Two Weeks yeah
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Those little excuses will do it every time if you let them Cista. When they come up recognise them for what they are...avoidance of the real task at hand.
It gets easier with practice, and each time you succeed as you have just done, the foundations of your sobriety are strengthened. Big win that one Cista.
It gets easier with practice, and each time you succeed as you have just done, the foundations of your sobriety are strengthened. Big win that one Cista.
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Hey Cista, good on you for getting through that craving, actually sounds more like a compulsion and I know they can be brutal. It's so normal and you did the right thing. There are many techniques to fight them I'm sure you know but every time you get through an urge you get that little bit stronger.
You are on the right path.
You are doing right thing.
You are stronger than you think and you can do this!
With you
You are on the right path.
You are doing right thing.
You are stronger than you think and you can do this!
With you
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Thanks for the support Forte and Steeley. It suddenly feels like it's become harder in a sense. When I went through withdrawal all I felt was disgust towards my doc because of the pain. Now 5 weeks later it feels like I can deal with anything but in reality I can't. I will always be an addict but for today I choose life....just trying to deal with one crappy day at a time.
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Hi everyone...my sleep pattern has suddenly changed over the last 4 day. No matter what time I go to sleep my brain will switch on about 5 hrs later. I feel exhausted from the lack of sleep. Is this a usual occurrence in recovery??
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Hi Cista.
Yeah, its really normal to have weird sleep patterns. I havent really slept in a long time. Im like you. 4 or 5 hrs on a good day. Everyone ive talked to about it says it goes back to normal eventually. I hope so.
I hope youre ok.
Yeah, its really normal to have weird sleep patterns. I havent really slept in a long time. Im like you. 4 or 5 hrs on a good day. Everyone ive talked to about it says it goes back to normal eventually. I hope so.
I hope youre ok.
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I was cruising along in recovery putting my energy into fighting fatigue and cravings. Now things are starting to settle I feel like I have lost my passion for the things I used to love doing like reading or even going out. This makes me feel even more messed up wondering if I will really get back to who I was. Sorry for the depressing post guys just trying to keep it real.
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Hi Forte I appreciate the support. Your words about healing hit home today. I have been so absorbed with recovery from doc I (intentionally or not) have been overlooking the reasons why I started using. Time to start healing from the trauma now. Thank you my friend. 'In it together'
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As forte says don't underestimate what your body is going through: loads of false starts and set backs physically at this stage - the indignation you feel "I've not done X for Y amount of time I should feel amazing!" - it doesn't play out that way sadly.
just try not to judge yourself or give yourself too hard a time. Be kind to yourself. You deserve that.
True Acceptance of addiction and what it means to be an addict everyday for the rest of your days is a sobering thought. Could overwhelm you if we didn't take it one day at a time
White light n love on its way - keep the faith X
just try not to judge yourself or give yourself too hard a time. Be kind to yourself. You deserve that.
True Acceptance of addiction and what it means to be an addict everyday for the rest of your days is a sobering thought. Could overwhelm you if we didn't take it one day at a time
White light n love on its way - keep the faith X
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Even after my yrs of excuses I have suddenly been contacted by old friends ,who knew me before my yrs of active addiction, who want to catch up. Slightly nervous to socialise without my drug induced numbing confidence. So I have been digging deep to find the natural confidence I used to have. Its my first big step without doc but I keep telling myself I must be a good person if they still call me their friend. Just realised Im ranting on sorry....just feeling nervous and slightly scared.
it's a good thing x
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