I just posted in the newcomers thread and thought I'd just copy my intro here as well. I look forward forum chatting with you and hope that today so far is going good for you
Hi everyone! Long story short (sort of)
I was on this site a few years back, met such great people and received the best advice and support. It helped so muchÖ. so I stopped posting and/or listening to anything recovery related because I was clean. And cured. and knew everything - obviously, since I had so long off my drugs of choice, right? Wrong ☹
In the time I was doing well I hadnít really come across a situation that might trigger a relapse but I assumed when it happened I would be ok. When I was at the drís last week he prescribed some narcotics and I stared at him wanting to say no, I canít have narcotics. EVER. What I actually said was Ďsure, thanks, can I have enough for the month, just in case?í and couldnít run to the pharmacy to fill them fast enough.
Back to the long story short part, the pills are gone and I both hate myself for taking them and wish I could get more. Clearly I was only doing well because I wasnít put in a situation giving me a choice whether to use or not.
Guess Iím not so smart afterall.
So Iím back for more encouragement, advice, support and most of all, accountability for myself.
Thanks for listening ((hugs))