BullDog777

I'm midway through hell, but i'm here to fight. I'm shaking and on the verge of seizures, but this is gonna have to end me before i go back again. I'm relying on God and his mercy. minute by minute...inch by inch.....don't pray for me, i don't want any sympathy. just be here when i feel like giving up. I hate myself so much right now. I'm on my way back to the living, but it's gonna take a couple of weeks. bare with me.

sugarbear1

Don't hesitate to get medical help, if needed

Sending you love and hugs

Dee74

I agree J - get some help. This is not the fight to be all Rambo about. This battle is best won as a team

D

Raider

Sympathy has nothing to do with why I would pray or not for someone. I understand how you feel. I wish you weren't going through it. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep going!

BullDog777

my liver is probably wrecked...i don't need the news. I'd rather see if i can do this without a stroke. thanks for the kind words. All of you.

Hevyn

We are with you BullDog. Please be careful as you detox & protect your precious life. I'm so glad you've made the decision to get free.

digdug

You have nothing to prove by trying do this on your own.

I tried it my way and ended up on the floor of my apartment puking up blood. My family had to carry me to ER and I ended up a coma. If I had just subdued my pride and went to the hospital earlier, I could have avoided almost dying and putting my family through hell and back.

Please go to the ER. You say you are relying on God and his mercy. Well God has mercifully provided you with the option of getting medical attention. Don't toss back the life raft.

BullDog777

i should clarify......i've been addicted to almost every benzo withdrawal drug. i won't go back there. that's all they seem to prescribe......what else can i do?

Dee74

I don't want to scare you - does no good anyway, I know....but I used to say stuff like this.

I didn't make it without a stroke....I had a whole series of little ones. I'll never be the same again.

I'm lucky to be here.

See a Dr - things may not be as bad as you fear....if things are as bad, you're better off knowing now, sooner than later.

I know you have people who love and care for you.

Being scared to do the right thing is not really a good enough excuse....

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Dee74

I'm not a Dr BD. I have no idea what they may or may not prescribe.

My concern is not what they'll prescribe you - you can be honest about your history with them and they'll take that into account....

my concern is for your well being and safety.

D

BullDog777

thanks D...but i gotta do what i gotta do. you've done your job. If it's God's will, i'll do mine.

Dee74

Yep, short of manhandling you into an ambulance myself, all I can do is share my story.

I'll toss in a prayer for you BD

check in and keep us updated.
D

Enough100

We're here, all of us.

BullDog777

SEE! you get me.... lol love you dude. keep me in your thoughts.i'll be back soon. I have a war i gotta get to.

Raider

BullDog77, you out there? Are you ok?

BullDog777

still here. not much to say right now. just tryin to get through the hard stuff. i'll check in everyday if nothing else than to say i'm still around.

BullDog777

it's hard to know what to say anymore. i'm ok...just very embarrassed. i'm tapering off at a good pace. hopefully completely dry by monday.. also not drinking at all during the day.

HeadLump

Thanks for updating us, Bulldog777 We care and we're all rooting for you

Sudz No More

Glad to hear you tapered a bit instead of just rolling the dice with withdrawal.

oak

I'm thinking of you and wishing you well. I can relate to the embarrassment. But glad you are here posting!