Tigger41

Sounds like maybe you need to really explain to your wife how hard this is. Sometimes when we are sniping at each other ( my partner and I) we are not really supportive of each other. But when we really see the pain in each others eyes then we step up. Has she seen the pain?

BASEjumper

Unfortunately in early recovery it isn't about self control. If it was, there wouldn't be places like this and so many rehabs, community recovery programs, etc.

Until you have enough sober time such that the mental obsession with alcohol and the compulsion to drink fade, your chances of success are low, especially when surrounded by alcohol. It took about six months for me.

Have a heart to heart with your wife, make it clear that you have to quit for your health. You had two months and relapsed, what are you going to do differently? Have you tried any recovery techniques?

kickaha

16th day today- getting tough now- keep getting anxiety attacks and feel shaky, depressed

kickaha

should have typed 9th day

Zencat

Having some recovery tools (living life without alcohol skills) can make the being sober no matter what job easier.

Posting/reading here at SR and reading recovery literature helps me loads.

Here are some of the things that have helped me:
Know the problem and know the treatment...works for me.

jjcase337

Hello
I hope you find lasting freedom. I have been up and down with my faith for many years and started really wanting to quit a couple years ago. I then realized that everytime i drinked the temperary don't care kicks in more and more and I do crazy things and get hurt almost always. Even my family tried to warm me lately about how I wont quit and it discourages me cause i hate it so much! Last night was the final straw and answer to prayer. While drinking I actually tought I'd by other drugs again but instead got beat-up, robbed, and threatened not to go to the police. So I like usually prayed about it, and actually believe it took me getting beat up on more time this month to change. I no longer think i need alcohol to ease any pain, cause I know the pain of dying a little more is too much to carry any longer. Just wanted to share that and hope you all find freedom.

Dee74

This is a pretty old thread....but welcome to SR jjcase

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