flutter

Goodness! Hope you're feeling better, MetalChick. Even though alcohol was my DOC, I had a history with pretty much anything that would alter my reality.. coke, pot, acid, mushrooms, pain pills.. When I entered recovery I committed to being clean and sober from all of that stuff, if I didn't, it would still feed the same cycle I was in with alcohol (trying to alter my mind) and my recovery would be stuck. Only when I truly got sober from everything did I feel the freedom and peace that a sober life could give me.

sugarbear1

"done it enough times that I am not going to go crazy" The problem with this is that we really don't know if we will or will not go crazy one day. We don't know which time might tip us over the edge.

Try again. Try really hard to stay stopped.

You can do this!

mecanix

"The choice it is yours to do as you might
The road is open wide to place your bidding
Now, wherever you turn, wherever you go
If you get it wrong, at least you can know
There's miles and miles to put it back together! ".

put it back together metalchick, stay strong, M

aeo1313

Go back and read the positive posts you made while sober.

Are you ok today? ie- cockroaches and lost dogs?

doggonecarl

Find new friends.

I was hooked on meth in the early 80s. Quit because I OD'd and I saw how dangerous it was, the incredible lure of a speed high. But I didn't quit the other drugs I took for years and and didn't quit drinking until two years ago because I mistakenly thought my problem was just speed.

Wrong, my problem was an addictive personality. I would take anything to get high.

Perhaps you should consider that recovery means abstinence from every substance that alters your mind.

MetalChick

k, feeling a bit better- sorry, That was really wacked. I really messed up. I will be back in a couple days. Way too much dex- feel yuck and stupid. I am sorry

Live2Run25

Let us know you are okay MetalChick.. these posts scared me a little...

CarolD

MC....;hug:

Please don't let a set back keep you from finding your way.
I'll be checking here in Alcoholism when you return...

MetalChick

yup I am ok sorry. thank you.

Dee74

glad you're feeling a little better MC
D

vinepest

Well, yes and no. I mean, you blew that night, and now you're going to have a longer wait to get over your cravings.

But here's what you didn't do: You didn't ruin the 4 weeks you had sober. Nobody can take those 4 weeks away from you---not even yourself! And if you want more sober time, it's in your power to get it.

The only drawbacks are that you feel guilty (rightly so) and now you might have to deal with some cravings which you would not have had otherwise. But that's not the end of the world. You can get back on the horse.

Good luck!

LosingmyMisery

All you can do is get back on the horse. I'm sure you are haunted by that decision. In all honestly, it didn't sound like much fun. Sorry, for pointing out the obvious, but that is the insanity of our addiction. Keep trying and don't let it get you to down. We make mistakes. The most important thing is whether or not we learned from them.