Really Frickin' Irritable
I'm just a little unwell
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Really Frickin' Irritable
I have zero tolerance today. Every last little thing is getting on my nerves. I am so totally irritated with my family right now that I can hardly sit still. Some of the irritation is justified (kids nit-picking with each other, ignoring me, etc) and some of it is not.
I just want to be left alone. I just want this annoying day to be over.
I know there's nothing any of y'all can do about it
I just thought it would make me feel a little better if I could vent here!! Thanks for tolerating me. 
I just want to be left alone. I just want this annoying day to be over.
I know there's nothing any of y'all can do about it
I just thought it would make me feel a little better if I could vent here!! Thanks for tolerating me. 
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I had a week like that last week TSH.
I try to think of all I have to be grateful for, and all the good things
but sometimes all you can do is....just get through it...don't kill anyone LOL
and don't drink.
D
I try to think of all I have to be grateful for, and all the good things
but sometimes all you can do is....just get through it...don't kill anyone LOL
and don't drink.
D
I'm just a little unwell
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I know it's a bad day when even my li'l 8-pound furball dog gets under my skin! LOL! She's my lil babygirl and if SHE irritates me then something is definitely NOT RIGHT with me!
Not drinkin. TRYING to pull out the grateful list, but it's tough tonight. Thanks, Dee.
Not drinkin. TRYING to pull out the grateful list, but it's tough tonight. Thanks, Dee.
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I have found this reading to help me when I was new and today also.
Twenty Four Hours A Day
A..A. Thought for the Day
The way of A..A. is the way of faith. We don't get the full benefit of the program until we surrender our lives to some Power greater than ourselves and trust that Power to give us the strength we need. There is no better way for us. We can get sober without it. We can stay sober for some time without it. But if we are going to truly live, we must take the way of faith in God. That is the path for us. We must follow it. Have I taken the way of faith?
Meditation for the Day
Life is not a search for happiness. Happiness is a by-product of living the right kind of a life, of doing the right thing. Do not search for happiness, search for right living and happiness will be your reward. Life is sometimes a march of duty during dull, dark days. But happiness will come again, as God's smile of recognition of your faithfulness. True happiness is always the by-product of a life well lived.
Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may not seek happiness but seek to do right. I pray that I may not seek pleasure so much as the things that bring true happiness.
Hazelton Publishing -Source
Twenty Four Hours A Day
A..A. Thought for the Day
The way of A..A. is the way of faith. We don't get the full benefit of the program until we surrender our lives to some Power greater than ourselves and trust that Power to give us the strength we need. There is no better way for us. We can get sober without it. We can stay sober for some time without it. But if we are going to truly live, we must take the way of faith in God. That is the path for us. We must follow it. Have I taken the way of faith?
Meditation for the Day
Life is not a search for happiness. Happiness is a by-product of living the right kind of a life, of doing the right thing. Do not search for happiness, search for right living and happiness will be your reward. Life is sometimes a march of duty during dull, dark days. But happiness will come again, as God's smile of recognition of your faithfulness. True happiness is always the by-product of a life well lived.
Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may not seek happiness but seek to do right. I pray that I may not seek pleasure so much as the things that bring true happiness.
Hazelton Publishing -Source
Last edited by CarolD; 12-17-2008 at 09:01 AM. Reason: Added Source
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Yeah im like that today, non nonesense shut the **** up kind of mood, but it will pass and even if it lasts all day...who cares! Sure as hell not going to take a drink!
A bad day now and then is better than the living hell it was before!
Don't be donw anyway its xmas:-)
A bad day now and then is better than the living hell it was before!
Don't be donw anyway its xmas:-)
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I am very glad that I listened to the oldtimers when they shared about how being sober no matter how long did not garauntee that every day would be a good day!!!! What I have found is that being sober I have far fewer bad days and when I do I can deal with them and the bad times will pass as long as I am taking any actions needed to rectify them.
Glad to see you know that this to shall pass and a drink darn sure is not going to make things better.
Glad to see you know that this to shall pass and a drink darn sure is not going to make things better.
I'm just a little unwell
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Today was a trial of biblical proportions for me.
My DH woke up in a foul mood for no apparent reason and spent the first half of the day snapping at me over nothing (and everything). I decided to get out and do some Christmas shopping and have a decent lunch, and my temporary crown that I got last week broke while I was eating. I spent the next 45 minutes at the dentist's office, having a panic attack, tears streaming down my face, while they attempted to fix it. After 2 failed attempts, they finally decided to put on a new temporary crown. This one's metal and is much more uncomfortable. My appointment to get the permanent crown isn't until Jan 5 so I have a couple of long weeks ahead.
I spent the afternoon crying and stressing over the whole thing, which inevitably lead to thoughts about just how badly do I really want to stay sober anyway.
I did stay sober, but today it wasn't because I wanted to.
Someone please tell me that this, too, shall pass.
My DH woke up in a foul mood for no apparent reason and spent the first half of the day snapping at me over nothing (and everything). I decided to get out and do some Christmas shopping and have a decent lunch, and my temporary crown that I got last week broke while I was eating. I spent the next 45 minutes at the dentist's office, having a panic attack, tears streaming down my face, while they attempted to fix it. After 2 failed attempts, they finally decided to put on a new temporary crown. This one's metal and is much more uncomfortable. My appointment to get the permanent crown isn't until Jan 5 so I have a couple of long weeks ahead.
I spent the afternoon crying and stressing over the whole thing, which inevitably lead to thoughts about just how badly do I really want to stay sober anyway.
