Sober recovery gives me hope
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Join Date: Nov 2019
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Sober recovery gives me hope
Hey everyone this is my first post although I've browsed the forums for awhile. I'm really stuck in my own head, I feel hopeless and miserable almost 24/7. I once had 5 years sober and lost everything. I havnt called my sponsor in ages. I feel like I'm just rotting away.
However for the first time in a long time I'm taking action. I went to a meeting tonight and read a few threads on here, somehow i always hear exactly what I need to hear. I don't really know where I'm going with this but it feels good to be a part of this site and finally back to the program!
However for the first time in a long time I'm taking action. I went to a meeting tonight and read a few threads on here, somehow i always hear exactly what I need to hear. I don't really know where I'm going with this but it feels good to be a part of this site and finally back to the program!
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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Welcome, Reckoningday.
I did 2yrs once and then relapsed. It feels horrible I know. So I am glad that you are finding hope here.
You might have to brush the rust off but I can tell that you still have the tools in the toolbox.
I did 2yrs once and then relapsed. It feels horrible I know. So I am glad that you are finding hope here.
You might have to brush the rust off but I can tell that you still have the tools in the toolbox.
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Hi Reckoningday - it's so good to have you with us.
I had 3 yrs. once & decided I could try a 'nice glass of wine'. Which of course turned into a bottle of wine - more the next day, etc. I was lost for years after that - but thankfully I found SR. The encouragement & understanding has meant everything. I hope you'll stay with us - please know you're never alone. Congratulations on your decision to reclaim your life. We know you can!
I had 3 yrs. once & decided I could try a 'nice glass of wine'. Which of course turned into a bottle of wine - more the next day, etc. I was lost for years after that - but thankfully I found SR. The encouragement & understanding has meant everything. I hope you'll stay with us - please know you're never alone. Congratulations on your decision to reclaim your life. We know you can!
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Thank you all for the strong words and support! To tell you the truth I'm miserable. But I'm not giving up! I'm all over the place. I've made my meetings, reconnected with my sponsor. I was dreading that call but so relieved I did. I'll keep coming back ☺
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Originally Posted by Reckoningday 
Thank you all for the strong words and support! To tell you the truth I'm miserable. But I'm not giving up! I'm all over the place. I've made my meetings, reconnected with my sponsor. I was dreading that call but so relieved I did. I'll keep coming back ☺
lol, She meant it in a good way, what we create we can change was her point, but it took me awhile to understand that. Shortly after I left her office, I was in my car, and that song, "If your going through hell, Keep on going" came on the radio. I pulled over and lost it. But it was a great turning point for me. I still listen to it on my bad or hard days. Hang in there, and keep on going when it feels rough. You can do it.
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