Class of July 2015 Part 5
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DD and ladybug... Day 3 for me too. Let's stick together 
Letitgo, I'm one of the teachers and always type here under time constraints, rarely proofread
Or fix typos , so no judgement any direction... !
I am so grateful to be able to log on here on my lunch break just when my mind starts with the old, "Wine would just relax you after all this craziness at school ", "you deserve it", "it'll just be for today/just one or two glasses/I'll become an occasional drinker". Blah, blah, blah. All lies.
As soon as I read your posts, the switch flips and my mind adjusts. Thank you all!
Letitgo, I'm one of the teachers and always type here under time constraints, rarely proofread
Or fix typos , so no judgement any direction... !
I am so grateful to be able to log on here on my lunch break just when my mind starts with the old, "Wine would just relax you after all this craziness at school ", "you deserve it", "it'll just be for today/just one or two glasses/I'll become an occasional drinker". Blah, blah, blah. All lies.
As soon as I read your posts, the switch flips and my mind adjusts. Thank you all!
Rehydrating to Oblivion.
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Great to see you back Ladybug
Golf went okay! I got a fair few holes just 1 under par so for my first time on the course it's not bad. Hopefully after next time I will halve an official handicap. Had to stop myself at one point mind as I was getting frustrated with mis-hitting the bloody ball! My brain is used to getting what it wants there and then, none of this practicing nonsense! Enjoyed it though and going back tomorrow.
Mental health practitioner appt tomorrow which I have been waiting for for so long. Excited actually, I will give anything they suggest my all! We need to review my return to work as well. I still don't think I'm ready to go back and neither do my family. I got myself really worked up just having to speak to occupational health today, so that may be a sign.
Apart from that I'm good, safe, sober and have a full stomach. Can't complain
B
Golf went okay! I got a fair few holes just 1 under par so for my first time on the course it's not bad. Hopefully after next time I will halve an official handicap. Had to stop myself at one point mind as I was getting frustrated with mis-hitting the bloody ball! My brain is used to getting what it wants there and then, none of this practicing nonsense! Enjoyed it though and going back tomorrow.
Mental health practitioner appt tomorrow which I have been waiting for for so long. Excited actually, I will give anything they suggest my all! We need to review my return to work as well. I still don't think I'm ready to go back and neither do my family. I got myself really worked up just having to speak to occupational health today, so that may be a sign.
Apart from that I'm good, safe, sober and have a full stomach. Can't complain
B
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Originally Posted by DitzyDandelion 
Finding today tough.
D - Delay
E - Escape
A - Accept
D - Dispute
S - Substitute
Helped me many a time. 5 Ways to Deal With Urges and Cravings | SMART RecoveryŽ
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I don't want a drink particularity. Would kind of like to meet drunk me and utterly kick her arse. Bear in mind I am not a violent person.
All my usual tricks for picking myself up and stopping myself feeling sad just aren't doing anything. This time round seems so much harder. I think it is because while I was very determined last time this time I really feel this is my last chance. Finding the idea of a happy future hard to see.
All my usual tricks for picking myself up and stopping myself feeling sad just aren't doing anything. This time round seems so much harder. I think it is because while I was very determined last time this time I really feel this is my last chance. Finding the idea of a happy future hard to see.
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((((DD)))) Give yourself time to feel better. The times I've felt really down I can never imagine feeling happy again, but I've come out of it in the end. Stick close to SR. We have your back. You're among friends :-)
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Heading back to the lanes with my high average nephews for another night of bowling...we moved into 5th place after last week's 9/0 win, we sure could use another one tonight...drop back in later with some results.
and stay on course! You can do this!
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Originally Posted by toadie54
Heading back to the lanes with my high average nephews for another night of bowling...we moved into 5th place after last week's 9/0 win, we sure could use another one tonight...drop back in later with some results.
Ladybug, glad you are back for another try and not giving up! Im in August class too due to start again.
I just started reading "Mrs. D. Is going without" by Lotta Dann. So far, its awesome. She talks about not regretting her time drinking, because without that she wouldn't know how great sobriety is. Wont that be nice to have that viewpoint? She also talks about how being a part of an online community aided her recovery. So far so good!
Have a nice sober night all, or morning for the other half of the globe.
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Your addiction is loving you beating yourself up Ditzy, cos low self esteem makes it easy for the idea of a drink to sound good again.
It does get harder the more times we quit, sure, but it's not impossible
Instead of focusing on your screw up, try and focus on what you're doing for your recovery today.
Learn the lessons sure.. but don't look back after that...your future lies forward
D
It does get harder the more times we quit, sure, but it's not impossible
Instead of focusing on your screw up, try and focus on what you're doing for your recovery today.
Learn the lessons sure.. but don't look back after that...your future lies forward
D
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23 days. Stressful day, busy busy bike shop. Sick cat.
My co-workers asked me to join them at the bar. They know I've quit. I didn't even consider it. I earnestly don't want to be near a bar. Drinking alone did sound kind of nice today when the thought popped into my head, but then it sounded terrible.
I had a good cry, first in weeks, then went out and ripped around on my bicycle.
I don't want to ever touch a drink again.
My co-workers asked me to join them at the bar. They know I've quit. I didn't even consider it. I earnestly don't want to be near a bar. Drinking alone did sound kind of nice today when the thought popped into my head, but then it sounded terrible.
I had a good cry, first in weeks, then went out and ripped around on my bicycle.
I don't want to ever touch a drink again.
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