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Chasingthedream I think that right there is the best you can do. I am sure there isn't a recovered person in the house that hasn't had to deal with emotions being out of whack....the extreme highs and lows, the anxiety and/or depression. I've found gratitude a wonderful way to keep things into perspective! Just the fact that you are on the heathy side of things and not still stuck in active addiction is worth being grateful! It's a long hard road and uphill battle....but you've made it to that other side and going strong! Congrats!
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I get mad anxiety but I reckon that might just be me anyway. Stick at it Chasing. I read and add to my gratitude list every night and try to go to sleep on a positive thought. It's the little things etc.
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The anxiety can be killer. I am at 32 days and every morning on my commute to work I have horrible anxiety which lasts until about 10am. Once I get into work it goes away for the most part. The worst symtpom of the anxiety for me is the sore throat and pain while swallowing. The best advice I can give is staying active; whether you read, play a game, or watch a funny tv show or movie - anything to keep your mind elsewhere is huge. Also - the B vitamin supplement (Inositol) is amazing. I am not a doctor, but my Specialist recommended this to help combat the anxiety and Ive noticed a huge difference - it is pretty much B vitamins that are natural in plant and animal tissue.
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Thanks for the suggestions guys.
Yeah, yesterday was the first time I actually wrote a list of things Im grateful for as a direct counter to my negative feelings, and I was amazed at how much better it made me feel immediately.
Have battled thorough a few intense cravings over the last couple of months, and know I can do it, so it's all good. It's just all about the marathon (PAWS) now!
How you doing Red and jmag?
Yeah, yesterday was the first time I actually wrote a list of things Im grateful for as a direct counter to my negative feelings, and I was amazed at how much better it made me feel immediately.
Have battled thorough a few intense cravings over the last couple of months, and know I can do it, so it's all good. It's just all about the marathon (PAWS) now!
How you doing Red and jmag?
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Originally Posted by cleaninLI 
Chasingthedream I think that right there is the best you can do. I am sure there isn't a recovered person in the house that hasn't had to deal with emotions being out of whack....the extreme highs and lows, the anxiety and/or depression. I've found gratitude a wonderful way to keep things into perspective! Just the fact that you are on the heathy side of things and not still stuck in active addiction is worth being grateful! It's a long hard road and uphill battle....but you've made it to that other side and going strong! Congrats!
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Chasing,
You could be posting for me with this thread!!! I just feel at times like I cannot enjoy ANYTHING! Time crawls on and I feel at a loss. There is lots for me to do but I get exhausted or overwhelmed easy, and any outside pressure really gets to me. I know I just have to ride it out, but I just wish there was a way where I could MARKEDLY increase healing from paws. Heal the body, moods, neuro pathways, receptors etc. I haven't really felt the buzzing highs though, that would be nice.
If I didn't know about PAWS I would be convinced I was ape crap silly willy wonka totally bonkers, going through this! Good to have support here and to know others are going through this. Im over 3 months off methadone and 2 months totally clean and sober off anything else.
You could be posting for me with this thread!!! I just feel at times like I cannot enjoy ANYTHING! Time crawls on and I feel at a loss. There is lots for me to do but I get exhausted or overwhelmed easy, and any outside pressure really gets to me. I know I just have to ride it out, but I just wish there was a way where I could MARKEDLY increase healing from paws. Heal the body, moods, neuro pathways, receptors etc. I haven't really felt the buzzing highs though, that would be nice.
If I didn't know about PAWS I would be convinced I was ape crap silly willy wonka totally bonkers, going through this! Good to have support here and to know others are going through this. Im over 3 months off methadone and 2 months totally clean and sober off anything else.
