benzenering

New realization.

Blamed the former boss, quit. Still drinking.

Blame my X. Still drinking.

Blame my husband. Still drinking.

At a loss.

I am the problem.

biminiblue

Yup.

I am also in possession of the solution.

tomsteve

thats what i found out ,too.
the great thing,though, is there IS a solution.

benzenering

Can I hit bottom without losing everything? I just can't stop it. My son is hanging in there, but I think I've lost everything else, except my job (so far). So much pain. Sorry y'all, not dealing well today.l

Stayingsassy

Sounds to me like you are no longer at a loss. As long as life is the problem, you don't have the solution. Now, you have the solution.

Correction for you: YOU are not the problem. YOU are a beautiful soul.

Drinking is the problem.

Carlotta

Your bottom will be as deep as you chose to dig it. For some like my XABF it is 6 feet under

If you read throughout SR, you will see that many people (myself included) quit before losing much or anything at all. The BB of AA has a section dedicated to this called: "They quit in time" if I remember well.

You have to make a firm decision and commitment to abstinence. There are many things you can do, many programs and methods and of course, SR is an awesome place for support.
I would suggest that you check out this great sticky by Anna to give you an idea on how to get started.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...at-we-did.html (Recovery Programs & What to Expect (What We Did))

You can do it and we will support you but you got to quit digging and you have to do the work

ScottFromWI

Absolutely. Getting sober is a choice, and you can make it any time you want. Acknowledging the problem is a very important first step, sounds like you may be there already?

The only true “rock bottom” is death of course. You can get off the train any time you like....all it takes is a committment to do whatever it takes to quit

Mac4711

You can hit bottom TODAY if you choose to. Two initial steps are required:
a) stop drinking now (only you can do this)
b) make a plan to stay sober (we can help you with that!)

Go ahead, do it! Action trumps everything!

anxiousrock

You can take control now and not lose anything.
You don’t have to lose your family, job, friends, house, vehicle before calling it quits.
There’s a lot to lose with drinking.

waynetheking

It's called alcoholism. That's the problem. It's a disease.
The cure, quit drinking.
We're here for ya. Take it one day at a time.

Dee74

I believe bottom is that moment when we decide that we can't live this way another minute. You can decide that anytime you like

D

Delilah1

Glad you are here tonight. I agree with Dee and the other posters about bottom. I didn't have a life altering moment, or any huge losss. I had just finally had enough.

You can do this!

benzenering

Definitely hating myself. Which just makes things worse.

Dee74

Hate the addiction, not the addicted.
It's really wasted energy to beat yourself up - use that energy to get out of the hole.

D

shortstop81

You don't have to lose everything. Hitting your own 'rock bottom' means you've hit the point where you can't go on living the same way anymore - and it sounds like you've reached that.

Addiction doesn't mean you're an awful person, although I am all too familiar with that feeling of deep self-loathing and guilt. The good news is that you don't have to live that way anymore, and that you never hve to feel this way again about yourself.

Lots of love.

biminiblue

I fixed my self-esteem by doing right/esteemable things.

It gets better when alcohol is removed. It was possible for me to see the good and the correct actions to take, once the spirits were removed.

Today, just for today, don't drink.

Keep reading. We've all been in your spot. There is a way out.

tomsteve

i felt i was a hopeless,helpless,useless,worthless POS.
then i stopped drinking and started working on me- learning why i was who i was.
by working on me and changing me, those feelings disappeared.

benzenering

I wish I could just stop but I am positive I will have to go to inpatient detox. Been doing all this to myself and those around me for a long time.

biminiblue

Why don't you make an appointment at a walk-in clinic today? Just a regular Urgent Care office in the US.

You may be able to do a home detox with just some inexpensive meds. I detoxed at home (without meds) and I was an every day all day drinker. This isn't going to get better unless you take some action.

It's worth a phone call.

Here is some info here on Sober Recovery about detox, so you can maybe quell some of your fear:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/addict...eatment/detox/

dnash1

You have the desire, now find the determination. If you feel that detoxing on your own would be dangerous then please do seek some medical advice/assistance. I white knuckled my own detox after over a decade of heavy daily drinking and, while I made it through, in hindsight I probably should have been supervised.

Keep coming back to these forums, it's an amazing resource and source of support and fellowship. I wish you strength and peace in your journey, you got this!