Introvrtd1

.....It felt so good after 12 days....my head had cleared, sleep was terrific, anxiety and panic had gone.....but then I got cocky...felt so strong...got stupid thinking I could have just a couple of beers....turned into a 3 day binge.....

....uuuggghh....Im so disgusted with myself....

CarolD

I certainly hope this will be your time for lasting sobreity...
I too had false starts before I actually quit

MalkavianEmily

Well, what did you learn from those 12 days? The important thing to do is to not beat yourself up about it. The other important thing is to learn from this, and start again. You can do this. If not on your own, then with the help of the good folks on here.
Do you have a plan for what to do next?

Introvrtd1

Thanks Carol....

Malka....I did learn something....that I really am an alcoholic....

I must find a hobby....Im sick and tired of going thru this nightmare of withdrawal symptoms..

Jbot

One day at at time start again

Muunray

Yes - you never have to again!

Hevyn

Hi Introvrtd - Sorry you went through that misery. I did it, too - dozens of times. I finally got fed up with trying to manage what I drank. I took a cold, hard look at what happened to me when I picked up, & I had to admit it wasn't even fun anymore. In the end, it did nothing but make me sick and anxious. I could never go back to my early days of drinking, when it still made me high and happy. Those days were gone forever. I'm not sure why it was so hard to admit that!

Now you are armed with more knowledge - you can't control what you drink. You've learned something very valuable. You can do this, Intro. We know you can.

MetalChick

Dude-I am so sorry-- but shake it off and state again, k

MetalChick

I am only on around 4 week sober myself- I know it is tough, but you messed up one time-- just start again.

Introvrtd1

Feeling a little better...yesterday was rough....body slowly returning to normal......again....

It seems like a journey over several thousand long, and gruling miles.....only to be placed back to square one.....uuuggghhhh.....


.....such a long way to go......

......Im determined never to do that again.......sigh

neferkamichael

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back on the wagon. You can do it.

2granddaughters

Ahhhhh, that's not how it works for the majority of alcoholics.

What do you think a hobby is going to do for you??

I'd be looking for a recovery program, not a hobby...

I wish you the best.

Bob R

Introvrtd1

Well.....a hobby does work for me.....it kept me out of trouble, among other things....boredem is my enemy...

Thanks for the well wishes....

OklaBH

Or try both at once...get into a program and find something you enjoy doing for you. Sorry you drank again. This thing sucks.

Sapling

I don't know about the hobby idea...I had a hobby....Drinking was my hobby. This is pretty serious stuff...If it was that easy rehabs would be handing out hobby books....Not only you should look into a recovery program...You should do what that recovery program suggests.

Introvrtd1

I dont disagree with the recovery program.....but the hobby thing is my recovery program.....to each his own.....but yeah....a combination of both would be twice as good for recovery....Im not beyond looking into it...

It keeps me busy.....when Im busy...Im not drinking....yes...I can stay busy forever.....(figure of speech)

Sapling

I'm not saying you shouldn't have hobbies...I'm just saying there are different ways that people on this site have gotten and remained sober...You get the idea...If it would be twice as good for your recovery...That sure gives you a better chance. I wish you the best Introvrtd1....You can do this.

NYCDoglvr

Please don't beat yourself up. Use it as a learning experience. If one thing doesn't work, do something else. Perhaps AA?

THEOjibway

The best thing you can do is try again. theres no better way then to get back up and believe you can do it again with being sober. I know how you feel. I stayed sober for a couple of weeks and then I thought I could have just 1. Ended up binging for 4 days straight with no sleep, food or water and so my body was full with alcohol... I was lucky I didn't die from it... I could have if I went to day 5 because I'm a diabetic and we aren't suppose to drink excessively!

Get back up, believe, do it! You did it once, you can do it again! Have faith! Get extra help.

TorontoGuy28

Look back at this as a learning experience, and turn it into something positive !

I've been in your shoes sooooooooooooo many times, at times I would do a month, 3 months, 90 days, 6 months always allowing my disease to convince me I never had it.