MetalChick

I was 4 weeks sober -- did Dex tonight

MetalChick

I guess i was thinking that Dex was not as bad-- who knows

hypochondriac

I have no idea what that is MetalChick but sorry to hear it.

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back on track. It's just a minor set back right?

What kind of recovery method were you using? Is there some stuff you can re visit to help you get back to where you were? x

neferkamichael

I can't remember how many times I blew it, but on the 10th I'll be 2 years sober. You can do it.

abc

If it was part of your sobriety plan to quit Dex also, then I guess you blew it. Is Dex a problem in your life though? I only used stimulants so that I could drink more without getting too drunk or passing out. I was never really addicted to them.

MetalChick

dex is a dissociative - done it enough times that I am not going to go crazy, just disappointed in myself.

MetalChick

ty abc- I never did dex much or special k-- maybe I am trading drugs here

abc

Oh, sorry MetalChick, I thought you were referring to Dexedrine which is an amphetamine. I now see that you mean DXM aka cough syrup. Yeah, don't do DXM. Bad bad bad.

MetalChick

my friends make it into a powder

abc

Yeah maybe you are trading drugs. You don't want to do that. But if you are a true alcoholic, no drug will be able to replace the feeling you get from alcohol. That's the one we are hopelessly addicted to. I always felt the danger of drugs was exaggerated. Alcohol is way more dangerous. It's more addictive.

MetalChick

I think they have magic talent

MetalChick

well, i can tell you it is a mad world for true

MetalChick

I am out, I am confused, I blew it, i am lost

Dee74

I know next to nothing about DXM apart from what I read here on SR, but I know it was always very dangerous for me to dabble in any addictive substance.

You made a mistake, there are obvious lessons to learn MC - but try not to dwell on it too much.

maybe later when you feel up to it, you can think about what else you can do to make sure you stay on the right side of the recovery road, but for now try to take good care of yourself

D

MetalChick

k, I think there was a bug, maybe a cockroach in here

MetalChick

i am pretty sure it is in here, I will get it

TorontoGuy28

MetalChick-

We've all messed up far too many times before getting sober.

Are you ready to do whatever it takes to get and stay sober ? This will also mean stop hanging out with people that make magic powders you referred to in your posts above.


This forum is great for support, I always came back after f*cking up... Used it as a crutch, but had to get into AA to get sober for good.......

Best of luck.

TG

MetalChick

it is ok i think i lost my dog he was here

MetalChick

k, i have to find my dog

Sudz No More

Don't feel too bad, this is tough and we all know it. The fact that you recognize where you are and where you want to be is the most important. I still have my struggles but I still have a main goal of sobriety and I plan to keep trying. The best we can do is keep on keeping on.