Alcohol + Me = M.A.D.
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Eek have I missed you? Blimmin time zones!
Thinking of you, wishing you all the best and I shall be waving across the globe from a muddy field in about 2 hours from now. My waves reach rehab too so that's a good thing
Speak soon xx
Thinking of you, wishing you all the best and I shall be waving across the globe from a muddy field in about 2 hours from now. My waves reach rehab too so that's a good thing
Speak soon xx
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Originally Posted by bemyself 
Thinking of my SR mates!
(Keep having visions of MTN falling in the mud in a freezing UK winter....oh, what a mother will do for her son / daughter! :-))
You too can Segway when you are feeling better
xx*Edit* Wrong pic.... BRB!
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Yoo-hoo, I'm here in rehab!
Fantastic pic of you MTN - you stalwart soul, you!!!
Got the wireless thing going here just now, though it's often unreliable.
Still: I got here (roughly 24 hours ago); haven't needed too much valium, but of course still only officially today is (a full) Day one, so prone to mental fade-outs and fatigue. have a bad back as well, but hoping that in itself is 'just' a flare up of spinal arthritis, which heavy drinking exacerbates.
Am literally trying to stay as calm - and as quiet as I can; not into the cheery / chatty / socialising aspect of a group of other patients...it can get overwhelming. My AA mate advised quietly: 'try to keep a low profile, and try to do it differently this time around'.
The doing it differently rubber will hit the road much more in a week or so time, once I'm back home in my isolated, demotivated daily life. But - whoops: that's a spot of negative thinking, and fearing the future, which hasn't come.
I never expect miracles from rehabs, programmes, or anything else. I'm just - for now - relieved that I took care of myself by recognising how far downhill I'd come in such a short period (really, only a few weeks, at its worst), and by taking action to Just Put it Down in a safe environment.
Will do my best to post when I can Mostly only in the evenings here, as we have to leave our laptops and phones at the hospital when in group sessions daytime.
Luv you all!!!
Vic
Fantastic pic of you MTN - you stalwart soul, you!!!
Got the wireless thing going here just now, though it's often unreliable.
Still: I got here (roughly 24 hours ago); haven't needed too much valium, but of course still only officially today is (a full) Day one, so prone to mental fade-outs and fatigue. have a bad back as well, but hoping that in itself is 'just' a flare up of spinal arthritis, which heavy drinking exacerbates.
Am literally trying to stay as calm - and as quiet as I can; not into the cheery / chatty / socialising aspect of a group of other patients...it can get overwhelming. My AA mate advised quietly: 'try to keep a low profile, and try to do it differently this time around'.
The doing it differently rubber will hit the road much more in a week or so time, once I'm back home in my isolated, demotivated daily life. But - whoops: that's a spot of negative thinking, and fearing the future, which hasn't come.
I never expect miracles from rehabs, programmes, or anything else. I'm just - for now - relieved that I took care of myself by recognising how far downhill I'd come in such a short period (really, only a few weeks, at its worst), and by taking action to Just Put it Down in a safe environment.
Will do my best to post when I can Mostly only in the evenings here, as we have to leave our laptops and phones at the hospital when in group sessions daytime.
Luv you all!!!
Vic
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Ooh you have access to the outside world! Not entirely sure what I expected... padded cell? 
I'm pretty much in quarantine this week with DD who has chicken pox. I shall probably be needing that cell by the end of it!
Glad to hear you are doing ok, I'm also looking at my isolated demotivated daily life... let me know if you pick up any tips lol
Keep posting, great to hear how you are doing
I'm pretty much in quarantine this week with DD who has chicken pox. I shall probably be needing that cell by the end of it!Glad to hear you are doing ok, I'm also looking at my isolated demotivated daily life... let me know if you pick up any tips lol
Keep posting, great to hear how you are doing
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Hi friends, just a quick post (before the hospital's nursery tea - I call it that because it's at 5.30 pm!):
Am feeling quite a bit better, mentally and physically, and will be going home on Saturday morning (it's about 5.30 pm Thursday evening here now).
A bit apprehensive, but have a zillion more tools and encouragement - I just have to actually take each day slowly, and for a while at least, focus on a 'mix it up' approach each day of an outpatient group here, an AA meeting there, and rigorous practice of AVRT.
the staff have been great, as all the same ones are here from my full month's rehab over a year ago. Fortunately, because I didn't keep this frightful relapse accelerating its way into any more weeks, months, etc, my physical condition isn't too bad at all, so a fairly rapid improvement in liver, etc blood results and blood pressure. TAlk about dodging a bullet or a whole round of 'em.
See you around the boards again pretty soon, and hope everyone's doing ok.
xx
Vic
Am feeling quite a bit better, mentally and physically, and will be going home on Saturday morning (it's about 5.30 pm Thursday evening here now).
A bit apprehensive, but have a zillion more tools and encouragement - I just have to actually take each day slowly, and for a while at least, focus on a 'mix it up' approach each day of an outpatient group here, an AA meeting there, and rigorous practice of AVRT.
the staff have been great, as all the same ones are here from my full month's rehab over a year ago. Fortunately, because I didn't keep this frightful relapse accelerating its way into any more weeks, months, etc, my physical condition isn't too bad at all, so a fairly rapid improvement in liver, etc blood results and blood pressure. TAlk about dodging a bullet or a whole round of 'em.
See you around the boards again pretty soon, and hope everyone's doing ok.
xx
Vic
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You'll be glad to get your dog back. Hope the plants not suffered too much. Perhaps every time you hear the Cookaburras you will hear them reminding you not to pick up !
Hope all falls into place for you. Keep on here and keep clear, life really is so much easier and so less messy!!
John.
Hope all falls into place for you. Keep on here and keep clear, life really is so much easier and so less messy!!
John.
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Back home!
Hi there my friends / comrades:
I'm back home now, with my beautiful dog Bess, after the week at rehab. Feeling pretty tired - as most people are after putting down the drink; my lower back (from spinal arthritis) is still very painful from the flare up of recent weeks, but I had a CT scan while in the hospital (showed further degeneration of discs) and so will go to my GP soon to figure out some treatment for that.
Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, I am feeling a bit clearer (though still a bit spacey sometimes) - I know exactly what I have to do for myself each day to grow back towards health. Whether I can keep up the motivation, each day, on all those fronts, only each day will tell. One day at a time, for me. But I do not want to go back to drinking ever again. Finito.
thanks to you who sent me support from around the world! And I just hope my little story, amidst the thousands here on SR, might have helped even just one of the readers.
To Life! (can't spell the Hebrew expression ' lehyem' is how I say it to myself - hope a Jewish member can correct me, the spelling pedant :-))
xxx
Vic
I'm back home now, with my beautiful dog Bess, after the week at rehab. Feeling pretty tired - as most people are after putting down the drink; my lower back (from spinal arthritis) is still very painful from the flare up of recent weeks, but I had a CT scan while in the hospital (showed further degeneration of discs) and so will go to my GP soon to figure out some treatment for that.
Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, I am feeling a bit clearer (though still a bit spacey sometimes) - I know exactly what I have to do for myself each day to grow back towards health. Whether I can keep up the motivation, each day, on all those fronts, only each day will tell. One day at a time, for me. But I do not want to go back to drinking ever again. Finito.
thanks to you who sent me support from around the world! And I just hope my little story, amidst the thousands here on SR, might have helped even just one of the readers.
To Life! (can't spell the Hebrew expression ' lehyem' is how I say it to myself - hope a Jewish member can correct me, the spelling pedant :-))
xxx
Vic
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