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Old 12-27-2023, 01:50 PM
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Old 12-27-2023, 06:51 PM
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Not sure what to say.. happy to finally have a genuine day 1. Scared of not sleeping.. excited to know it痴 not because of withdrawal or drugs.. finally. Love you all.. one day at a time. Just one.
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Old 12-27-2023, 07:05 PM
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Sending best wishes and good thoughts to you Josh - hope your sleep settles down quickly

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Old 12-28-2023, 01:23 AM
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5 hours of sleep. Sober. Finally positive. I値l sleep well tonight I知 sure. But for whatever reason, I知 alert and awake and can稚 get back to sleep.. so here we are.
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Old 12-28-2023, 03:05 AM
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Day 2. 5ish hours of sleep. Woke up alert and couldn稚 get back to sleep. My real questions about sobriety are simply these two:

1) when do I stop thinking about drugging and drinking..or even smoking cigarettes!
2) when do I get the 7 or 8 hours of restorative sleep that leave me feeling healthy?
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Old 12-28-2023, 03:38 AM
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The yawning and sneezing is annoying. Trying to stay positive. lol.. I did this to myself.
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Old 12-28-2023, 05:19 AM
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It took weeks for me to have regular sleep. Lots of waking up after a couple hours. I slept at odd times. Some days I slept and woke up and was able to go back to sleep, but not always. The first month was pretty hard, sleep-wise. My body made me sleep when I needed it.

Then I still had the middle of the night wake ups for months. I would get up, make a piece of toast and some SleepyTime tea, and come on this site. By the time the snack was finished I was able to go back to sleep. Laying in bed awake in the dark was (still is) something I just don't do. My mind plays too many tricks on me.

As far as thinking about drugs and drinking? Again, this site is really helpful. Are you posting in one of the ongoing support threads, like the "Class of December," or the 24 hour thread or something similar? Get plugged in. Read everything. Maybe you'd like sobriety podcasts. In early days I went to AA meetings, too. For the first four months I went to a minimum of one meeting a day - sometimes up to four meetings a day.
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Old 12-28-2023, 10:50 AM
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I知 so irritated about being irritated. I知 frustrated about everything.. haha.. it値l pass.. until it does I need to not be around anyone. Zero patience.
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Old 12-28-2023, 12:45 PM
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Bims suggestion of joining a thread is not a bad idea, Josh.

Sometimes we can think too much to the point of overthinking.

It’s probably the last thing you’d think of doing right now but in the early days it really did me good to get out of my head by listening and responding to someone else here?

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Old 12-28-2023, 04:07 PM
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Will do! Thanks guys!
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Old 12-28-2023, 11:22 PM
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Josh I agree with Biminiblue on connection, its so important when starting out. I gained so much from SR. I tried on my own too many times to count but being able to come here saved me, I still do every day since.
Podcasts i listen to are over the influence and one for the road. Scary how some stories are so similar to my own.
Hope you slept better this night.
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Old 12-29-2023, 02:04 PM
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I知 over there lurking and reading and amazed at how similar my story is to everyone痴.. amazing.

is this what true sobriety feels like?! I知 not watching the clock.. I知 free.. just kinda amazed..even kratom had me watching time. Dosing.. all that BS.. amazing to just exist. I love it.
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Old 12-29-2023, 02:33 PM
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yeah freedom is an amazing thing to feel after being in chains for so long

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