Constantly Failing
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Constantly Failing
So I would say on average I'm drinking every second day, easily two bottles of wine.
I'm waking up always from a blackout but remember talking to to my friends online and feeling so embarrassed because they could tell something was wrong with me.
I could never admit I was drunk, not sure if they have an idea.. No one has actually said "were you drinking?" to me (yet. )
I'm unemployed so I think the lack of responsibility to wake up early contributes.
I feel like my life is turning into hell. A bottomless pit of constantly waking up from a blackout and full of regrets.
I've never been offensive to anyone but I feel like drinking is putting a bad image to my character and self image. I feel like the unstable girl whom; to others, I'm probably the girl who becomes suddenly really odd sometimes.
This has been going on for years, on and off and i just feel it's getting worse. I'm extremely secretive about my drinking. Before running to doctors and letting the world know, I'm seeking help a little more anonymous first by signing up here.
I've tried restricting my intake but that never seems to work. Once i start i can not stop! I think it's all or nothing with me.
I'd really like to find someone on here who can start their sober journey with me from today. I think if I have someone else on board with me I'd be less likely to quit.
And tips and advice? People's stories are very welcome. I'd love to hear how you guys started.
Thanks for reading.
I'm waking up always from a blackout but remember talking to to my friends online and feeling so embarrassed because they could tell something was wrong with me.
I could never admit I was drunk, not sure if they have an idea.. No one has actually said "were you drinking?" to me (yet. )
I'm unemployed so I think the lack of responsibility to wake up early contributes.
I feel like my life is turning into hell. A bottomless pit of constantly waking up from a blackout and full of regrets.
I've never been offensive to anyone but I feel like drinking is putting a bad image to my character and self image. I feel like the unstable girl whom; to others, I'm probably the girl who becomes suddenly really odd sometimes.
This has been going on for years, on and off and i just feel it's getting worse. I'm extremely secretive about my drinking. Before running to doctors and letting the world know, I'm seeking help a little more anonymous first by signing up here.
I've tried restricting my intake but that never seems to work. Once i start i can not stop! I think it's all or nothing with me.
I'd really like to find someone on here who can start their sober journey with me from today. I think if I have someone else on board with me I'd be less likely to quit.
And tips and advice? People's stories are very welcome. I'd love to hear how you guys started.
Thanks for reading.
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Welcome aboard.
A little friendly advice:
1. Change your username to something a little more bright and sunny and future oriented. You want to leave the drunken mess you behind.
2. Join the October class, if you haven't already. You'll find people at the same stage of recovery and if you're lucky, you'll bond and make solid connections with them.
A little friendly advice:
1. Change your username to something a little more bright and sunny and future oriented. You want to leave the drunken mess you behind.
2. Join the October class, if you haven't already. You'll find people at the same stage of recovery and if you're lucky, you'll bond and make solid connections with them.
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Originally Posted by Outonthetiles 
Welcome aboard.
A little friendly advice:
1. Change your username to something a little more bright and sunny and future oriented. You want to leave the drunken mess you behind.
2. Join the October class, if you haven't already. You'll find people at the same stage of recovery and if you're lucky, you'll bond and make solid connections with them.
A little friendly advice:
1. Change your username to something a little more bright and sunny and future oriented. You want to leave the drunken mess you behind.
2. Join the October class, if you haven't already. You'll find people at the same stage of recovery and if you're lucky, you'll bond and make solid connections with them.
Can you tell me were i can join this October class?
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Welcome to SR. As others have mentioned, joining a class would be a great start and offer some companionship starting out. There is a success stories forum as well, but you'll hear lots of them here and in Newcomers as well. Glad you decided to reach out for help.
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You can quit drinking, you just haven't done it yet. Join the Class of October and post every day. Also post once a day in the 24 hour thread in Daily Support to affirm your commitment to getting sober for good. 
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...art-299-a.html (24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 299)
And yes, change your username to something more positive. Something encouraging and cheerful. 
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...art-299-a.html (24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 299)
And yes, change your username to something more positive.
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I agree with the others my friend. Your name does not have to be rainbows and sunshine if that is not how you feel, but it should be symbolic of a positive message in some shape or form. I'm sure you can find something that makes your heart smile in there.
All negatives aside DM; you are here, reaching out, creating a change in your path
Be kind to yourself!!
I am also new and unsure of the exact way the site conducts, however, so far I'm so pleased to see that it is filled with helpful, kind, generous people who can offer understanding and advice.
-B
All negatives aside DM; you are here, reaching out, creating a change in your path
Be kind to yourself!!
I am also new and unsure of the exact way the site conducts, however, so far I'm so pleased to see that it is filled with helpful, kind, generous people who can offer understanding and advice.
