My Last Shot at Sobriety - How I Feel Now
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My Last Shot at Sobriety - How I Feel Now
I'll try to make a very long story short...
Today marks 29 days sober for me. If I take 1 more drink my wife leaves me, and I can't let that happen because my love for her is far greater than my love for alcohol.
This time around I didn't experience the "pink cloud". Maybe that's a good thing? I don't have that false sense of happiness and joy that normally would only last a month or so. Maybe a little depression, but I'll push through it.
Sweating horribly if/when I go to sleep, but that too shall pass.
I suffered a subdural hematoma as a result of drinking so heavily in October and left me with a bit of damage to my brain. Although rare from alcoholism, it does exist. Was in ICU for 2 weeks given a 50/50 chance of survival.
That's all I have for now, I hope to be an active participant in this forum.
Cheers
Today marks 29 days sober for me. If I take 1 more drink my wife leaves me, and I can't let that happen because my love for her is far greater than my love for alcohol.
This time around I didn't experience the "pink cloud". Maybe that's a good thing? I don't have that false sense of happiness and joy that normally would only last a month or so. Maybe a little depression, but I'll push through it.
Sweating horribly if/when I go to sleep, but that too shall pass.
I suffered a subdural hematoma as a result of drinking so heavily in October and left me with a bit of damage to my brain. Although rare from alcoholism, it does exist. Was in ICU for 2 weeks given a 50/50 chance of survival.
That's all I have for now, I hope to be an active participant in this forum.
Cheers
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Welcome to SR SoberInSoCal, glad to hear you are making a choice to reclaim your life. And i'm glad you were able to make it through a very scary situation. You'll find a lot of support and understanding here, so I hope you can indeed stick around and join us for some sharing and learning.
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Welcome SoberInSoCal. I just wondered if you are doing anything to treat your alcoholism. I Ask for two reasons.
Firstly, your wife is very important to you and she may find you tough to live with if you a suffering from untreated alcoholism.
The second thing would be to consider what would happen in the event that she left anyway. Would your sobriety be dependent on what she does, or are you planning to stay sober regardless.
The good news is you can treat your alcoholism, which will make you a nice person to be around on the one hand, and also someone who can stay sober no matter what happens. Someone who can look in the mirror and like who they see.
Firstly, your wife is very important to you and she may find you tough to live with if you a suffering from untreated alcoholism.
The second thing would be to consider what would happen in the event that she left anyway. Would your sobriety be dependent on what she does, or are you planning to stay sober regardless.
The good news is you can treat your alcoholism, which will make you a nice person to be around on the one hand, and also someone who can stay sober no matter what happens. Someone who can look in the mirror and like who they see.
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Welcome and YAY, you're almost at a month!
I may have had a flirtation with Wernicke-Korsakoff syndrome on my final binge last May and perhaps on several self-detoxes prior to that which has left me with some residual neurological effects. They seem to be fading a bit. Hopefully yours will as well. Lots of physical and mental exercise helps!
I may have had a flirtation with Wernicke-Korsakoff syndrome on my final binge last May and perhaps on several self-detoxes prior to that which has left me with some residual neurological effects. They seem to be fading a bit. Hopefully yours will as well. Lots of physical and mental exercise helps!
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Originally Posted by Gottalife 
Welcome SoberInSoCal. I just wondered if you are doing anything to treat your alcoholism. I Ask for two reasons.
Firstly, your wife is very important to you and she may find you tough to live with if you a suffering from untreated alcoholism.
The second thing would be to consider what would happen in the event that she left anyway. Would your sobriety be dependent on what she does, or are you planning to stay sober regardless.
The good news is you can treat your alcoholism, which will make you a nice person to be around on the one hand, and also someone who can stay sober no matter what happens. Someone who can look in the mirror and like who they see.
Firstly, your wife is very important to you and she may find you tough to live with if you a suffering from untreated alcoholism.
The second thing would be to consider what would happen in the event that she left anyway. Would your sobriety be dependent on what she does, or are you planning to stay sober regardless.
The good news is you can treat your alcoholism, which will make you a nice person to be around on the one hand, and also someone who can stay sober no matter what happens. Someone who can look in the mirror and like who they see.
The question regarding my wife leaving regardless... I would probably pick it up again since I quit for "us" and not "me".
All I know is I'm sober again today. I take breath tests throughout the day and send to my wife a photo of the device with the current time and date pulled up on the computer to keep me in check, and her mind at ease.
Too much to think about right now...
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