Machine528

I was angry when I found this forum. I let what started as a social activity dictate my life. I went into every evening bored and drinking somehow made the time move faster and dull the boredom. Every morning I woke up, hungover and drug my self to the gym to sludge through a half ass workout. I soon became worried when the hangovers stopped and the best part of my day was downing beers until I got drunk. I have nothing in my life to be depressed about it just seems that the boredom created this monster.

aasharon90

I use to complain about
bordom all the time to
my sponsor in early
recovery.

She came back to explain
that in so many words I
was into self all the time.

To get out of self and self
seeking moods and thoughts
was to go help someone.

That in doing so I would
begin losing interest in
my own "crap" or sitting
on my "pity pot" or
feeling sorry for myself
and put the focus on
someone or something
else.

Before i knew it, i would
forget my own problems
and thus begin to smile
and be happy for a change.

And that is how it has been
working for me for 20 yrs.

Machine528

aasharon90, I believe you are 100 percent correct. I have always been self centered and concerned about myself. I always worry about my moods and what I am feeling. Knowing and doing are two different things and I know I need to fix this part of my life. The path you described is a very clear cut path to happiness and I found when I am on my own self centered path I attempted to attain happiness from materialistic things and at the end of the day the void needs to be filled with alcohol.