Cravings..
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Hey everyone,
so far..so good. I am really missing the past.. remembering times when I was truly happy (before addiction) and longing for those days.. is that normal? Is it normal to remember these really fun times and long for them..? I know there won’t be fun times hanging with my childhood friends playing Tony Hawk’s Pro Skater.. but why am I craving and longing for those perfectly fun days? Why am I stuck in the past? At first I thought it was just days as a kid with no responsibility but no - I long for fun times as an adult. So it’s not responsibility.. just my funky brain rewriting itself perhaps.
song of the day: Superman - Goldfinger (thanks Tony Hawk).
so far..so good. I am really missing the past.. remembering times when I was truly happy (before addiction) and longing for those days.. is that normal? Is it normal to remember these really fun times and long for them..? I know there won’t be fun times hanging with my childhood friends playing Tony Hawk’s Pro Skater.. but why am I craving and longing for those perfectly fun days? Why am I stuck in the past? At first I thought it was just days as a kid with no responsibility but no - I long for fun times as an adult. So it’s not responsibility.. just my funky brain rewriting itself perhaps.
song of the day: Superman - Goldfinger (thanks Tony Hawk).
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For me it was the loss of those subsequent years that got to me Jimmy.
I still do the teenage stuff I used to love to do - simple stuff like music, video games, hobbies...I'm lucky to have found, or rediscovered friends who like to do those things too.
I'm sure you'll be the same Jimmy
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I still do the teenage stuff I used to love to do - simple stuff like music, video games, hobbies...I'm lucky to have found, or rediscovered friends who like to do those things too.
I'm sure you'll be the same Jimmy
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Hi Jimmy
You will surprise yourself when you start to find new hobbies around you. I didn't look for any in particularly they found me. I live next to the sea and didn't use it at all, i do now at any opportunity. I walk, i spend more time with family i take numerous photos, some have found there way into frames on family walls which makes me smile. You are doing great Jimmy keep going.
You will surprise yourself when you start to find new hobbies around you. I didn't look for any in particularly they found me. I live next to the sea and didn't use it at all, i do now at any opportunity. I walk, i spend more time with family i take numerous photos, some have found there way into frames on family walls which makes me smile. You are doing great Jimmy keep going.
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We're all different Jimmy.
Whenever I longed for the past it was always with a sense of loss...I wanted the Dee back before the drugs etc...and I found him again....not exactly the same cos he was 20 years older and had been through a lot...but I recognised and embraced the old me.
No reason you cant do the same man
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Whenever I longed for the past it was always with a sense of loss...I wanted the Dee back before the drugs etc...and I found him again....not exactly the same cos he was 20 years older and had been through a lot...but I recognised and embraced the old me.
No reason you cant do the same man
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Like Dee said Jimmy.
I to also think back at times but then i remember i was in my 20s, no family no responsibility i just lived for the weekend out, the 2 weeks away in Spain with the lads. These were fun as i only remember the selected "good times".
Turned 50 this year so i will never get those times back, i dont want them now, im at a different stage of life and im embracing it as best i can. I now look forward instead of back and its a lot more exciting.
I to also think back at times but then i remember i was in my 20s, no family no responsibility i just lived for the weekend out, the 2 weeks away in Spain with the lads. These were fun as i only remember the selected "good times".
Turned 50 this year so i will never get those times back, i dont want them now, im at a different stage of life and im embracing it as best i can. I now look forward instead of back and its a lot more exciting.
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I was doing so good.. then briefly relapsed. The thing about it.. it wasn’t fun. Guilt filled and not worth it. I cannot get high. My tolerance is too high.. and I just don’t want to. I just want to be able to live a sober life. I’m pretty sad I relapsed - but I see that “lemme just get high one more time” doesn’t work. Drugs don’t work for me. It’s nice to see they don’t. Not sure why I have to find things out the hard way. As always.. I love you all. Thank you for your words.
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