Class of October 2014 Part 5
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Survived my friend upstairs' very drunken Thanksgiving party last night...they kept asking me to join them. I said no thank you quite a few times. I must admit, I was gritting my teeth pretty hard. It was loud and they were having a blast.
I found it really interesting to see my friend next door coming back from a walk at around 7am today. Had I been up there with them last night, we (here) all know that I would be hungover and miserable.
Love to all the Octsobers,
V xx
I found it really interesting to see my friend next door coming back from a walk at around 7am today. Had I been up there with them last night, we (here) all know that I would be hungover and miserable.
Love to all the Octsobers,
V xx
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Well gang, I've got to admit that this day was more of a challenge than I had anticipated. Not so much specific thoughts of drinking...just a general state of agitation which was tough to keep from showing.
Some of y'all may remember that our ovens are not working (until next week). So I worked around that by putting Cornish hens on the smoker carefully tending and basting them for several hours. With the temperature outside being quite cool my electric smoker was not getting the internal temp. where it needed to be so I finally decided to finish them on the grill. I had to go answer the front door and when I returned to the patio I see that the grill has 'flamed up' and now the little hens all have nice charcoal skins! Sometimes you just have to laugh right?!. Turns out that the whole fiasco actually lifted my mood. After carefully removing the skin, the little chicks were actually still good.
So the cure for alcohol-related melancholy is burned up Cornish hens...just sayin.
I hope all the gang is well and I look forward to checking in tomorrow....for now, it's time for a shower and gonna turn in early.
Some of y'all may remember that our ovens are not working (until next week). So I worked around that by putting Cornish hens on the smoker carefully tending and basting them for several hours. With the temperature outside being quite cool my electric smoker was not getting the internal temp. where it needed to be so I finally decided to finish them on the grill. I had to go answer the front door and when I returned to the patio I see that the grill has 'flamed up' and now the little hens all have nice charcoal skins! Sometimes you just have to laugh right?!. Turns out that the whole fiasco actually lifted my mood. After carefully removing the skin, the little chicks were actually still good.
So the cure for alcohol-related melancholy is burned up Cornish hens...just sayin.
I hope all the gang is well and I look forward to checking in tomorrow....for now, it's time for a shower and gonna turn in early.
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Way to go Venus! I've got partying neighbors that stay up all hours, beer bottles rolling off the balcony, classy. Haha. I got a floor fan that I crank up on high when they're being especially noisy. It helps a little.
I am SO happy to be home now. It was a lovely time, truly. After we ate I offered to take the kids to a nearby park to give myself a little break from the chaos. My sister and cousin joined too. We played a little soccer, walked some trails, just a great time. I don't feel like I missed out on a thing by sticking with seltzer. AV chimed in a couple of times, but was easily dismissed after getting some fresh air. This gives me hope for the upcoming month.
Now I'm at home watching Anchorman 2 with a piece of apple pie. Sober life is good.
Stay strong and be safe, SR friends!
I am SO happy to be home now. It was a lovely time, truly. After we ate I offered to take the kids to a nearby park to give myself a little break from the chaos. My sister and cousin joined too. We played a little soccer, walked some trails, just a great time. I don't feel like I missed out on a thing by sticking with seltzer. AV chimed in a couple of times, but was easily dismissed after getting some fresh air. This gives me hope for the upcoming month.
Now I'm at home watching Anchorman 2 with a piece of apple pie. Sober life is good.
Stay strong and be safe, SR friends!
02.27.15 :): ▽VII△VIII
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: California
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Congrats on all the sober Thanksgivings! You guys rock! Mine was sober too and really nice. And no one even asked if I was pregnant, incredible!
And wow, my sister in law sure is loud when she's drunk! Never noticed that.
Anyway, I'm proud of you guys!
And wow, my sister in law sure is loud when she's drunk! Never noticed that.
Anyway, I'm proud of you guys!
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Welshman living in Cork, Ireland
Posts: 737
Good Morning my dearest Octsobers,
Oh wow. How wonderful to read all your wins over the thanksgiving holiday.
I've noticed the old familiar feelings of "why bother with all of this" returning to my psyche, but reading your posts from yesterday has re-inspired me.
I genuinely feel proud of you all and am both honoured and humbled to be your friend.
I won't give individual feedback this morning for fear I'll miss somebody. We really are a strong cohesive group.
Love you all.
Oh wow. How wonderful to read all your wins over the thanksgiving holiday.
I've noticed the old familiar feelings of "why bother with all of this" returning to my psyche, but reading your posts from yesterday has re-inspired me.
I genuinely feel proud of you all and am both honoured and humbled to be your friend.
I won't give individual feedback this morning for fear I'll miss somebody. We really are a strong cohesive group.
Love you all.
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Welshman living in Cork, Ireland
Posts: 737
I thought I'd share a poem with you. You may have read it before, it was written in 1998.
There are no copyright infringements for you to worry about, Dee. I've modified if a little bit.