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I'm good just been to bikram again teacher complimented me on my improvements which was nice. finally seem to be getting into a groove at work and am looking forward to a weekend of more bikram, Work and watching the Man United match and the UFC. United play at 2am over here Saturday night - I find staying awake these days a bit harder seen as I'm not pumped full of Persians but I have a man united body-clock - wherever I am in the world my body wakes me up when United play. Used to irritate my ex's loads if we were on holiday and id go out on missions to find somewhere showing the match. Or wake them up with my shouting/swearing if we conceded a goal or lost lol - no wonder I'm single lmafo. My (soon to be ex)business partner leaves on feb 9th so work Is insane but I'm buzzing off it. Taking a client for lunch later, I used to go and get on after such lunches then come back to work smacked out of my head. Do mad stuff then like have one on ones with staff members with both of us lying on the floor at either end of the board room table. Lunacy looking back.
The PAWS factor is high but I've got too much to do to give it that much energy. Got to prepare for a big client presentation next week as well.
Stay strong chasing - all I know is that life gets better when I'm clean and disintegrates into lunacy like lying down meetings when I use. Have a solid, strong clean weekend everyone :-)
The PAWS factor is high but I've got too much to do to give it that much energy. Got to prepare for a big client presentation next week as well.
Stay strong chasing - all I know is that life gets better when I'm clean and disintegrates into lunacy like lying down meetings when I use. Have a solid, strong clean weekend everyone :-)
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Doing well also. Long day back at work after missing 2.5 from the blizzard we had. Really should get into some type of exercise like bikram. After32 days i still suffer from aches and my body temp is so unregulated that I am hot all the time. Looking forward to the weekend - going out for one of the first time since I got clean. going to try not to drink even though I could. Feel like itll mess with brain chemistry and set me back. I never had a problem with alcohol and I really dont enjoy drinking - have to steer clear of any other synthetic drug though. Not a huge problem as I dont have any real urges to use thankfully. All of my friends still do, so i stay away. My girlfriend on the other hand despises all drug use, so thats solid. Hope everyone is doing well. Feel like posting may keep me from relapse this time around. Second try is going to be my last try - sticking with it. Keep your head up and all will be better w time.
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Hi everyone!
Just wanted to wish all of y'all good vibes in getting to the other side of the new Recovery adventure! We didn't become addicts overnight - well some of us didn't - so it isn't going to be a quick Recovery! Our minds and bodies got used to the effects from our DOC. Our minds and bodies have to get used to not having it now.
It's the same as, if we gain weight? It took us a while to put on the weight. It's going to take us time to get it off! Persistence is the key word here!
As for anxiety? How many got the anxiety from running out of your DOC? Compare the anxiety you have now to that! I was crazy waiting on my next pain pill. I couldn't hardly get anything done while waiting. And after I got the pills? Nothing got done. So I'll take the clean time!
May peace and serenity be in y'all's lives each day!
TOD
Just wanted to wish all of y'all good vibes in getting to the other side of the new Recovery adventure! We didn't become addicts overnight - well some of us didn't - so it isn't going to be a quick Recovery! Our minds and bodies got used to the effects from our DOC. Our minds and bodies have to get used to not having it now.
It's the same as, if we gain weight? It took us a while to put on the weight. It's going to take us time to get it off! Persistence is the key word here!
As for anxiety? How many got the anxiety from running out of your DOC? Compare the anxiety you have now to that! I was crazy waiting on my next pain pill. I couldn't hardly get anything done while waiting. And after I got the pills? Nothing got done. So I'll take the clean time!
May peace and serenity be in y'all's lives each day!
TOD
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Originally Posted by Tiredofdrugs
Hi everyone!
Just wanted to wish all of y'all good vibes in getting to the other side of the new Recovery adventure! We didn't become addicts overnight - well some of us didn't - so it isn't going to be a quick Recovery! Our minds and bodies got used to the effects from our DOC. Our minds and bodies have to get used to not having it now.
It's the same as, if we gain weight? It took us a while to put on the weight. It's going to take us time to get it off! Persistence is the key word here!
As for anxiety? How many got the anxiety from running out of your DOC? Compare the anxiety you have now to that! I was crazy waiting on my next pain pill. I couldn't hardly get anything done while waiting. And after I got the pills? Nothing got done. So I'll take the clean time!
May peace and serenity be in y'all's lives each day!
TOD
Just wanted to wish all of y'all good vibes in getting to the other side of the new Recovery adventure! We didn't become addicts overnight - well some of us didn't - so it isn't going to be a quick Recovery! Our minds and bodies got used to the effects from our DOC. Our minds and bodies have to get used to not having it now.
