sobergirl77

I need serious help... I am a severe alcoholic (drinking more than 750ml of vodka per day, probably more).

Please, someone, can you PM me or join in a chat room? I need help.

sobergirl77

I've called and texted AA friends, everyone is asleep or whatever. I respect that. It's just a bad time for me. I want to die. I don't want ambulances here for the 7th time this year. What on earth should I do at this time? If someone can post a hotline number in this thread, I will call it. I am just not capable of calling one or finding one right now.

applecake

Hi sobergirl! I'm sorry you are having such a rough night.

You can find a list of crisis resources for Oklahoma at this link: https://www.ok.gov/odmhsas/Mental_He..._Families.html

quietdude

People are in the room right now. Recovery Connections.

sobergirl77

Thanks. My browser will not suport the chat but I will call 211 or the other phone numbers at that link. I want so much to connect to chat but this browser will not no matter what I install or do(I tried).

awuh1

You can use this like chat for now if you want

awuh1

You may to install Java to use chat (I just had to)

Dee74

here's some of the common chat problems and the solutions SG

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...eshooting.html

Failing that, like awuh says, feel free to post here

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sobergirl77

I tried 211, no answer, it rang endlessly. The other numbers, nobody could help. The AA central line is answered by a sometimes somewhat newly sober person and they can never give accurate or help info. I only say this from endless experience. I just called, the guy said to go to a meeting tomorrow. He said he could help no further.

that won't help, I am suffering now.

Who on earth cares? Answer: NOBODY.e

This is not a pity thread nor do I want it to be. Just wanted to be honest about my feelings as an alcoholic. (There are no typos in this post because I spent a long time making sure there weren't).

Dee74

I'm not sure if 211 is 24 hours - I have a feeling it's not.

Not sure what kind of help you need sobergirl but hopeline is 24/7

Hopeline-dot-com has free 1-800 line that will connect any caller in the US who needs help to a certified crisis center nearest the caller's location. Services are available 24 hours a day, seven days a week. The number is:

1- 800-784-2433

FeenixxRising

Sobergirl I assume you're at home right now? Correct?

awuh1

Well I have been checking chat and coming back here sooooooo somebody is looking out 4 u

FeenixxRising

sobergirl, there are a few of us here, so people do care. I just checked the chat room and you weren't there. Hopefully, you're on the phone right now.

artsoul

Hi sobergirl -

I'm so sorry you're hurting. I know how overwhelming those feelings of despair can be, and I'm so glad you're reaching out for help. Here's another number, incase you needs more options:

Oklahoma Department of Mental Health and Substance Abuse Services ::
Reach Out National Hotline Crisis & Information
Line 24 hours / 7 days
1-800-535-2437
1-800-522-9054

Sending prayers and hugs to you.......

venuscat

Like Feenixx, I hope you are on the phone and have gotten some help sobergirl.
And we really do care; you are not alone.

Venus xx

FeenixxRising

Sobergirl, there have been some good resources posted here for you to use. Hopefully, you've made some calls already, but if you haven't please do, it can only help. And if you want, keep posting here. Someone will be around.

And remember that even though you're in a dark hole right now, you don't have to stay there. You can start climbing to the top. It's hard I know, but try to see and feel hope. Try to see today--even though it's a very bad day--as the start of new and better period of your life. There are a lot of people here who have been exactly where you are right now, and they've been able to get better. You can do the same.

And please let us know how you are. We may not know you personally, but we are concerned.

StevenT

Just wanted to add my name to the list of people that care. I've been there. 28th of january 2013 to be exact. I was inches from killing myself when I made the choice to abandon myself to the AA program and move into action. I've been sober since.

You're in my prayers

Acheleus

I care and hope you find someone to talk to. People DO care, even when it feels like they don't.

sobergirl77

Just wanted to update... thanks so much for the concern. And the phone numbers. I tried calling the numbers given (except that 800#) and nobody answered. Like i said above, the AA hotline was not helpful. Nor has it ever been. I have called it numerous times, nobody ever cares or gives any kind of real help. This is not the first time I've been suicidal due to alcohol. I was recently in the hospital on suicide watch 24/7. It didn't matter, it didn't help, and nothing ever does, except when strangers reach out kindly. THAT is the only thing that helps. I am very grateful to the person who PM'd me. I could not get into chat no matter what I did to my browser.

Thanks again for the replies.

jaynie04

Hi Sobergirl, I'm here too, thinking of you and sending hugs.