I am your disease
You know who I am. You called me your friend,
Wishes of heartache and misery I send,
I want only to see you brought to your knees,
I'm the AV inside you; I AM YOUR DISEASE,
I'll invade all your thoughts, I'll take hostage your soul,
I'll become your new master, I'm in total control,
I'll maim your emotions, I'll run the whole game,
'Till your entire existance is crippled in shame.
When you call me I'll come, sometimes in disguise,
Quite often I'll take you by total surprise,
But take you I will and just as you feared,
I want only to hurt you with no mercy spared.
If you have your own family, Ill see it destroyed,
I'll steal every pleasure in life you've enjoyed,
I'll not only hurt you, I'll kill if I please,
I'm your worst living nightmare, I AM YOUR DISEASE.
I bring self-destruction, but still you can't tell,
I'll sweep you through heaven, then drop you in hell,
I'll chase you forever, wherever you go,
And when I do catch you, you won't even know,
I'll sometimes lay silent, just waiting to strike,
What's yours becomes mine, 'cos I take what I like,
I'll take all you won, and I won't care who sees,
I'm your constant companion, I AM YOUR DISEASE.
If you have any honour, I'll strip it away,
You'll lose all your hope, day after day,
I'll leave you in darkness, while blindly you stare,
I'll reduce you to nothing, and won't even care.
So don't take for granted my powers sublime,
I'll bend and I'll break you, time after time,
I'll crumble your world with the greatest of ease,
I'm the AV inside you, I AM YOUR DISEASE.
But today I'm real angry, you wanna know why?
I've let Sober Recovery to just slip by,
How did I lose you? Where did I go wrong?
One minute I had you, the next you were gone.
You can't just dismiss all the good times we shared,
When you were alone, it was me who appeared,
When you sold those possessions you knew you would need,
Wasn't I the first one who stepped in and agreed?
Now look, you Octsobers, you're all thinking clear,
You escaped with you're lives when you found your way here,
Only fools think they're winners whilst admitting defeat,
It's what you must think while you post at your seat.
So go ahead and surrender, if that's what you choose,
But I'm not giving up, 'cos I can't stand to lose,
So send all your smileys and stories of great cheer,
Leaving me to be damned, crying into my beer.
Well be damned the Octsobers, can't keep me at bay,
Be damned every addict, who back to me strays,
For I know it will happen, I've seen it before,
Those who love misery will crawl back for more.
So take comfort in knowing, I'm waiting right here,
But this time around, you'd better beware,
You think you are stronger, or smarter this time,
There isn't a mountain nor hill you can't climb.
Well if that's what you're thinking, you ain't learnt a thing,
I'll still knock you senseless, if you step in my ring,
But you say you've surrendered, so what can I do?
It's sad in a way, I had big plans for you.
Creating your nightmare for me was a dream,
I'm sure gonna miss you, we made quite a team,
So please don't forget me, 'cos I won't forget you,
I'll stand by your side, watching all that you do.
When you tire of SR, and your Octsober friends,
I'm the one always there right through to the end,
I'll always be faithful. so call if you please,
I just won't forget you, I AM YOUR DISEASE!!
There are no copyright infringements for you to worry about, Dee. I've modified if a little bit.
I am your disease
You know who I am. You called me your friend,
Wishes of heartache and misery I send,
I want only to see you brought to your knees,
I'm the AV inside you; I AM YOUR DISEASE,
I'll invade all your thoughts, I'll take hostage your soul,
I'll become your new master, I'm in total control,
I'll maim your emotions, I'll run the whole game,
'Till your entire existance is crippled in shame.
When you call me I'll come, sometimes in disguise,
Quite often I'll take you by total surprise,
But take you I will and just as you feared,
I want only to hurt you with no mercy spared.
If you have your own family, Ill see it destroyed,
I'll steal every pleasure in life you've enjoyed,
I'll not only hurt you, I'll kill if I please,
I'm your worst living nightmare, I AM YOUR DISEASE.
I bring self-destruction, but still you can't tell,
I'll sweep you through heaven, then drop you in hell,
I'll chase you forever, wherever you go,
And when I do catch you, you won't even know,
I'll sometimes lay silent, just waiting to strike,
What's yours becomes mine, 'cos I take what I like,
I'll take all you won, and I won't care who sees,
I'm your constant companion, I AM YOUR DISEASE.
If you have any honour, I'll strip it away,
You'll lose all your hope, day after day,
I'll leave you in darkness, while blindly you stare,
I'll reduce you to nothing, and won't even care.
So don't take for granted my powers sublime,
I'll bend and I'll break you, time after time,
I'll crumble your world with the greatest of ease,
I'm the AV inside you, I AM YOUR DISEASE.
But today I'm real angry, you wanna know why?
I've let Sober Recovery to just slip by,
How did I lose you? Where did I go wrong?
One minute I had you, the next you were gone.
You can't just dismiss all the good times we shared,
When you were alone, it was me who appeared,
When you sold those possessions you knew you would need,
Wasn't I the first one who stepped in and agreed?
Now look, you Octsobers, you're all thinking clear,
You escaped with you're lives when you found your way here,
Only fools think they're winners whilst admitting defeat,
It's what you must think while you post at your seat.