I did stay sober, but today it wasn't because I wanted to.
Someone please tell me that this, too, shall pass.
I'm just a little unwell
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Really struggling today. Not sure why.
Lots of feelings racing through me... anger, sadness, fear, confusion, desperation... not sure if that covers them all, but you get the picture.
I was going to say I really want a drink, but I don't. I don't want a drink, I want to drink. More than I've wanted to in a while. Maybe the worst since I quit (80 days ago). All kinds of crazy addiction talk going on in my brain right now.
It's starting to really sink in that this is something that I'm going to have to deal with for the rest of my life, and that is really freaking me out big time.
Don't know what to do or say right now. Thanks for reading.
Lots of feelings racing through me... anger, sadness, fear, confusion, desperation... not sure if that covers them all, but you get the picture.
I was going to say I really want a drink, but I don't. I don't want a drink, I want to drink. More than I've wanted to in a while. Maybe the worst since I quit (80 days ago). All kinds of crazy addiction talk going on in my brain right now.
It's starting to really sink in that this is something that I'm going to have to deal with for the rest of my life, and that is really freaking me out big time.
Don't know what to do or say right now. Thanks for reading.
I'm just a little unwell
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Originally Posted by bballdad 
Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may not seek happiness but seek to do right. I pray that I may not seek pleasure so much as the things that bring true happiness.
Hazelton Publishing -Source
I pray that I may not seek happiness but seek to do right. I pray that I may not seek pleasure so much as the things that bring true happiness.
Hazelton Publishing -Source
I just wanted to say thank you.
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I've got nothing against seeking pleasure LOL
but yeah - make it *real* pleasure - not the transient kind - not the short term fix - and not the kind that's gonna bite you on the butt and take you right back to where you came from in 5 minutes.
This time of year is hard, but staying true to yourself is even more important in times of stress - don't let the addict voice rationalise you into giving up on yrself or doing yourself harm TSH
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but yeah - make it *real* pleasure - not the transient kind - not the short term fix - and not the kind that's gonna bite you on the butt and take you right back to where you came from in 5 minutes.
This time of year is hard, but staying true to yourself is even more important in times of stress - don't let the addict voice rationalise you into giving up on yrself or doing yourself harm TSH
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I'm just a little unwell
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I feel like I don't even know what makes me happy anymore. I have a hard time remembering what I'm good at or what I want to do. I feel lost and confused and I don't like it.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
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believe it or not TSH that's pretty normal - that's why lasting sobriety is so hard - the first few months can be ridiculous at times.
When I was going through this it helped me to think that what I was feeling was not actually necessarily true feeling - I wasn't losing it - but its simply the process of my body and mind healing - its something that happens to all of us.
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When I was going through this it helped me to think that what I was feeling was not actually necessarily true feeling - I wasn't losing it - but its simply the process of my body and mind healing - its something that happens to all of us.
D
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Nope, no moderation for us. No more drinking. Now that we know we can't, we really shouldn't.
TSH, you aren't alone. Just remember that for as long as forever without drinking seems, and that is really quite a thing for my newly-abstaining self to type/think/feel, you are winning. You have a support system! You can feel irritable, you can talk to us all you please. I know for sure that we'd all rather hear how pissed off you are for feeling something that isn't nice rather than drink. That's why we're here.
As for why you're here, it's to be a fine person, and I know you are. Keep it up. Be annoyed, be irritable, be 80+ days. You're awesome.
TSH, you aren't alone. Just remember that for as long as forever without drinking seems, and that is really quite a thing for my newly-abstaining self to type/think/feel, you are winning. You have a support system! You can feel irritable, you can talk to us all you please. I know for sure that we'd all rather hear how pissed off you are for feeling something that isn't nice rather than drink. That's why we're here.
As for why you're here, it's to be a fine person, and I know you are. Keep it up. Be annoyed, be irritable, be 80+ days. You're awesome.
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trying so hard
I remember when I first quit drinking,a older man explained how to live one day at a time because I could not see going 6 months,or 3 yrs sober.To me it was impossible.
I was about to freak out when he asked me if I could stay sober the rest of the day.I said(with much relief) of course.No big problem.So,as I tryed to learn to keep my head in today it got better.What seemed to be big mountains to climb had turned into smaller hills.Life and soberiety looked achieveable to me.It took a lot of presure off.No matter what Life throws my way today,I only have to bear it for this day.
now you have seen trouble sober and you have made it thru sober.You now know you can do it,and hopefuly ,you can take these experiences and build on these and build your confidence for when other troubles may arise in the future.
Merry Christmas to you and your family
Tommy
I remember when I first quit drinking,a older man explained how to live one day at a time because I could not see going 6 months,or 3 yrs sober.To me it was impossible.
I was about to freak out when he asked me if I could stay sober the rest of the day.I said(with much relief) of course.No big problem.So,as I tryed to learn to keep my head in today it got better.What seemed to be big mountains to climb had turned into smaller hills.Life and soberiety looked achieveable to me.It took a lot of presure off.No matter what Life throws my way today,I only have to bear it for this day.
now you have seen trouble sober and you have made it thru sober.You now know you can do it,and hopefuly ,you can take these experiences and build on these and build your confidence for when other troubles may arise in the future.
Merry Christmas to you and your family
Tommy
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TSH, I can relate to so much of what you're posting. You may not realize it, but reading that it's normal even for a person with a lot more sobriety than me is really helpful. I'm glad you're on here posting instead of taking a drink.
Hang in there.
Hang in there.
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