It's the same as, if we gain weight? It took us a while to put on the weight. It's going to take us time to get it off! Persistence is the key word here!
As for anxiety? How many got the anxiety from running out of your DOC? Compare the anxiety you have now to that! I was crazy waiting on my next pain pill. I couldn't hardly get anything done while waiting. And after I got the pills? Nothing got done. So I'll take the clean time!
May peace and serenity be in y'all's lives each day!
TOD
I totally agree with you about the anxiety- when I think back to the horrors of waiting for my dealer to turn up, hiding the drugs, then waking up in the morning and wondering where I'd drunkenly left the wrap, nothing I'm feeling now compares to that.
There were mornings where it would take me an hour to remember where I'd 'hidden' the wrap, and the whole time I was looking for it I'd be worrying that my husband would find it. Makes me sick to think about it. Thank god I'm not in that place now!
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The time wasted waiting for dealers to turn up. Getting stressed, snapping at your mates, arguing about whose turn it is, if your at the bottom of the barrel having to deal with tall stories about why you got less or you mate took 30 minutes to leave the house get in a car and out again. Arguing over drugs. You got more etc etc you've opened my balloon of smack etc etc - Jesus wept. What a life. Clean living wins every time.
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Today is today! Tomorrow is Tomorrow! Live in the now! Before you realize it? Your bad feelings will pass and you'll feel better!
I also understand getting in a moment where we can't seem to move, think, breathe. I'm there now. I'm at a loss as to what to do. But I also know it will pass and I'll get thru this. I just have to get my brain cells back together from their scattered thoughts. Going in six different directions all at once. It's due to one of my pets being sick, my husband and the Vet! Not due to drugs! In the past? Popping a pill to get past all of this would have happened. It's now time to get my thoughts together and sort thru it all. I mean seriously! Don't we all get caught in situations where we feel frozen in time?
Keep it clean! Stay in the now and all things will come out for the better!
TOD
I also understand getting in a moment where we can't seem to move, think, breathe. I'm there now. I'm at a loss as to what to do. But I also know it will pass and I'll get thru this. I just have to get my brain cells back together from their scattered thoughts. Going in six different directions all at once. It's due to one of my pets being sick, my husband and the Vet! Not due to drugs! In the past? Popping a pill to get past all of this would have happened. It's now time to get my thoughts together and sort thru it all. I mean seriously! Don't we all get caught in situations where we feel frozen in time?
Keep it clean! Stay in the now and all things will come out for the better!
TOD
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Just noticing how much gratitude plays a part in staying on the front foot!
There's a sweet little free app called 'Happy App' for smartphones, it prompts you everyday to make a note of what went well, then it reminds you now & again randomly of what went well on certain days in the past, worth a DL is you're trying to up your good vibes!!
There's a sweet little free app called 'Happy App' for smartphones, it prompts you everyday to make a note of what went well, then it reminds you now & again randomly of what went well on certain days in the past, worth a DL is you're trying to up your good vibes!!
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Originally Posted by gnarlyboots
Just noticing how much gratitude plays a part in staying on the front foot!
There's a sweet little free app called 'Happy App' for smartphones, it prompts you everyday to make a note of what went well, then it reminds you now & again randomly of what went well on certain days in the past, worth a DL is you're trying to up your good vibes!!
There's a sweet little free app called 'Happy App' for smartphones, it prompts you everyday to make a note of what went well, then it reminds you now & again randomly of what went well on certain days in the past, worth a DL is you're trying to up your good vibes!!
It's a good suggestion for those needing it!
Thanks!
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TOD there are indeed my friend! Do you eat those silkie chickens? I think they would be great with some fresh dipping sauce!!!
For those of us who don't have Chinese silky chickens, patenting a cool app is a good way to make some $, you have any brilliant ideas send 'em to me OK guys
For those of us who don't have Chinese silky chickens, patenting a cool app is a good way to make some $, you have any brilliant ideas send 'em to me OK guys
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