So go ahead and surrender, if that's what you choose,
But I'm not giving up, 'cos I can't stand to lose,
So send all your smileys and stories of great cheer,
Leaving me to be damned, crying into my beer.
Well be damned the Octsobers, can't keep me at bay,
Be damned every addict, who back to me strays,
For I know it will happen, I've seen it before,
Those who love misery will crawl back for more.
So take comfort in knowing, I'm waiting right here,
But this time around, you'd better beware,
You think you are stronger, or smarter this time,
There isn't a mountain nor hill you can't climb.
Well if that's what you're thinking, you ain't learnt a thing,
I'll still knock you senseless, if you step in my ring,
But you say you've surrendered, so what can I do?
It's sad in a way, I had big plans for you.
Creating your nightmare for me was a dream,
I'm sure gonna miss you, we made quite a team,
So please don't forget me, 'cos I won't forget you,
I'll stand by your side, watching all that you do.
When you tire of SR, and your Octsober friends,
I'm the one always there right through to the end,
I'll always be faithful. so call if you please,
I just won't forget you, I AM YOUR DISEASE!!
Last edited by Sparkos; 11-28-2014 at 04:44 AM. Reason: It was a long post!
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Venuscat, I'll echo Dee wishing the best.
About six weeks ago we had house guests for a few days, my wife's cousin and aunt. A sixpack of hard lemonade was purchased for the ladies. A few weeks ago I noticed that they were all still sitting in bottom drawer of fridge. My wife said that she forgot they were there and no one asked for a drink. What?! That absolutely makes no sense to me. None. Alcohol is to drink, not take up space!!!
It's so demonstrative of the difference between me and her concerning alcohol. It bothered me for a while knowing that there was alcohol here, but now it's almost funny that they still sit there...... powerless as always against her. For me, they are a reminder of how far I've come and how far I still have to go.
A long weekend for me and for now, off to the gym...
About six weeks ago we had house guests for a few days, my wife's cousin and aunt. A sixpack of hard lemonade was purchased for the ladies. A few weeks ago I noticed that they were all still sitting in bottom drawer of fridge. My wife said that she forgot they were there and no one asked for a drink. What?! That absolutely makes no sense to me. None. Alcohol is to drink, not take up space!!!
It's so demonstrative of the difference between me and her concerning alcohol. It bothered me for a while knowing that there was alcohol here, but now it's almost funny that they still sit there...... powerless as always against her. For me, they are a reminder of how far I've come and how far I still have to go.
A long weekend for me and for now, off to the gym...
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Sparkos, reading that gave me a shiver! A stark reminder to be ever vigilant as my plan for the life ahead is not what the disease had in mind. I don't ever intend to forget that the disease keeps an eye on me just in case...
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Sending hugs for your big day, Venus. Come back to us soon. 
Sparkos, Thank you for sharing the poem. It reminded me of just how close I still am to a very dark place in my life. Have you heard Sad but True by Metallica?. Prepare to rock!
Fromadistance, Yesterday, I noticed that there is still a 12 pack in my parents' fridge from almost two months ago and thought Would someone please drink these so I don't have to keep looking at them?!. Beer has never made it more than 24 hours in my fridge! Lol. Enjoy your workout!
Tiredofme, I love the idea of keeping a notebook of reminders. There are so many inspiring posts on here to include. Thx
Forgivemeall,Jen, Chickchick & Briar, high fives all around for making it another sober day!
If you're hitting the reset button today, do it now. Don't hesitate. And then come back. We miss you and need you.
Sparkos, Thank you for sharing the poem. It reminded me of just how close I still am to a very dark place in my life. Have you heard Sad but True by Metallica?. Prepare to rock!
Fromadistance, Yesterday, I noticed that there is still a 12 pack in my parents' fridge from almost two months ago and thought Would someone please drink these so I don't have to keep looking at them?!. Beer has never made it more than 24 hours in my fridge! Lol. Enjoy your workout!
Tiredofme, I love the idea of keeping a notebook of reminders. There are so many inspiring posts on here to include. Thx
Forgivemeall,Jen, Chickchick & Briar, high fives all around for making it another sober day!
If you're hitting the reset button today, do it now. Don't hesitate. And then come back. We miss you and need you.
02.27.15 :): ▽VII△VIII
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: California
Posts: 2,802
Morning guys, feeling good on the morning after thanksgiving is really nice. My husband had maybe 3 glasses of wine and is complaining of a hangover. Lightweight! I wanted to say you puss, talk to me after 3 bottles! but it's time to let that go.
It's wicked cold this morning...I mean, it's California, so it's like 63 degrees Fahrenheit, speaking of pusses. Nevertheless, I think I'll try to grab a walk while my daughter watches a movie with my husband. I hope everyone has a good day (or night).
It's wicked cold this morning...I mean, it's California, so it's like 63 degrees Fahrenheit, speaking of pusses. Nevertheless, I think I'll try to grab a walk while my daughter watches a movie with my husband. I hope everyone has a good day (or night).
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