-B
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Hello DM,
I know how you feel about coming here. I spent a week or so just reading the posts and trying to pluck up the courage to get involved. I can remember taking my son to his rugby training and sitting far away from the other parents whilst I created an account. It felt like quite a commitment. I was (and still am, to a certain extent) quite nervous about posting. Getting a response is a pleasant feeling that I really enjoy.
I'm not entirely sure how everything works, or even what the best thing to do is - but I know that it helps. I'm approaching the end of day 46 now, which I would have considered impossible at the outset. It's surprising how self-nurturing not drinking is. After a few days, the fog clears and you get into a nice virtuous cycle. The more you do it, the more you want to do it. That has been my experience, anyway.
Let us know if you change your name so that we can continue to look out for you.
I know how you feel about coming here. I spent a week or so just reading the posts and trying to pluck up the courage to get involved. I can remember taking my son to his rugby training and sitting far away from the other parents whilst I created an account. It felt like quite a commitment. I was (and still am, to a certain extent) quite nervous about posting. Getting a response is a pleasant feeling that I really enjoy.
I'm not entirely sure how everything works, or even what the best thing to do is - but I know that it helps. I'm approaching the end of day 46 now, which I would have considered impossible at the outset. It's surprising how self-nurturing not drinking is. After a few days, the fog clears and you get into a nice virtuous cycle. The more you do it, the more you want to do it. That has been my experience, anyway.
Let us know if you change your name so that we can continue to look out for you.
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Originally Posted by DrunkenMess
So I would say on average I'm drinking every second day, easily two bottles of wine.
I'm waking up always from a blackout but remember talking to to my friends online and feeling so embarrassed because they could tell something was wrong with me.
I could never admit I was drunk, not sure if they have an idea.. No one has actually said "were you drinking?" to me (yet. )
I'm unemployed so I think the lack of responsibility to wake up early contributes.
I feel like my life is turning into hell. A bottomless pit of constantly waking up from a blackout and full of regrets.
I've never been offensive to anyone but I feel like drinking is putting a bad image to my character and self image. I feel like the unstable girl whom; to others, I'm probably the girl who becomes suddenly really odd sometimes.
This has been going on for years, on and off and i just feel it's getting worse. I'm extremely secretive about my drinking. Before running to doctors and letting the world know, I'm seeking help a little more anonymous first by signing up here.
I've tried restricting my intake but that never seems to work. Once i start i can not stop! I think it's all or nothing with me.
I'd really like to find someone on here who can start their sober journey with me from today. I think if I have someone else on board with me I'd be less likely to quit.
And tips and advice? People's stories are very welcome. I'd love to hear how you guys started.
Thanks for reading.
I'm waking up always from a blackout but remember talking to to my friends online and feeling so embarrassed because they could tell something was wrong with me.
I could never admit I was drunk, not sure if they have an idea.. No one has actually said "were you drinking?" to me (yet. )
I'm unemployed so I think the lack of responsibility to wake up early contributes.
I feel like my life is turning into hell. A bottomless pit of constantly waking up from a blackout and full of regrets.
I've never been offensive to anyone but I feel like drinking is putting a bad image to my character and self image. I feel like the unstable girl whom; to others, I'm probably the girl who becomes suddenly really odd sometimes.
This has been going on for years, on and off and i just feel it's getting worse. I'm extremely secretive about my drinking. Before running to doctors and letting the world know, I'm seeking help a little more anonymous first by signing up here.
I've tried restricting my intake but that never seems to work. Once i start i can not stop! I think it's all or nothing with me.
I'd really like to find someone on here who can start their sober journey with me from today. I think if I have someone else on board with me I'd be less likely to quit.
And tips and advice? People's stories are very welcome. I'd love to hear how you guys started.
Thanks for reading.
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Glad your here. Take it one day at a time. Develop a plan and work it. None of us will ever sugarcoat this disease. It takes faith and work to quit drinking. Support groups are great. Your dedication to total abstinence is needed as well.
We're here for ya!
We're here for ya!
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Hello everyone. Thanks all so much for the reply, it means so much to me ^^
I failed... a drank last night
This time I really want to quit. I'm getting worried because I have a slight pain under my rib cage and I think it may be my liver.
I'll join the October class. Really I can't go on drinking like this )-:
I failed... a drank last night
This time I really want to quit. I'm getting worried because I have a slight pain under my rib cage and I think it may be my liver.
I'll join the October class. Really I can't go on drinking like this )-:
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Welcome back DM - joining the October class sounds like a good idea to me. You might want to seriously consider some local support too - meetings, counseling, maybe even an outpatient rehab program? There's lots of options out there.
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