My First Time
My First Time
I've been feeling pretty lost these past few...yrs, months and especially days. I've been reading a lot of spiritual books, blogs, websites, and for the most part, feel really good after I've read them. But of course it only lasts as long as a good nights sleep or nap.
I woke up really early today (despite going to bed late) and like always, my mind goes to where my inner most fears lead them too.
I remembered that on Saturday mornings, there's a womans AA meeting not too far from my house. I got ready and walked it.
I figured, regardless of what I do or don't agree with on AA, (which I don't wish to get into, I don't want this to turn into a debate) I needed to do something.
So I did it. For the first time in my life, I introduced myself and said out loud, "Hi, my name is (name) and I'm an alcoholic."
It felt pretty good. I couldn't help but hold back tears and breathe deeply in and out.
I'm an alcoholic. And even though I've known it and accepted it, I've typed it and written it down...I've never done so out loud. So formal and matter of fact. Official.
Anyway, just had to share.
Thanks for reading...
-Simply
I woke up really early today (despite going to bed late) and like always, my mind goes to where my inner most fears lead them too.
I remembered that on Saturday mornings, there's a womans AA meeting not too far from my house. I got ready and walked it.
I figured, regardless of what I do or don't agree with on AA, (which I don't wish to get into, I don't want this to turn into a debate) I needed to do something.
So I did it. For the first time in my life, I introduced myself and said out loud, "Hi, my name is (name) and I'm an alcoholic."
It felt pretty good. I couldn't help but hold back tears and breathe deeply in and out.
I'm an alcoholic. And even though I've known it and accepted it, I've typed it and written it down...I've never done so out loud. So formal and matter of fact. Official.
Anyway, just had to share.
Thanks for reading...
-Simply
Good Job! I know it is difficult to admit that we have this problem. But life gets so much better when we stop drinking. Whatever path you choose: AA, SMART, AVRT . . . you are on your way to a much better place.
All the best!
All the best!
I got tears reading this! Thank you!
I remember saying that for the first time. It wasn't easy to do, as you know. We've all been there. Keep going to meetings and make some sober friends to hang out with. Call them regularly. It's a whole new world out there today!
Enjoy your sober journey!
I remember saying that for the first time. It wasn't easy to do, as you know. We've all been there. Keep going to meetings and make some sober friends to hang out with. Call them regularly. It's a whole new world out there today!
Enjoy your sober journey!
SimplyFab, I did the same thing. I went into my first AA meeting, and introduced myself. You know the drill, 'My name is Freshstart, and I am an alcoholic'. That was a major milestone for me on my way to sobriety. It cemented in my mind that I had begun.
I learned as much as I could about my options, aids to sobriety, and chose one that was the right fit for me. I hope that you can move forward too, in the same way, solid in your resolve to never drink again. I wish you the best.
I learned as much as I could about my options, aids to sobriety, and chose one that was the right fit for me. I hope that you can move forward too, in the same way, solid in your resolve to never drink again. I wish you the best.
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yeah funny how it works. I could laugh about being an alcholic admit it to anyone glady and proudly as i asked for another round. But having to go to AA and say it when it coutns well that was a very sobering expierience.
It cemented in my mind that I had begun.
I learned as much as I could about my options, aids to sobriety, and chose one that was the right fit for me. I hope that you can move forward too, in the same way, solid in your resolve to never drink again. I wish you the best.
I learned as much as I could about my options, aids to sobriety, and chose one that was the right fit for me. I hope that you can move forward too, in the same way, solid in your resolve to never drink again. I wish you the best.
It feels like there's nowhere else to hide. I've said it and admitted to it everywhere it counts now and it's out there. This fact about me is out in the open and there's no turning back.
I still love my group and counseling sessions, but am grateful that AA was there to give me this 'sobering experience' that I didn't know I needed to do.
Thank you all for your kind words and encouragements..
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I thought about it quite a bit before I went to the meeting. I even talked to my friend about it. I'd heard about people doing it most of my life. I felt standing up and saying that would be taking things to the next level. When the time came, I popped up and proclaimed it so enthusiasticly everyone laughed. Because I was proud of myself. It was a good experience. Kindof a relief to get it out. Sortof like being grownup and accountable.
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