A really dark place....
A really dark place....
Not sure what's up. I went on a bender this past weekend after doing so well. Its almost like I subconsciously go to the liquor store and walk out with a bottle. Next thing I know Monday morning rolls aroud and I managed to hammer most of a handle. Its weird like that... Anyways, I feel so unfulfilled right now, like I am in a dark place. I wish spring would come so I can get outside.
Not sure how to explain it.
Not sure how to explain it.
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It's the alcohol. It causes anxiety and depression. Hope you can find a way to stop.
I understand the pull of drinking at times. At 27 days I still have it. I bought a bottle last night but poured it out today. Some people see that as a defeat (go figure), but I didn't drink, so it's a win.
I understand the pull of drinking at times. At 27 days I still have it. I bought a bottle last night but poured it out today. Some people see that as a defeat (go figure), but I didn't drink, so it's a win.
The fact is you did drink. Addiction is crap. What can you do differently next time you pass a place that sells booze? How can you alter your sobriety plan (do you have one?). Go to an AA/SMART meeting. Talk to a therapist. Wishing for spring will not make you feel better- NOW. I empathise. Support to you, keep posting.
A detox? Like a diet detox? Your body is equipped to detox on its own - that's why we have kidneys and a liver.
Low blood sugar is a problem for a lot if not most alcoholics.
Save the detox woo snake oil for Doctor Oz and eat on a regular basis - now is not the time to cut back on food.
Low blood sugar is a problem for a lot if not most alcoholics.
Save the detox woo snake oil for Doctor Oz and eat on a regular basis - now is not the time to cut back on food.
You come here a lot and theorize about things...but have you actually put any of them into action? Like setting aside time in your day, every day, to work specifically on your recovery?
You have to figure out why.
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But you don't subconsciously do it, Steve. You make the decision you get in your car, or maybe you're already in your car, you have to decide to go in the direction of the liquor store, get out of your car, walk in to the store, get what you need, go to the check out, make the transaction, go back to your car, drive home, open the bottle and pour a glass and drink it. Every single step a conscious act you choose to follow through with.
Steve, I'm sorry for your misery. I did the same thing many times & it was exhausting. It was such a relief to be done with it for good. I kept insisting it was going to make me feel better, happier, lighter - but it did just the opposite. It brings us nothing but anxiety & dread. You don't need it. Please keep trying - you can get free.
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It has been 113 days since I had a drink. I will admit the longer I am sober the more I think about drinking.
It even crossed my mind today that maybe I should try another substance to get high.
I guess I just want relief from the stresses and anxieties of life. After 27 years of drowning out my feelings with booze, it is sometimes hard to cope.
But I am staying strong - I plan to stay sober long term.
It even crossed my mind today that maybe I should try another substance to get high.
I guess I just want relief from the stresses and anxieties of life. After 27 years of drowning out my feelings with booze, it is sometimes hard to cope.
But I am staying strong - I plan to stay sober long term.
If someone could be the world champion of bull$hit, it would be me. I've been mindfu^king myself into relapse after relapse for 20 years..My last bender was supposed to last a weekend. it went FOUR years...It almost killed me. I was in the hospital with organ damage and gave myself diabetes.
I KNOW this is my last stop. Let me share this...
Getting drunk no matter the situation is always premeditated. Nobody gets struck drunk. You made a decision to give up and you did just that. Own it.
I did this philosophical dance until it almost killed me. I too was a deep thinker and found out that you can be too smart for your own good.
Keep s#it simple. Don't think. Pray. Go to a meeting or share here. Talk to a therapist or a sponsor regularly.
This is your life, man. Stop dic^ing around with the consequences. There will come a day where you can't come back. Every day matters.
I hope you feel better soon.
I KNOW this is my last stop. Let me share this...
Getting drunk no matter the situation is always premeditated. Nobody gets struck drunk. You made a decision to give up and you did just that. Own it.
I did this philosophical dance until it almost killed me. I too was a deep thinker and found out that you can be too smart for your own good.
Keep s#it simple. Don't think. Pray. Go to a meeting or share here. Talk to a therapist or a sponsor regularly.
This is your life, man. Stop dic^ing around with the consequences. There will come a day where you can't come back. Every day matters.
I hope you feel better soon.
Not sure if you've read any of the Big Book Steve but chapter 3 discusses what you experienced over the weekend.
http://www.aa.org/assets/en_US/en_bigbook_chapt3.pdf
Linked with the permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.
http://www.aa.org/assets/en_US/en_bigbook_chapt3.pdf
Linked with the permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.
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It has been 113 days since I had a drink. I will admit the longer I am sober the more I think about drinking.
It even crossed my mind today that maybe I should try another substance to get high.
I guess I just want relief from the stresses and anxieties of life. After 27 years of drowning out my feelings with booze, it is sometimes hard to cope.
But I am staying strong - I plan to stay sober long term.
It even crossed my mind today that maybe I should try another substance to get high.
I guess I just want relief from the stresses and anxieties of life. After 27 years of drowning out my feelings with booze, it is sometimes hard to cope.
But I am staying strong - I plan to stay sober long term.
Steve hang in there it happens. What happened with your fitness ideas and all that sorta thing prevents me from drinking. But I feel you on winter this time of year can be depressing spring is around the corner and trout season etc.. hiking etc..
You have not been posting as much lately and you seemed kinda down to me on your latest posts. I think someone even mentioned it on another thread, if I remember correctly.
We are all pulling for you. I appreciate your posts, maybe stick closer to the board for a bit. Good luck
We are all pulling for you. I appreciate your posts, maybe stick closer to the board for a bit. Good luck
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There are actually writings saying fasting is a good way to recover from being an alcoholic.
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