there too long.
My last relapse started out like I imagine many do but ended up lasting 8 long years, with the last couple years living in a constant state of despair I saw no way out of. Thank goodness I had a brief second of sanity one day and took action to get help before it disappeared. There's no guarantee anyone will make it back from their next relapse.
My last relapse started out like I imagine many do but ended up lasting 8 long years, with the last couple years living in a constant state of despair I saw no way out of. Thank goodness I had a brief second of sanity one day and took action to get help before it disappeared. There's no guarantee anyone will make it back from their next relapse.
Pulling for you Sohard and relieved that you didn't stay out there too long.
My last relapse started out like I imagine many do but ended up lasting 8 long years, with the last couple years living in a constant state of despair I saw no way out of. Thank goodness I had a brief second of sanity one day and took action to get help before it disappeared. There's no guarantee anyone will make it back from their next relapse.
My last relapse started out like I imagine many do but ended up lasting 8 long years, with the last couple years living in a constant state of despair I saw no way out of. Thank goodness I had a brief second of sanity one day and took action to get help before it disappeared. There's no guarantee anyone will make it back from their next relapse.
Never can we ever entertain-one single drink-Because one might as well be a million.
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I'm trying to remind myself of three things:
1. Continuing drinking is much harder than getting sober. So don't drink. This right now is relatively easy compared to the vicious drinking, hangover, craving, worrying cycle.
2. Soon, I'll accidentally kill myself or, worse, someone else if I continue to drink. Things were getting awfully out of control before I initially quit, and I slipped back in frighteningly easily.
3. Just don't drink right now. Worry about later...later. Just don't drink right now. Then the days will add up and get easier.
I remind myself of these 3 things over and over.
1. Continuing drinking is much harder than getting sober. So don't drink. This right now is relatively easy compared to the vicious drinking, hangover, craving, worrying cycle.
2. Soon, I'll accidentally kill myself or, worse, someone else if I continue to drink. Things were getting awfully out of control before I initially quit, and I slipped back in frighteningly easily.
3. Just don't drink right now. Worry about later...later. Just don't drink right now. Then the days will add up and get easier.
I remind myself of these 3 things over and over.
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I can relate to that one. I remember saying to myself, "I'll only stay out a week. Then it's right back to recovery." Four years later I'm fighting for my life in the ICU in the hospital.
Never can we ever entertain-one single drink-Because one might as well be a million.
Never can we ever entertain-one single drink-Because one might as well be a million.
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Pulling for you Sohard and relieved that you didn't stay out there too long.
My last relapse started out like I imagine many do but ended up lasting 8 long years, with the last couple years living in a constant state of despair I saw no way out of. Thank goodness I had a brief second of sanity one day and took action to get help before it disappeared. There's no guarantee anyone will make it back from their next relapse.
My last relapse started out like I imagine many do but ended up lasting 8 long years, with the last couple years living in a constant state of despair I saw no way out of. Thank goodness I had a brief second of sanity one day and took action to get help before it disappeared. There's no guarantee anyone will make it back from their next relapse.
Great job on getting through dinner and on to Day 3!
I wonder (for you and for me) what it would be like to imagine ourselves today as being at Day 103? Time is relative, I think... any day that's not 0 could be a day of any number, maybe.
Just a thought.
I wonder (for you and for me) what it would be like to imagine ourselves today as being at Day 103? Time is relative, I think... any day that's not 0 could be a day of any number, maybe.
Just a thought.
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This is so interesting! You're right. Why not just imagine myself at 103??!
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