Soberwolf

Awesome work Cista congratulations on 3 weeks

Dee74

Congrats on that insight Cista - and on 3 weeks

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Cista

Feel like I am finally getting to a mentally good place. I loved getting back to work today. It took my mind off everything and I am lucky enough to work with good people who enjoy having a laugh...it helped so much. I am very mindful my danger times are the weekend so I am try to pluck enough courage and go to a NA meeting on Saturday. Thank you for the ongoing support SR family.

Cista

1 month today and going well. The cravings aren't too bad. I keep reminding myself using would screw up my dopamine levels which are still recovering. Have been working on mindfulness technique. Looking forward to getting stronger and stronger.

Dee74

Congrats on your month Cista

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sugarangel

You are doing amazing. Congratulations on 1 month.

Forte

Awesome job Cista, stay strong!!

Cista

Thanks everyone...your support means so much to me on this journey. Tonight I decided after a month of recovery its time to start getting physically stronger so went for a short jog and did a few core muscle reps. I havent felt so good for so long....natural highs rock.

sugarangel

Awesome! I am thinking I might try a little yoga soon. Just can't seem to find the motivation to do anything. I am only on day 5.
You are doing so good. You really are. Enjoy those endorphins!

Cista

Thanks Sugarangel. Congrats on day 5. I hope you are doing okay. Motivation is a total downer and I know exactly how it feels... yoga would be awesome.

Forte

That's really good Cista!!

Must be a great feeling,
You guys are really doing well

Cista

Hi Forte it is an awesome feeling after 1 mth of recovery and poor motivation. How are you going?

Forte

Sorry I missed this post Cista, just wanted to send good vibes your way

Stay strong and keep gaining those little victories.

Progress, not perfection

finaltime

Sugarangel and cista KEEP GOING!!! It gets better I PROMISE!! It can't get any worse unless you PICK UP AGAIN! hang in there!!!

RedManc7

Progress not perfection great quote brother - realising that it took a long time for my addiction to hit its nadir and that being a healthy non-using addict won't just be a stroll in the park just cos I got clean. I know that sounds naive but I guess I romanticised what 1 year, 2 year free of heroin would be like - I felt I had to to get clean but I guess sometimes the reality of the struggle and urges/thoughts coming back even fleetingly & not crazy overwhelming have scared me and I want to push back on this & not think I can drift happily through sobriety.
I have to respect my addiction if that makes sense and invest time and energy in keeping clean and rebuilding my life. Thanks y'all :-)

Cista

Hi Redman I totally agree. I might focus and talk about the positives but it doesn't mean I don't struggle at times. Over the last week I have had to beat down the little voice telling me 'just once more' many times. Some days I have plan out every moment in the day just to stay busy. But it is worth the fight. Exercise helps me feel like I am in control of something and also make me feel stronger. Peace.

sugarangel

I have to plan my days out, too Cista. I'm no good left to my own devices. How are you doing?

Cista

Holy S**t finished work and on my way home all good then it felt like my brain was on auto pilot tell me to use and my body was just going through the motions. Scared the hell out of myself and still freaked out.

Steely

It happens, but it will pass. Just keep going Cista. You are doing great, and don't forget it was your first day back at work too.

Cista

Thx Steeley. it just scared me how close I came to relapse. All the little excuses started to add up. I really struggled to get myself back to a better place mentally. Just happy I got through it.